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Creme de la Creme: Chef-Doctor Jemichel

Developing a twelve-fold autobiographical vision in light of Human Design, Truth of Self, Life and Others!

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February 11, 2021 -

The following is something that this Blog-writer looks forward to having certain people he knows(i) come to realize:

"Nowadays, human beings are mainly interested in cultivating their intellectual faculties, which is fine. Unfortunately, they do so at the expense of other means of exploration, and as a result, the subtle life of the universe, the soul and the spirit, eludes their investigations. As they descended into matter, they forgot their divine origins; they no longer remember how beautiful, powerful, luminous and noble they once were. ..."[202]*

(i) Most especially his daughter. ; ~ )

January 28, 2021 -

At or about 11:40 PM (Pacific) - this blog-writer realized that he is a natural-born, non-political American International. The meaning of the first few terms here are reasonably assumed to be readily understood. The "International" term relates to the fact that each American state is a nation in its original sovereign nature. This writer was born in one American nation state and moved to a few others after approximately one year in his initial state where he was born. He has been a "free inhabitant" in at least five different American states thus making him an American International.

January 26, 2021 -

"Coming into this world under a Balsamic Moon suggests this could be a very 'karmic' lifetime for you. The last phase in the lunar cycle, the Balsamic phase is about completion; in this lifetime you may be bringing several prior lifetimes to their conclusion. You may find yourself with a number of relationships that start quickly and intensely, but don’t last long. These individuals may be people you have unfinished business with – left over from past lives."


This Blog writer was born during a Balsamic Moon,

January 21, 2021 Happy Rave New Year!! -

According to this Blog-writer's birthdate he is a "Gathering 1 Year - Metal-like Younger: Leaves Falling Down"

Gathering 1 Year - Metal-like Younger: Leaves Falling Down
Gathering Years: Pragmatic -

"People born in gathering years approach spirituality with a practical, systematic approach derived from well-established philosophies (7 chakras, astrology, the Bible, etc.)."[200]


Inspired in a personal session with Seymour Koblin this afternoon wherein Seymour mentioned the Chinese Astrological system that can be found at the school's website[200].

December 31, 2020 -

In 1970(i) this Blog-writer became aware of the nature of the world matrix, a sudden awareness (as if a dark curtain on the front window of his perception was lifted) now realized made possible by the light in the innermost core of his being.

However that awareness (at that time) was unprocessed through his faculties of reasoning, through deliberate observation and through his direct experience. Over the course of the following fifty years (and culminating this year) he has throughly processed his initial awareness to his compete satisfaction. On March 16, 2019 he posted an acronym representing a significant accounting of the major matrix components.(ii)

(i) Also see entries below at December 23, 2015; October 3, 2016; March 9, 2017; October 19, 2017; May 29, 2018; July 23, 2019; April 25, 2020.)


December 22, 2020 -

"The moment of death is so important because our next incarnation depends very much on how we live our last moments in this one. Our state of mind at this time affects us in the other world up until our rebirth. You will have noticed that the state in which you go to sleep affects you during the night, and influences how you feel on waking the next morning. Even when you have had a good day, if you go to bed in a negative state, you will wake the next morning in a bad mood. On the other hand, even if your day was not too brilliant, if you go to sleep with positive thoughts and feelings, these last moments before sleep will fix and clear everything up, and you will wake the next day in better spirits. These same laws operate from one life to the next."[199]


On the day that this Blog-writer's spiritual emergency began (soon after the moment when he consciously broke his mirror) he knew (deep within his innermost self) that he had just executed a personal "death blow" - that like a physical death would inevitably lead to a rebirth. The rebirth began manifesting within nine months!

November 7, 2020 - Introducing a New Asteroid (In This Blog-Writer's Natal Chart) -

"Sappho in the chart has more to do with sapphic energy. Very feminine-loving, expressing the emotional, receptive and creative energy, a sensual vibe. It's highly creative and can often be seen in regards to muse-like or creative people."[198]


Inspired to search (extensively) for an asteroid within the arc of 16 Scorpio 03'45" to 17 Scorpio (which corresponds to Human Design Gate 1 Line 4) after reading the line description for the current Sun transit occurring now. The description is:

Line 4 - Aloneness as the medium of creativity - The tension of inner light.

Exaltation: The Earth exalted as the symbol of personal perspective manifested outside of influence, where the potential magic of inspiration is diluted. Creativity that must develop outside of influence.

Detriment: Where the potential magic of inspiration is diluted. The need to influence that abandons aloneness and limits creativity.

This Blog-writer realized substantial affinity with this Line description and even though he doesn't have a traditional Human Design activation at Gate 1.4 his affinity with this description was strong enough to compel him to search for the somewhat "minor" activation in the form of an asteroid.

September 26, 2020 - The Sun enters Spleen Gate 18, Line 1 at 12:26 UT, today.

This Blog-writer has his Persoanlity Saturn activated in this Gate (Line 2).

