I plan for the future. I ask how do I and others want to be treated.
Date: 1/3/2016 1:55:05 AM ( 3 y ) ... viewed 312 times
Failed today also. I plan to also do a blog (oh the blog of shame and chagrin! Just kidding) on the days that I fail a fast.
I can tell you the things I tried today that worked and didn't work. The concept of slow progress worked last night but not today. I also thought about the concept of the human body being extremely powerful and the mind dragging it down. It didn't prevent me from getting food to be in the bowl, but it did stop me from wanting to eat it after it's in the bowl. Well, too late. Also thought about just being happy, because they say the happiest people are able to fast, but it didn't work. Thought about being strong enough to carry the world on my shoulders. It worked once.
In other news, there is this friend who is kind of messy with his texting but every single time I decided to be nice and kind and respond. I admit, I did think about quitting him, but I actually benefitted from texting him. It helped once. So I decide to be grateful and repay my debt by being a good friend and listener, by being responsive. He was the one who indirectly cured me of heartbreak from the guy I told you about a few posts back, but it was all from talking to him.
I also thought about the saying "Treat others the way you would like to be treated." I thought about how if I was hurting someone, I wouldn't want it to be returned, even if it's to show me how much it hurts. I wouldn't see it as showing me how much it hurts, I would only see it as an offense that's extremely hurtful and threatening. I might not know I started it or I would see it as retaliation. So the next time someone hurts me, I am not going to want to show them how it hurts. My goal is to keep this saying at the beginning of this paragraph in mind every time I am interacting with someone. My goal with my therapist has been to increase emotional intelligence and be more empathetic, and this saying should help. I also wonder, though, how I would like to be treated by myself. What actions would count as being kind to myself. Of course I should seek to minimize and prevent suffering. I would need to have a belief system of what kind of actions, habits, and character are good for me and practice those things. Fasting is good for me. I have motivation to practice fasting, because I want to treat myself with kindness. How do I and others want to be treated is a question I will ask more often. Maybe it could even make me fast. I was just wondering yesterday how to treat others with respect. This is a start to that.
At 25-years-old is the time when one starts to age old. I am turning that January 21st. This water fast will help, and I also hope to go on an all-juice diet by my birthday and maintain it for life so I will age less.
You know, I think being happy does help fasting. I just haven't found the right happy things to focus on. Going to think of happy things for my homework.
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