day 10, evening
First healing crisis? Maybe.
Date: 4/5/2006 8:57:36 PM ( 15 y ) ... viewed 1629 times
Well, I think I had my first healing crisis. It came in the form of intense, accute depression. It lasted a few hours then vanished as fast as it came on. I feel perfectly relaxed and zen now. I think that I got into a pocket of bad toxins today. It just brought out some intense feelings that I needed to work through.
This is such an amazing process. I feel like I am learning so much about myself on this fast. Today, I really had to confront some of my issues with food. I had to re-evaluate my reasons for doing this fast, and I had to figure out my level of commitment to it. It would have been much easier to just ignore what I was feeling today and medicate it with food. Even if it is raw food you are medicating with, you are still a prisoner to the food issues. I am really hoping that this fast brings up even more issues I have with food, and helps me to understand how I've gotten to this point and how not to come back to it. I'm well on my way. I've given up the SAD lifestyle for good. I've given up meat, dairy, and all animal products forever. I'm sure of that. And hopefully I can really grow and floursih in the raw vegan lifestyle. Will I ever eat cooked food again - yes, I'm pretty sure I will. But I am hoping it is never the basis of my diet again in my life. That's what I'm working towards.
And some more physical notes: I had a second bm today, all naturally. I tested my urine an hour or so after my second juice for today. I wanted to see what the fruit would do to the ketones in the urine. I still spilled a trace amount, but less than earlier in the day. I am going to test first thing in the AM and see where I'm at.
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