Perfect life now. I ponder over many different aspects to think about on this fast.
Date: 12/30/2015 9:23:45 PM ( 4 y ) ... viewed 454 times
Life is so good to me. Everything going my way today. Luck after luck befalls me. Life is good. Life is too good to be true. I love life. I love now.
Still not entirely useful to society right now. Kind of useless to society, what with still in community college, and I am already almost 25-years-old. My goal in life is to contribute to society. Now during this fast is the time to examine my progress, goals, and values. At what age will I have made a major contribution to society? At what age will be my second major contribution? What age the third? There is an idiom in Chinese though, sharpening the knife doesn't delay the work of cutting wood. Guess I am sharpening my knife right now. I better make my knife so sharp that it cuts upon contact. I love society. Society gave me everything. Praise thee, civilization! I fast today for civilization and society. Yippity doo da, yippity day, wonderful feeling, wonderful day!
Thinking hard about what kind of good deeds I can do. Wondering between the difference between doing a good deed and doing my duty. All I know is that the reason I did what I did today was because I wanted to. Then I should make myself want to be kind and do my duty and as many good deeds as possible. I want to be kind. You know what? The man from that talkline who made me realize I need to want to do things did the biggest good deed of all. I don't even know his name. My life is changed because of him. He made a difference in one life, and I will make sure it's the dominoes effect and the butterfly effect.
Pretty proactive today. Did a lot of accomplishments. Made it through even when I wanted to quit and was having a metaphorical headache from the chore. Pretty happy the entire day. Really grateful for Tk.
The fast made me feel light, joyous, determined, connected to others and to higher source, and energetic. Wow. I just did a body scan of myself. I can see illnesses in people. It shows up as black areas in the body. When I was eating, I saw black dots everywhere, but now just looking at myself, I can see big areas of white and color. I mean, there are still black, but there is a dramatic area of white at my left and right lower chest. And on my thighs, butt, feet, hands, head, stomach, calves, spine, shoulders, and neck.
You know, I really wonder where I get my energy from. Where do I think it's from and where do I want it to be from? I decide that I get my energy from my spirit. As long as I am determinedly happy, I will have the energy. Well, I guess I am getting energy from fat stores right now as well as extra tissues and cells that are unnecessary. Probably feeding off of toxins and dirty stuff right now. So two sources, extra or dirty stuff and my spirit. And while I feed off of my spirit, my spirit will grow stronger too from the fast, so the energy store is unlimited.
I can see though, doing the self body scan, that I still have a long way to go. The white and color I see is about 8%. Wait til it's 100% and stable haha.
I will do my best during this fast to maintain a good temper. I want to have a good temper. Let the test begin. Let this fast remind me to always have good temper. I can say to myself when I'm about to get angry, "I'm on the fast right now, so I can't get angry."
14-days sound like preschool compared to some people's fasts. Well, let me go to preschool then. I accept being a preschooler. And the material they teach in preschool is quite challenging. I gotta pass preschool right now.
It was bound to happen. I waited long for today. It finally came. I waited for the new me. I have arrived. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
I feel light both physically and mentally. I feel light emotionally. It is a new chapter of my book of life. Yay!
Didn't feel like telling many people about my fast. Told my brother only. He guessed I was juice fasting and I corrected him to water fasting. Otherwise no need to boast.
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