Let the transformation begin . . (no matter how small or large) by enamored_mystic .....
I am slowly wading into the pool when I should be jumping
Date: 3/6/2008 10:01:12 PM ( 13 y ago)
I have chosen the mermaid as my symbol of transformation. She uses the water has her mode of transport/sustenance as will I in the coming days. Water fasting will be the way I choose to heal.
I had started on a ten day fast about a week ago and did not make it through. I tried but I had not made it past day 2 previously, so there was much fear there. (I did make it through day 4 though! so I consider that a small victory and have chosen not to beat myself up for not following through). I have decided to just fast when I can and if it happens to turn into a long fast then yay!
Unfortunately as I was growing up, fear was instilled into me by those around me. So at times I seem like I am slowly wading into the pool when I should be jumping. Please bear with that and keep it in mind when you read. I am doing the best I can in this moment. And I am learning to celebrate the small successes and not berate myself for "failing."
Enough of that. I am starting again today. Am more than 12 hours through and am not hungry. I didn't eat alot yesterday, so it shouldn't be too much of a struggle as far as hunger.
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