Gate 18 is known in The Human design System as: "Work on what has been spoilt - Gate of Correction -
Essential Learning

The vigilance and determination to uphold and defend basic and fundamental human rights. Dissatisfaction fuels the life-long process of correcting and improving.

Right Angle Cross of Service 3
Godhead - Christ
Line 1 - Conservatism

The adherence to traditional patterns despite and/or in spite of changing circumstances.

Exaltation: Gradual modification to avoid eventual upheaval. The potential to correct through gradual modification of judgments.

Detriment: The Patriarch whose rigidity guarantees deterioration. The potential to refuse to correct.

Quarter of Duality, the Realm of Jupiter
Theme: Purpose fulfilled through Bonding
Mystical Theme: Measure for Measure

Gate 18 -

This Gate is part of the Channel of Judgment, A Design of Insatiability, linking the Splenic Center (Gate 18) to the Root Center (Gate 58). Gate 18 is part of the Collective Understanding (Logic) Circuit with the keynote of sharing.

Gate 18 enjoys discovering, naming and challenging what needs correcting. When we experience dissatisfaction with something, chances are it has lost its vitality. Underneath this dissatisfaction lies a deep concern for human rights, and for what will keep society healthy and in harmony with itself. Those who carry this gate have a gift of critical awareness that directs them to the source of a weakness or imperfection, and focuses their thinking on ways to correct or modify or replace it. It is our way of cleaning out what isn't healthy, or restoring vitality to something that has been corrupted. Our gift is enhanced by impartial discernment, and logic's drive to perfect or fine tune our own skills of critical analysis.

Ushering in a new understanding through identifying what needs correcting is the by-product of the process. Gate 18 also represents the fear of authority and the challenge to that authority. As a Collective gate, it is designed to point out what needs to be corrected at the Collective level, but when used at the personal level it tends to backfire. Without Gate 58's joyful fuel for correction, our dissatisfaction can become merely a constant source of fault finding. This is especially true if our valuable and crucial awareness is no longer productively focused on situations, patterns or institutions, but rather on people's idiosyncrasies and foibles. ..."[74]

September 8th, PM - Current Sequence of the Golden Path Deep Dive -

"Your health is dependent on the amount of love you feel for other human beings. This is especially true for your family situation. No matter how challenging your family circumstances may be, these are the relationships that determine your physical well-being and general energy levels. One of your greatest gifts lies hidden in your unconscious which means that you may not even recognize it. It is your capacity to accept any type of human behavor — no matter how unjust or unloving. This inherent capacity draws many diverse types of people and situations into your life. Your epitaph may end up reading: 'There was never a dull moment!'(i) Your role is not so much to understand where your life is leading you, but to respond to its rhythms as you go along, accepting what comes, and knowing that everything always changes, following a deeper rhythm than we can intellectually understand. This truth resonates deeply inside of you, and if you rest in it, you will become radiant and peaceful, no matter what occurs to you or those dearest to you." [No link - For Members Only]


(i) "There was never a dull moment!" This Blog-writer actually has a T-shirt with a statement very much like this printed on it!

Wow what a "sphere" this writer has activated in his Hologenetic Profile! Most of his life it seems that he had experienced the consequences of identifying with the shadow fear-based frequency of this Gene Key rather than the Love based on the extent of body shacks and tremblings evoked by fear of triggering his father's anger that even occurred without having his father actually presdent with him! In writing this now he wonders how much of this is either intergenerational and/or regarding past life issues. It proably doesn't matter now since his father has crossed the threshold and more importantluy since the fear-baesed relating was released as of his extended visit with his father before and after his father's second major heart surgery about twelve years ago.

September 8, 2020 - Current World Theme with the Sun Transit from:
September 9th - September 14th 2020 Through the 47th Hexagram AKA:
Gene Key 47 -
The Shadow of Oppression – Gift of Transmutation – Siddhi of Transfiguration -

Richard Rudd -
"At a certain stage, contemplation gives way to absorption. When this stage is reached, we know. Our whole frequency begins to move into another realm. The intensity remains, but our life becomes at the same time softer, quieter, and our effort begins to drop away. The Transfiguration actually begins at the higher reaches of the Gift frequency, as our aura enters the state of Absorption."

Posting the above quote here with special note regarding: "our effort begins to drop away" as just earlier today this Blog-writer was reflecting on the fact that his "effort" has begun to "drop away" in certain respects and therefor he finds validation and a certain reassurance in reading this current "World Theme" that his personal journey is right on course!

August 29 2020 - The Sun transit in Gate 40, Line 2 at 14:03 UT today, August 29, 2020 -

Gate 40 - "Deliverance - Gate of Aloneness - The Power of the Will to Deliver -

The point of transition between struggle and liberation. The survival of the community is dependent upon a sustained and strong will.

Line 2 - Resoluteness -

"Exaltation: The power and authority in deliverance to shed forever the qualities which hampered liberation. The power through aloneness to recognize the importance and the potential disruptive effect of others.

