On a break.
Date: 6/1/2006 4:04:51 PM ( 14 y ) ... viewed 2359 times
Ross & Rachel, anyone?
The trials and tribulations of the future sister in law continue.
Yesterday it was a flurry of semi-conciliatory, semi-attacking emails. Finally I got home and had a long talk with my dad, and with a good friend. It was the good friend who said, you need to take a break. This isn't going anywhere good.
And lo and behold, the thunder clouds rolled away and I saw the blue sky of hope again. So I talked to my fiance, and said I know this is going to be tough for you, but I need to take a month away from her.
We were supposed to go on a trip to NYC, she and I, and I couldn't look to that weekend or think about it without fear and trepidation. 10 hours in the car together? No thanks.
So my fiance said he understood - she's causing so much pain and trouble - he called her the god of war, sowing pestilence and bad vibes wherever she goes. Whatever the cause, whether she is jealous about the wedding or whether she just doesn't like herself, I had to put my foot down and disentangle myself from the situation.
So I have a month of freedom, and it feels like bliss. Now I just have to get away from thinking about her and the situation 24/7, because that's what's been going on at my house for the last many days. Drama.
Aaaaahhh. I've been able to focus on my job for the first time today. I was able to relax my muscles for the first time last night (with the help of a relaxation CD). Fantastic.
I've not done as much raw this week as I should have, but I've not really been emotionally great. I haven't really overeaten, which is good. It seems even when I have what I consider an non-diet meal, I'm still doing well. I'm not gorging, which I used to do all the time.
Yesterday I went to the gym, did 45 minutes of cardio and 30 minutes of weights, including lunges and pushups. It felt great. I'm not sure what I'll do today, I think I'll save a run for tomorrow... but I'm going to a concert tomorrow.
Well we'll see. I'm not stressing about anything. Also, I've been getting comments that I look great. I also yesterday ordered some undergarments for my dress, and with these things on, there aren't going to be any bulges no matter what.
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