evening, day 3
Finding non-eating sources of satisfaction.
Date: 6/11/2007 7:17:32 PM ( 10 y ) ... viewed 1463 times
Well, we're off to the races. The lemonade/cayenne and SWFs really kicked in today, and I found myself going to the loo a lot more often. Nothing painful, but more gas than I expected. (I wasn't tipped off about this -- folks don't seem to talk about gas much. But I've been having lots! and not enjoying it one bit.) It was a slightly more difficult day, for a few reasons. I went running for the first time since my cleanse began, and while I was really happy to be back in my shoes, listening to my ipod and punching through the park like a badass, I did tire much more easily. I found that I felt cold, even while running and sweating. Strange? I felt the same when I walked down to pick up more lemons. It was a warm, sunny day and there I was in a fleece jacket feeling a wee bit clammy.
I met up with a friend for lunch (he had the Cobb, I the mint tea) and then we grocery shopped together. I didn't mind wandering around the aisles, but I did start to wear thin when my friend was puzzling over the chips. I wanted one! So it goes. I picked up some lemons and limes and headed back home. It's funny what your "treats" are when you don't have food. A walk along the river, a cup of mint tea, some time on the back deck with a good book...a bubble bath, music. I think when you stop focusing on the pleasure and satisfaction of one, isolated area of your body, you begin to realize that you've been ignoring lots of other pleasures. Whole body pleasures. I should make a list of these and refer to it when I come home pissed at a colleague and ready to bite through the refrigerator door.
I had more lemonades today than I did the past 2 days (9 today, compared with 6 yesterday and the day before). But I'm not really rationing. I'd like to lose weight, but I'm really hoping that this will help with my skin (I have discoloration -- melasma -- which is linked to excess estrogen) and with the alarmingly high level of mercury that showed on a recent blood test (dang, should've paid attention to all those 20/20 stories on the dangers of tuna in salad bars). But it is nice to have my shorts hang a little lower on my hips. Hey, I'm female in America, of course I want to lose weight.
I'm nervous about the next two days: it's opera in the park this week in New York, which I love love love. My friends and I always meet up to sit on an old shower curtain with waaaaaay too many bottles of wine, different kinds of chips, little noshes. It's like a big, goofy slumber party in the middle of Central Park. It'll be hard to forgo the snacks and the buzz. But what the hell...being with my friends and the music is the main thing.
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