Detriment: A natural peacefulness that in deliverance may sympathize with and attempt to nurture the forces which hampered liberation. The power of loneliness to blind the ego to the possible disruptive effect of others."[74]


It was about this time in late August of 1970 when this Blog-writer had his final day in the "mental health" facility which was an extended stay that began the day after he had smashed his bedroom mirror (the account of which is presented below). His inspiration for quoting the above "Sun transit" arose upon reading the "Exaltation" for Line 2. Whether or not he was able to "shed forever the qualities which hampered liberation" this theme is most certainly of deep meaningful significance for him - especially through the cycle of his life at that time and has continued to be one of the deepest themes even today!

Gate 40 is identified by Zeno as> "Dissolution of the problem" and between 5VIR45 and 11VIR22'30". Line 2 is from 6VIR41'15" to 7VIR37'30". A complete technical analysis of this transit time would require a considerable research project for possibly obtaining the release of records from deep archives that may be buried somewhere in Illinois.

Also - The five-stage sequence of Sabian Symbols corresponding to these astrological degrees underscores the significance at the "Second Level - Emotional-Cultural". Heart 40 is activated in this writer's Human Design by Personality Lunar South Node.

June 20, 2020 (Evening) - Brainstorm: Chiron In The 3rd House -

"Healing through talking, writing and listening. Healing words. Healing journaling. Healing writer. Gifted teachers. The local alternative medicine scene. The local herbalist who knows all the local plants and where to find them."[196]*


This "Healing writer" relates to all the above quote!

July 20, 2020 - Born With Cancer Mid-Heaven -

Individuals born with a Midheaven in Cancer are good planners that can organize and direct both their own lives and the lives of all those around them. They understand how to let others be themselves, fully expecting that others will respect who they are in return. They truly care about others and want to help, but depending on the situation, they also know how to remain aloof. They are natural nurturers, and have a conscious appreciation for food, since that is a fundamental way to nurture. People with a Cancer Midheaven, while seemingly mild, are not afraid to fight for whatever they want. They believe all hardships heal with work and time.

When they need to rejuvenate, Cancer Midheaven knows how to rest and renew themselves. They are naturally creative in everything they do, whether it is in the kitchen or in caring for others. Creativity becomes blocked when they cannot express their thoughts and emotions. Psychic upheaval, removal of the obstacle or jumpstarting their creativity are all useful in removing these blockages.

The innate restlessness that resides in Cancer Midheaven may cause many changes or at least some highs and lows in their career. They need a career where they can connect with those they work with(i), and use their intuition. They like to feel respected and responsible. They are very sensitive regarding their reputation and standing. They do well in a career that serves the public in some fashion.

Cancer Midheaven may find themselves the center of attention, either on purpose or by accident. They may become famous or infamous, depending on the circumstances. Careers in lecturing, politics, or other public office may beckon. They identify strongly with their career and reputation. They may enter a family business or work with women, babies, food, housing or retail. Healing, pediatrics, education, or social work may be fulfilling.

The Cancer Midheaven is trustworthy and like-able, which helps them network efficiently. They often mentor others.(ii) Many with this sign ended up parenting themselves in some form, facing the world without the proper preparation. They may be easily bruised socially. Even so, once they find their niche that speaks to them, they are ambitious. The one thing that can stand in their way is their hesitancy. They may make a nice big stride, then get frightened and insecure and backtrack for a while. Change may be difficult for them personally, while they may be the catalyst for change in those around them.

Those with a Midheaven in Cancer long for stability, but must instigate the change in their circumstances, which causes instability. It is a constant battle for them due to their Watery nature. Overall, it is more important that they connect with their career somehow rather than seek optimal success.[195]


(i) The need to "connect" is non-negotiable for this Blog-writer and consequently a source of considerable suffering when this need is not being met. Connecting is possible for him with both dyad-based communications and knowing the Human design of others. Both dyads and Human Design readings are at the top of his interests to be of service to others.

(ii) He is passionate about mentoring!

April 25, 2020 - "Imagine ... If The Very World Should Stop" ... and "Enter Thou Into The Joy of Your Lord"! -

This Blog-writer had a meditation practice in 1987 that was inspired by a program he had participated in called RISE (Raise Immune System Efficiency). Following is the meditation that he choose at that time:

Entering into Joy - Saint Augustine -

"Imagine if all the tumult of the body were to quiet down, along with all our busy thoughts about earth, sea, and air; if the very world should stop, and the mind cease thinking about itself, go beyond itself, and be quite still;

if all the fantasies that appear in dreams and imagination should cease, and there be no speech, no sign:

Imagine if all things that are perishable grew still – for if we listen they are saying, We did not make ourselves; he made us who abides forever – imagine, then, that they should say this and fall silent, listening to the very voice of him who made them and not to that of his creation;

so that we should hear not his word through the tongues of men, nor the voice of angels, nor the clouds’ thunder, nor any symbol, but the very Self which in these things we love, and go beyond ourselves to attain a flash of that eternal wisdom which abides above all things:

And imagine if that moment were to go on and on, leaving behind all other sights and sounds but this one vision which ravishes and absorbs and fixes the beholder in joy; so that the rest of eternal life were like that moment of illumination which leaves us breathless:

Would this not be what is bidden in scripture,
Enter thou into the joy of thy lord?"[190]


This Blog-writer was inspired to research this meditation (after 33 years) in a moment of recalling: "if the very world should stop." The very world appears to be heading for a full stop now. Maybe now is a good time to meditate (and the like) and enter into the joy of thy lord!

