What have I gotten myself into???
Date: 6/9/2006 5:37:45 AM ( 15 y ) ... viewed 2894 times
Today is my down day :-( It really began yesterday about 3 hours before I went to bed for the night (around 5pm) and again I slept almost 12 hours!!! The majority of the day yesterday I felt as if I'd taken ephedrine, and as I've said, I haven't touched the stuff for over 3 years!!! But I crashed from this "high" around 2pm and spiraled downwards into a panic attack. I felt dizzy, with a STRANGE pressure in my head, and a little nauseous at times. I kept telling myself that the toxins have been stirred up, and I'm feeling "speedy" because all of those trapped toxins are circulating and looking for a way out. I've read in the forum that most people experience a strengthening/intensification of their pre-existing conditions and their symptoms, and the next morning those will disappear with their eliminations. I woke this morning feeling extremely clear-headed, a little achey, and rushed to do my SWF before those symptoms crept back up on me. As I am waiting for the SWF to begin it's journey "out" my headache is building back up on me. I hope I am passing a majority of the toxins today, and that I won't have too many more days like this ahead, atleast not a severe as yesterday.
Having a 2 1/2 year old to keep up with is very taxing while fasting. I use my time here on the computer as my resting period, and most of the other times I'm rolling around on the floor, being dragged outside to play in the dirt, to look for "bad bugs", to find "pretty rocks", or to go to on our nature walks around my mothers property. I find it refreshing and draining at the same time. She watches some educational programs for children (Noggin/Sprout) and I use those times to pick up the house, and cook for her and my husband. Doing anything passed that seems to drain me completely. I am sure in a few days I'll finally experience those "up days" that everyone raves about. In fact I'm counting on it!!! Right now that's the only thing that keeps me hanging on, that promise of renewed stamina, and mental clarity, along with the probable health benefits.
I try to communicate on the forum as often as I can, but being that we rise somewhere between 2:30am and 4:30am, and go to bed around 4-5pm, that doesn't leave much time to post/reply on the forum when everyone else is on. I post early in the morning, and early afternoon. My husband works the night shift and we keep these hours in order to see him when he comes home and before he goes to work, and also so my little one can play outside. We used to sleep the day away and be up all through the night when she was a baby, but since she's started playing outside everyday (for about a year now) we have been keeping these very odd hours. I can't wait till my husband gets put on days (he's worked nights since I was pregnant with her) so I can feel like I'm part of the world again!!!
Symptoms aside, I am still as determined as ever to reach my goal of 40 days. If anything, these strong detox symptoms have shown me that the cleanse is REALLY working and to give up now would be a mistake. Good Luck fellow fasters, and stay strong!!!
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