day five and staying alive!
Date: 7/22/2005 7:36:53 PM ( 16 y ) ... viewed 2197 times
So its 5:20, on my 5th day.
I'm halfway there!!
I will not lie, last night I went to see batman returns and I smoked 3 hits of the reefer. It felt good at first, but By the end of the night I knew I made the wrong choice. I just did not feel right. I know that the magical herb IS a toxin and that I probobaly took a step back in my detox process.
I have not, however eaten anything. After telling my boyfriend last night that my energy level was low, he said, "enoughs enough! Lets go eat. "
I must have sat there for 10 minutes fighting the urge to say yes, but I said no, an luckily he listened to me and did not talk back.
If anyone reads this, send me strentgh for the lemonade is losing its zesty appeal.
Yesterday I slurped thru my daily ration of lemonade before I even got home for work.
I actually think that everything in my system is finally lossening up and Im getting good (bad) stuff out of me. Brown liquid, who ever thought I'd be so hapy to see you!
But that Get Regular tea is something else ,Ill tell ya. I have no problem drinking the tea at night, but those cramps hurt, and interrupt my sleep. As a matter of fact the major downfall of this diet for me is not eating , but not getting enough good sleep. I cant sleep to fall aleep until past midnight and then once Im enjoying REM stages and sailboating with Christian Bale, I wake up with gurgly tummy and have to go to the bathroom 3 times until something finally decides to come out. And then I'm there falling asleep on the pot because I'm soo tired!
This morning I weghed in at 109 on a different, more accurate (expensive) scale. Today I am wearing my skinny pants, and they dont even rise up when I stand up, like normal:)
feelin good feelin good. My skin looks good, my hair is super shiny, my eyes clear.
I HAVE been one heck of a miserable girlfriend though I think my BF has decided to say as little to me as possible, so I dont take something the wrong way and go all Linda Blair on him.5 days must seem like eterninty for him.
So thats today, I just gotta make it thorugh the weekend.
I have found that it is easier to not think about food while I am at work.
Yesterday was tough because I called off and watched the food channel.
I called my dad today and told him what I was doing. He just had a liposuction, given to him as a gift from my stepmoom. He wasn't really fat, he just had a big gut. He is still recovering and that was over a month ago. I wish he would have tried something like this but I thik it's too radical for him. He immediately got online when I was on the phone with him, to look it up. He was interested in it for a minute, realized it was 10 days long , and then began questioning me about my intentions. It did not bother me, It actually made me happy that he is worried about me. That means a lot to me because I did not grow up with my dad and have always been alittle shy with him about letting him know the real me. The fact that I was able to call him up and tell him this without being afraid of his judgement is a big step for us.
Well there you have, see ya next time, same bat-time, same bat-channel.
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