i dont know what to do with myself. i didnt realize how much i rely on food not even for nourishment just for something to do. i had to turn the tv off too many darn commercials for junk. im excited that i started. last night i didnt really sleep but when i did i dreamed of gigantic brownies and chocolate cake. this is terrible i need a distraction. i went to the park today that was fun but it'll be getting dark soon so...i guess i have to make it work inside. like someone put in an earlier post maybe i should write down all the reasons i am doing this that alone should give me the strength to push on.