Now for Jem's "gem": It is now possible for this writer to "enter into the joy" in about simple two steps (or less) rather than take the circuitous route he took 33 years ago.

April 10, 2020 - Timing Can Mean Everything! -

According to Richard Rudd, author of Gene Keys and conceptualizer and co-founder of the Gene Keys Society, "... the more frequently we learn to pause and
take a breath, the more space we feel and the clearer our mind becomes."[189]*


There was a time when this Blog-writer did not take pauses "and take a breath" and consequently the less "space" he felt and the less clear his mind had become. Something inside him compelled him to "act" this state of shrunken space out so he could become conscious of it and that lead him into a literal corner. This occurred while he was most deeply immersed in the "Church Life." The situation became more intense before it eventually began to open up some. There was considerable relief when he began to create more space by allowing some distance between him and "the Church Life." More time passed and he was finally able to completely leave the "Church Life." Even more space was created when he finally left the Midwest for California. What a contrast between inner city of Chicago and San Diego! There was a "Church" in San Diego however by the time he attended a meeting he had created enough space that he wasn't able to completely fit in. That was forty-two years ago! Since then "The Church" went through a major challenging period and this writer doesn't know whether or not it fully passed through that. In any case he is most grateful to have been spared all of that. He had his own challenge and most fortunately was able to completely survive it and come through whole, complete and healed! Now he takes frequent pauses and many deep breaths each and every day and his mind has become clear. He is so very grateful


"...the onset of cell phone service in 1996 resulted in greater levels of mortality in major cities like Los Angeles, New York, San Diego and Boston."[188]

This Blog-writer was living in San Diego in the 80s and went to Sacramento to attend Rudolf Steiner College in 1990. He then returned to San Diego in '92 and left again in '94 thus avoiding the increase in EMFs as of 1996!

April 8. 2020 - The Spiritual Path Includes The Soul! -

"Man’s soul and spirit are of divine essence, and in the higher realms to which they belong, they know each other and manifest themselves as such. But they also must learn to know and manifest themselves below, through matter, that is to say, through the physical body. ..."[187]

This inclusiveness of the soul and the recognition of its "divine essence" allows for a higher perspective that can lead to wholeness which is health. Health in turn supports greater access to the spiritual. Therefore health in one's soul and body is a really good thing to have and maintain!

March 31, 2020 - Miracles Today -

So very grateful to have asked my friend (and occasional client) to tell me what his day is dedicated to for he replied "all natural expressions of miracles"! Hearing that made a definite impression on me that I believe spared me from faulty thinking in the subsequent conversation we had about his work as a Theta healer and particularly in regards to the way he is attracted to pursuing that (a way that I was not necessarily thinking of). However hearing his "attraction" was pivotal in my mind because "attraction" is possibly the keyword in describing his Human Design. In all good conscience I could not negate that in any way and to any degree. Recognizing his attraction for this Blog-writer (but firstly his own self-recognition) is somewhat like applying the old fishing technique of hooking the fish when the fish begins to nibble on the bait.

My miracles came through an unexpected Theta session that my friend spontaneously offered me! He first had inquired about whether there was any feelings that i wanted to communicated to him regrading the passing of my mother three weeks and two days ago. Looking back on this now I see I had a couple layers covering over the actual feelings and emotions, I then experienced my friend inquiring with total respect as to what the feelings were and to express them as if I were expressing them directly to my mother. There were a couple plants right in front of us on the land were we were standing and my friend gently directed my attention to one that he said was a Mother Mary plant. Then we proceeded with what became a "mind clearing" session for me. After word I remarked about this saying the mind clearing technique is about expressing incomplete communications. That alone can be a tremendous relief and there is more benefit in also re-covering a more whole and complete sense of self that is experienced through the communication process! That makes this a genuine therapeutic process. It was my first Theta experience and needless to say I was super impressed!

