Can't help but have concern for your state of mind. I applaud 3 for this especially:
>>Hang in there you will heal yourself. At some point you will be looking back at this part of your life with new eyes. Your just in the midst of it right now that is why it seems a bit dark.
You (we all, whenever *blue* must maintain this thought above. Additionally, YOU must INISIST upon yourself the thought below, w respect to taking your like from this physical universe which gave you. You were meant to be here.
IT IS NOT AN OPTION. Repeat each and every moment you come even close to that point, that place. Moments, in nature, are fleeting - remember. It is not an option, not and option, won't, can't. Never permit these self-indulgent machinations. No capitulation, never. Ever. Persevere - period.
On acne. Please look into Trysten's posts, all of them - and these in particular:
//www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=1227197
//www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=1227202#i
Review her posts going back in time and learn from her experiences/successes.
Acne, continued:
Accutane is an Rx known to be incredibly effective. But it's not a drug you want to even experiment with, probably not anyone. I consider it diabolically unsafe for the simple reason alone that it is essentially guaranteed to cause severe birth defects and it's known to alter behavior, thought process, and can incur suicidal thinking - with anyone. So why mention it? Because it's really nothing more than super concentrated vitamin A (So to speak.) But it opens the pores and allows the garbage out. Your frame of mind and your whole body health are responsible for what's going on. You want the negatives out and your skin is not allowing this status for whatever toxins and microbes you've acquired and accumulate to expel from the largest organ in your body.
So grab some of this:
http://www.vitacost.com/EthicalNutrientsMycelVitaminA
Yet be careful with it. Take in quantity only what appears to produce only a favorable reaction, and no more.
While at it, grab some highly ozonated olive or coconut oil.
http://www.ozonatedoilonline.com/catalog.html
Stick with the iodine. Water. Oxygen. Vitamin C. As much as you can attain and absorb. Positive thinking only. Extremely important. Look into frequency theories and therapies. Rife, Tesla, Reich, McCabe, Gawain, Tolle, V, W, T, Also read every post that comes in from Zoebess. She's got it going on in a big way.
And be grateful for the life you were given.
Please share more about your general health if you can. Perhaps it will help others help you better. Please rely on any source you have access to (such as CZ) for support. Please continue posting so we know how you are doing.
We are here for you.