zoebleu
ok, have been raw off and on since 1997, mostly off until 2005 then raw a lot but always binging on cooked food after a few months. Longest time raw was 4 months at which point I ate pizza and coke and to my astonishment, it still tasted good to me. Despite being raw so much, I never lost my deep seated taste for cooked food SAD. A year ago I started eating a lot of SAD and then raw, SAD then raw with no real fasting in between. I used to binge on SAD then fast for four or five days and be ok. I have become chronicly constipated with other IBS symptoms and have natural aversion to doctors of course, having been raw so many times, even teaching raw classes and prepping for people... I was very convinced raw but once I got the IBS symptoms, eating raw food meant big trouble so I started back on cooked which has it's own problems of course, besides the mental ones, it has led to a constipation lasting months... seriously... only small leakage but no actual parastalsis, no real bowel movements in months... though eating at times large amounts... what has happened to my system? My bowel has forgotten what to do. It no longer moves the waste out. This has been chronic for almost a year. Before going raw I had no problems like this and while raw no problems until this past year. I am female, very clean living, no alcohol, drugs or immoral behavior, 42 years young and weigh under a hundred pounds, having lost weight since this began. I look healthy and have energy enough to do many things most of the time unless there is a surge of heat in the anus, which feels like internal hemmoroids or some kind of breach in the integrity of the inner anus. In other words, it burns often enough to disturb sleep, and all in all this dis ease has disabled me. Before the constipation it was chronic urgency and incontinence, which continues with perpetual liquid anal leakage. I know all of this is crazy but it is my private world that makes it hard to fast, now that i believe fasting is the only cure and if i turn to a gastroenterologist I will be led down the path of medical ignorance that out medical system is famous for in the alt community... yet i am tempted, since i now eat their food, to seek their therapy... doctors. I once believed raw can cure anything but now i doubt that. i do believe it is best for healthy people and all children are best started raw from the begining but once a person is older their system may be too damaged to benefit from all raw... or so it seems. now i am addicted to cooked food again, and worse than ever.
I say it is hard to fast now because i am no longer the healthy person I was when I used to fast regularly, every week at least 3-4 days... now if i am at 24 hours i begin to feel crazy, either with cravings or with sickly feelings.
I have wierd things in the anal leakage, always small light colored stones and other odd assortment of formed things, like reddish thin tubes.