March 15, 2020 -

"Just because someone gets married and their family expands to include a father-in-law, mother-in-law, and masses of sisters-in-law, brothers-in-law, nephews, nieces and cousins, and so on, it does not mean they become aware of what a family really is. In most cases, people merely add a few relatives to their family circle, but maintain the same narrow, limited, selfish consciousness. ..."[186]

February 10, 2020 - Toward 12 Perspectives - Starting With "3 Distinct Separate Meanings" -

“… all visible manifestations of the occult (hidden) may, or rather, must, bear three distinct separate meanings, to be used, the one or the other, or again the third, according to the elements in the human being which we wish to understand and fathom.”[185]


Regarding "the one or the other, or again the third" - or - all three! According to the Gene Keys there are three primary frequencies that interface with us genetically. Humanity collectively operates on the lower fear-based band width (called "Shadow") whereas we as individuals can transform these fears and release our "Gifts" as we aspire toward the higher frequency of the Siddhis.

December 31, 2019 - Happy New Year and (Perfect) "2020" Vision!

Consider the following as a new contemplation for yourself as you begin to enter the new year, the new decade and a new version of you!:

"I Am Just As God(i) Originally Conceived and Therefore Created Me!"
"I am An Immaculate Conception!"


This Blog-writer thinks if he had the contemplation (that he presents above here) in 1969 he would have been spared a heap-load of suffering (consequential to identifying with fear-based conditioning) that became overwhelming by August 1970. However that apparently was not his destiny. He didn't even know what contemplation was in 1969 nor was the term ever mentioned in his social sphere. He was like "that deaf, dumb and blind boy": Tommy(ii) - only turned outside in. How Tommy appeared outwardly this writer was inwardly.
(i) Use whatever term works best for you, i.e. "The Universe", "The Creator", "The Source."
(ii) The Who's Rock Opera

"Imagine that centuries ago, a shepherd in the mountains was idly tracing a small furrow in the ground with his staff. It was just a small furrow, but then came the rain, snow, frost, wind and sun, and little by little, this furrow grew deeper and wider until it turned into the bed of a torrent. What can we learn from this image? That the same phenomenon occurs with human beings. Every thought, every feeling is like a furrow drawn in our own inner earth, and all the psychic and spiritual forces circulating in space serve to make this furrow deeper and wider. As today marks the beginning of a new year, strive to consciously draw a furrow in your soul. Concentrate on a divine thought, make a divine wish, and live today in such a way that it becomes imprinted in you. Heavenly powers will be alerted and will come to support you in your efforts. Each day they will be there to tell you, ‘Remember, on the first day of the year you made a furrow, carry on, keep digging. And if you listen to them, if you patiently continue your work, you will one day feel a river of light flowing through you."[183]

December 24, 2019 - Happy Christmas Eve! - A time to self-reflect thta's underscored with "the dark of the moon" now. -

Take Your Power Back -

"... That’s why we use meditation as the model to change our internal state. This allows us to break from our associations to every body, every one, every thing, every where, and every time long enough to journey within. Once you overcome your emotional body and you take your attention off everything known to you in your outer world, you call your energy back to you, breaking the bonds with your past-present reality.

Once you take your attention off all those exterior elements, you start to weaken your energetic and emotional bonds with those things and you finally begin to free up enough available energy to create a new future. That’s going to require you to become aware of where you’ve been unconsciously placing your attention, and—like separating the two atoms—it’s also going to take some energy to consciously break those bonds.


Meditation breaks the cycle of that old thinking-feeling loop, weakens your energetic bondage to it, and frees up the energy and make it available for you to create anew."[181]

This Blog-writer broke his mirror in order to break "the cycle" and "energetic bondage" which was the best he could do at the time with what he had to work with and espeically given the limits of his thinking. He felt compelled to do whatever he felt had to be done to make the breakthrough without delay and so he seized the moment and committed to demonstrating his intetion just as he did.

A major contributing influence as to why he choose to demonstrate his intention spefically by brealking his mirror was taken from the story of Tommy - the Rock Opera - by The Who.[182] In the movie version the mirror gets broken by Tommy himself as he is hurled through the mirror by his mother. However the film was not released till 1975. This writer broke his mirror in 1970.

Had he known mediation or the like to support his ability "to journey within" it would have led him down different path and that simply was not the case. Not realizing a straight and narrow way that diriectly led him "within" left him with an outter "journey" that extended over the course of about forty years! He is so grateful that he finally found his way back home in this lifetie! ; ~ )

September 29, 2019 -

"... Those who dedicate themselves to the good of all people must not expect to lead a peaceful life, for they will even have to face more difficulties than anyone else. But since they are a servant of God, the beings of light that also serve the Lord come to their rescue and carry part of their load. They are not supported on the physical and material planes, but on the psychic and spiritual planes. It is there they receive the light and the strength to better withstand adversity and to continue their work."[180]*


This "servant" consecrated himself to Christ and The Church in 1971 and a few years later began to realize that "the good of all people" needed to be included in his dedication. No idea at that time that he "must not expect to lead a peaceful life." Now he knows this very well and most especially consistently over the last eleven years, all the while making affirmations that "all I want is peace"!

