Raw Food Journal: Workaholic vs. Priorities

What is really important in life? Sometimes illness sets your priorities straight.

Date:   6/7/2005 7:38:47 AM   ( 20 y ) ... viewed 2635 times

In April I was told I had auto-immune liver disease but wasn't shocked because I had heard the same words seven years ago when I first was seen by a doctor. A second opinion came to the conclusion (wrong)that I had a lupus flare. Then at that time (1997)I was diagnosed not with liver disease but with Lupus in general. The last 7 years I have fought night sweats, extreme fatique, fevers and joint pain. But I was determined to live my life despite the pain--so I took on a high energy career and blazed the path not trying to feel sorry for myself.
This second time of being really ill has been different. I want to slow down and appreciate my family, work doesn't seem so important or appealing, success seems like gravel in my mouth.
But with this more balanced view of life I have had to fight off feeling sorry for myself. Before I was too busy to think about it. Now I wonder how long I have? 5? 10? 30 years? To me, unless I live to be ninety I will consider it a failure to die any sooner than that!
I am working part time and will need to go in soon but get to cut my day short at 3:00. Before I would have worked until 9:00. Workaholic trying to snuff out physical and emotional pain.

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