Blog: HateUncertainty
by gika

Blow the candle out

I might die

Date:   5/19/2006 12:58:53 AM   ( 15 y ) ... viewed 2012 times

a couple of pills washed down with some alcohol
I have no idea if I'll wake up tomorrow
if I do.... then I'll go see my psychiatrist, as I already have an appointment
I'll go to school
and start over
I wonder.... if tomorrow will come
I don't know if I'm afraid... I just wanted to not be here for the rest of the night
I don't think I will die... I'll probably just reach a new low
one part of my brain.. hurts right now. It's physical pain, not the ghost pain that drives me to drink. It's physical, as if somebody had forced his hand inside my skull and were squeezing my brain...pressing....pressing.... I try to remember what part of the body does that area of the brain control....but I don't feel like I really want to spend energy trying to remember things like that. That is the problem... I don't want to think, I don't want to open my eyes and see what's around.. it's all been dark for too long. The flame, all of it, from all angles, is dying down and I so dread, and I so wish that it takes me with it to the nonexistance

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