There is additional wisdom to be added to all of this. The leading of "a peaceful life" needs to be distinguished from inner peace/the peace of God. There is scripture that makes some reference to this in the picture of building a house upon a solid rock (foundation) in such a way as to be able to withstand all the storms. (Even the Three Little Pigs children's story has at least an aspect of this.)

January 5, 2020 - "The Local Church" in Retrospect -

The Church is not a corporation! The Church has no Godly business incorporating! The divine jurisdiction of a local Church is under Heaven and in direct relation to the Earth. An incorporated entity is strictly a legal fiction. It is completely subject to an entirely different and very foreign jurisdiction of the air that in turn becomes subject to "The Prince of The Power of The Air."

Man cannot serve two masters (i.e. two Princes - or - a Prince of one realm and The King of another)!

"If church leadership then attempted to deal with the resulting upset, lawsuits were pressed against them (as in Columbus and Mansfield, OH) or corporate uprisings would occur to sweep away the boards of trustees and plant elders who were friendly to the Living Stream (as in Rochester, MN)."

The Church in Chicago incorporated apparently during the time I was in The Church in Milwaukee because when I returned in the first half of 1975 the Church had some kind of a business meeting that I knew in the moment of my observation was not any of my business.

July 7, 2019 - Jung -

“The greatest tragedy of the family is the unlived lives of the parents.”[174]


In light of the truth just as it is expressed in the above quote by Carl Jung - this blog-writer suddenly realizes that "developing a twelve-fold autobiographical vision" must include the biographies of both parents.

May 22, 2019 - North Node Conjunct Hygeia In Pisces Is Auto-Biographically Worthy!

Don't have a complete description of this as of yet however the following will serve as start toward that:

"Pisces is a mutable water sign which means it can take in different emotions and change them easily. Pisces can link to the otherworld more easily than the other signs. Pisces can use their emotional mutability to ... understand the range of the human experience. I see Hygeia as a feminine energy that wants you to be in alignment, physically and mentally with yourself. Many times, traditional medicine treats the patient after the disease, while Naturopathic and Ayurvedic focus on preventative. My beliefs are that Hygeia can rule traditional medicine when it is used in a preventative way, not reactive. That being said, this is isn't a hard and fast rule, rather I would just put her energy in the category of PREVENTATIVE care. After all she rules hygiene.

Hygeia retrograde ... When a planet, or in this case a dwarf planet and asteroid, are in retrograde ... then the focus becomes more unconscious and more self-centered."[169]

Re: "Hygeia can rule traditional medicine when it is used in a preventative way" - this writer absolutely concurs with this! The Cheeta vision is a whole lifestyle dedicated to optimal immunity as a complete foundation for "prevention." The emphasis is especially focused on the children starting with a well-supported preparation for motherhood as of at least one year prior to conception.

May 24, 2019 - Continuing with Hygeia -

Hilary Bond writes:

"There are so many Hygeian aspects so I'll write it more simply with the lesser known asteroids.
Hygeia's aspects are thus:

* conjunct North Node and Ceres in your 5th house of joy in Pisces (the sign of the Divine);
* trine Moon & Uranus in Cancer (the stomach - how gastronomical) in the 9th house of ... metaphysics ... conjunct your Cancer Midheaven,
* quincunx Vesta Leo in the 10th house,
* and quincunx your Libran Ascendant and Poseidon,
* and opposition Mercury 15 Virgo in the 11th house of groups, friends & wishes also opposition Medea (herbs) 17 degrees conjunct Ariadne 17 Virgo (who married Dionysius),
* the sign of your Hygeia is Pisces which is ruled by Neptune in mainstream astrology. Neptune is located in Libra in the 1st house and in esoteric astrology the ruler of your Hygeia is Pluto at 20 degrees Leo in house 10.
* That indicates you are a Hygeian type person by archetype and sub-personality, as well as being a Libran Sun conjunct Saturn in the 12th houseand Ascendant and a Cancerian Moon conjunct in the 9th house."

May 8, 2019 - And So It Was -

The astrological forecast for yesterday that after the fact holds a lot of truth for this blog-writer.


With the Moon in Gemini, you really would like to keep things light and carefree, however, that is not likely to be the case today. At 9:26 AM EDT Venus forms a challenging square aspect to Saturn. This is not a fun carefree day but if you understand the situation you can use it to deepen your values regarding love and resources. Your choices should be kept to either spending time alone or making a serious effort to stabilize and calm any potential relationship or financial problems. If you find yourself feeling lonely or depressed take the time to look inward for self-reflection and to deepen understanding of your own values.

