I can be strong all on my own.
Date: 3/13/2016 10:00:32 AM ( 5 y ) ... viewed 990 times
I had a great first day fasting with Amy. But she was too few in words and didn't write her journal. I felt discouraged, so I just ate just now on Day 2. I ate two bananas, one mango, one pear, a little almonds, and one tomato. Maybe if I try journaling in the same manner that I journaled to Amy without waiting for someone else's journals or encouragement right here on this blog, I could still fast. My center and motivation was Amy, so when it's taken away from me, I failed. My goal is to be of an inspiration for anyone else reading this in the future.
Attached is my journal to Amy yesterday. I will write my journal today in this blog, starting with Day 1 again.
Just weighed myself a moment ago. I weighed 110.8 lbs. I couldn't believe my eyes! I was never this light before. My goal weight is 101 lbs.
Today I woke up around 6 A.M. but was in a major funk and couldn't get up. I took an unnecessary bath because of my funk. I texted my friend about it, and he was sympathetic. I called the Samaritans and talked about what to do. I talked to my grandma about it. I told her I had a laziness illness, but she told me to think "I am very healthy." I complained about my condition a lot until I thought about grandma's words again and repeated the healthy thought over and over again. It led to a good sleep, and when I woke up, I was very motivated and was able to get up. I meditated twice and read my Chemistry book a little bit and took a shower. Then my family went to SuTao Cafe, a restaurant we go to every week that has all our friends in it that go too. I had a lot of fun talking to everyone.
When I was in the car on the way there, Mom complained about grandma, and I criticized her. Then something weird happened. When Mom was talking to me, I didn't hear what she said at first, but the wavelength of her words gave me a revelation. I learned to motivate everyone through her words. I became polite to everyone and only seeked to motivate others. I will be changed forever now. This might have had something to do with my fasting. I wonder whether I would have the revelation with food in my stomach. Probably not. So this is very special.
I ate gluten early in the morning before I met you online. It made my left index finger very itchy, giving me something like eczema or hives. I realize I really, really, really can't eat that stuff. I was going to study Chemistry, but the itching stopped my studying. Good thing I am fasting now to detox and to start over a new leaf.
You have no idea how many times I failed at fasting. I usually fail an hour after making a new resolution to fast. What's different this time is I have you now, so I am really grateful for you. I came to find you, because I remembered something Einstein said, that insanity is doing the same thing over and over again when it keeps making you fail. I decided to try a new way and remembered fasting buddies.
I drank about three or more liters of water today. Had stomach pain upon coming home from the water, so I didn't meditate. I will skip meditation tonight due to my stomach. Otherwise no negative symptoms, no cravings whatsoever.
I was mindful today in motivating others. I was a 9.9 out of ten in my mindfulness.
Best parts of the day was the motivating revelation, finding you, and not eating. Worst parts were my finger itching and not being able to get up in the morning.
I am also grateful for CureZone and for life. Not just my life but everyone's life.
I made it this far knowing you are in it too. I will make it tomorrow by continue knowing this and looking forward to journal to you.
The blessings I want to give are health, happiness, inner peace, and prosperity to everyone on Earth.
My motivational message to you is that we made it through the first day! You were so helpful to me and I hope I can help you too. I love you lots, Amy. Mind hug and mind kisses to you. This is legit. This is where the party's at! We are about to change history with this fast, maybe even history of the entire world. Just don't react to your cravings when they come. Think of me when it's the worst. And I will think of you. We aren't fasting buddies for nothing! It's about to get really deep. We are going to connect in an emotional, heart, mental, soul, and spiritual level. Eight days, no sweat! Keep it up!
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