You may be required to get clear about your responsibilities in relationships and face disappointment. Remember that we all face disappointing in love. It is part and parcel for the terrain. It is normal for us to encounter times of sadness and loneliness. Go inward, look reality in the face. If you need to eat a pint of ice cream to get through the day, that is fine. You will feel better tomorrow. No whining."[167]

Grateful not to have spent the day alone but with my daughter visiting from overseas. Made "a serious effort to stabilize and calm." Also realized that the support of a therapist can be an option providing that the therapist is experienced in empowering young women regarding their absent father-wound. The need for empowering women in their perception and relationship to male power has spontaneously risen to high importance as of this visit! The loss of his two younger sisters whom had disempowering father wounds is unforgettable in this writer's mind! This writer's daughter (and all young women) deserve to recover their essential, vital, life-supporting power and if fathers are willing they can support the recovery.

Lots of truth in the astrological forecast quoted above however - no ice cream today! ; ~ )

Realization - several conditions appeared to be more difficult than this writer may have been able or at least willing to surmount at the time when he was encountering them in his oversea visits with his daughter and her mother. The first condition was his deep conviction that the parenting his daughter required needed to be based on harmony between the parents. Unfortunately that harmony simply did not exist in that relationship. There is no otter way this writer knows of to say this other than straight: sex does not equal harmony. It was somewhat enchanting but it did not make for a harmonious relationship.

March 28, 2019 - "... what we call life, is really only an uninterrupted series of death and resurrection."[165]

The above quote may very well refer to the "12th perspective" that this author has alluded to for developing a biographical vision. Additional contemplation on this gives me the impression of a capstone. A "Church" song line: "death and life they always go together".

March 13, 2019 - The Holographic Nature of Creation Means We Are Hieroglyphs of the Hologram! -

Posted[163] A Comment:

"... This presentation is the most comprehendible of anything I've heard before on this subject matter .
It also validates previous glimmerings that I was living in a dream and wished to awaken.
The earliest of these 'glimmerings' had some idea that I needed to find the dream-maker to awaken."

Further Comment:
One of the "previous glimmerings" occurred while listening to "Twelve Dreams of Dr. Sardonicus"[164]

The website referred to above came as the one search result regarding "dream body" after reading "The 'Hero' of the Dream" in A Course in Miracles: Chapter 27: "The Healing of The Dream."

September 8, 2018 - "Reading and Writing" -

"...According to Initiatic Science, to read is to be able to decipher the subtle and hidden aspect of objects and beings, to interpret the symbols and signs that Cosmic Intelligence has placed everywhere in the great book of the universe. And to write is to be capable of leaving our mark on this great book, of influencing stones, plants, animals and human beings through the magical force of our spirit...."[153]

Practitioners of Biodynamic Agriculture are the best examples I know of that typify what is presented in the quote immediately above here. The Eco-village vision at "Cheeta"is based on a Biodynamic farm. Synchronistically - just before I read the whole "Thought for the day" (from which the above is quoted in part) I was imagining teaching a newbe how to stir the Biodynamic 500 prep!

February 4, 2019 -

Just posted something that represents a certain convergence of some high ideals at this author's blog (known as Cheeta) that is devoted to high ideals.[159] High ideals can be Siddhis of consciousness such as Truth, Impeccability, Justice and Freedom.[160] As such they are not to be found in the board rooms of incorporated (and thereby soul-less) legal fictions or in the command centers of governmental agencies. Best not to expect something that good to come out of the mouth of a dragon.

Without any exceptions - all of the high ideals that are held by this author exclude any assumptions as to being "subject to the jurisdiction" of any external/foreign governmental entity. Instead he boldly declares "we hold these Truths to be self-evident" and asserts his "certain unalienable Rights"! "Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness" includes the Right to possess the highest of "high ideals" as well as the Right to live these high ideals in the fullest. Our original American Fathers gave us an original American vision of total freedom from all external/foreign government however it is most truly all up to us to actually live in this freedom. Who can hear this? ......... Who can contemplate upon the true meaning of the first Organic Law of "The United States of America" (unincorporated)? .........

The Right to self-governemnt is unalienable. What does unalienable mean? ........ Even if you have identified with a status that was legally granted to former "slaves" you will always have the Right to dis-identify yourself that way and reclaim the fullest extent of your unalienable natural Rights ....... and you have the Right to be grateful to the Creator for these Rights! This is a vertical alignment that this author likes to think of "from Heaven to Earth" aka: "Heaven on earth"(Hoe). In addition there is a horizontal alignment based on the soil and known as soil jurisdiction. This is our original jurisdiction upon which we have all our sovereign Rights for self-government. The Right to exclude foreign/external government is based on our native soil jurisdiction. This is why the ex-slave status of the so called 14th Amendment (based on jurisdiction/s foreign to soil-based jurisdiction) includes a stipulation of being "subject to the jurisdiction" as a legal fiction: "person" and not as a living man or woman fully endowed with their unalienable Rights.

September 29, 2019 - More Freedom! -

On a certain day, approximately fourteen and a half years ago, this blog-writer made a conscious choice to prioritize his days of freedom to the cause of greater freedom for the American people which he has continued to prioritize ever since. Close to eight years ago he became a student of Dr. Ed Rivera and began blogging about the four Organic Laws of The United States of America. The impetus for enrolling in the "Basic Course" was to acquire more certain understanding on how Americans can work, be fully compensated for their labor and engage in trade without interference from any external government, governmental service or any of their agencies. Although he sees the great need for freedom and is reminded of such on a daily basis (with reports from the organic agriculture movements, health foundations, anti-vax groups and the like) he wonders who has the ear to hear how to be free? .........

October 8, 2018 - My "Resurrection Day" -

According to "The Book of Houses" the day that the Sun transits into the first astrological house is called the "Resurrection Day". I am so very glad that today is "Resurrection Day" for me! ; ~ )

On this day I re-affirm my "original jurisdiction":
I am a free-inhabitant, who was born of American parents within "The United States of America" (unincorporated) on Michigan soil on the 24th day of September, in the "year of our Lord": nineteen hundred fifty-one. Since 1992 I have affirmed permanent domicile in California as a soil jurisdiction republican state national and I act in no other capacity.

February 21, 2019 -

I am now permanently domiciled as a free inhabitant on California's soil and land.
My word is my bond.
I am who I say I am.
I repudiate any and all assumptions that I am subject to any jurisdiction that any entity/agent may represent based on any variation of my given name.

September 30, 2018 - My New Year (and New Decade) -

As of seven days ago I started my new year with renewed devotion to co-creating my journey through time and space here as best as I possibly can. That is part of my personal "contract" with "The Four Agreements" - the fourth being: to Always Do My Best! I'm equally committed to not take anything personally (2nd Agreement) and still I was challenged with what a "fellow gardener" presented to me yesterday when he said "I feel you gave me cancer"! I am gently chuckling about that as one of the most profoundly unenlightened statements I have ever heard spoken directly to me in my entire life! I suspect there may be greater laughter that may unfold from the thought of this as I let go of the unconscious tendency to take things personally. This "letting go" is called de-conditioning and although I have been through much de-conditioning it appears that there may still be some layers to the "onion" that I have referred to as the Enchanted Garden Onion (EGO) another blog also at CureZone.

As part of my "renewed devotion" - when thoughts and feelings of past discomforts arise and I realize certain negative fear-based core beliefs I now give myself to extracting the Gift from these Shadows of the past. I do that by first declaring: "I have learned"! It seems to me my most significant learnings have been concerning how I make agreements with others. The following are some of the things I learned:

1.) Put all the terms in writing regarding every important agreement before beginning to commit my sacred sacral energy to fulfilling those agreements.

2.) Underscore that I am absolutely committed to not making any assumptions about anything that is not clearly articulated in the written agreement.

3.) Include provisions for periodic reviews that anything which may appear lacking/contrary to the terms of the agreement is subject to the periodic review process and if necessary the agreement can be amended.

4.) Articulate how reviews work, that it is not dependent upon the participation of the other party (who may not have a need for a review) whereas I most likely will need the reviews as that is definitely part of how my Human Design works.

February 15, 2019 - Healing Sounds -

"... healing with sounds from our language!
The Sufis are a mystic order and they have studied the impact of sounds on your body and energy. Here are some of their fascinating about sounds. Perhaps you may want to hum some of these sounds for their benefits!

Ah.........represents the feeling of unity...golden sound...opens your heart energy and radiate energy."

Comment: Before reading this moments ago I have been vocalizing the "Ah" as part of Abba/Ah Bah and benefiting with energetic release.

"Ooo (cool) blue...water sound...relaxes energy and draws energy inward;

Eee.............bright blue to turquoise...air sound...related to mind and thinking."[162]

Comment: There is a song from 1958 with a chorus: "Ooo Eee Ooo Ah Ah ting tang walla walla bing bang."[161] There have been a number of versions of this song and if I were ever to do it I'd have the chorus song as slow as possible to allow for the fullest potential of these "healing" sounds.

January 19, 2019 - Spiraling Around My Center -

Message to a friend:
The (current) "Thought" (from Omraam) inspired me to search the connection between "emeralds" and "hope" by way of the "yellow brick road" (to the Emerald City) and in so doing (over the past couple hours) I found:

"In Secrets of the Yellow Brick Road: A Map for the Modern Spiritual Journey Based on The Wizard of Oz, Jesse Stewart blends the 1900 book and the 1939 movie in an interpretation of their archetypal symbols. His reading is highly suggestive of the spiritual depths of the story.

Dorothy is an orphan; humanity is "the great Orphan," according to Kuthumi Lal Singh, one of the early Theosophical teachers. Dorothy is brought into the world of illusion by a cyclone, the cycle of birth and death; she begins her journey home by following the Yellow Brick Road, which is an unwinding spiral, thus complementing the cyclone by reversing the path of her involution. Her three companions represent both three aspects of the human personality (thinking, feeling, and will) and the three paths of Yoga: knowledge, devotion, and action."[158]

And when I read "thinking, feeling, and will" I immediately thought of you!

Anthroposophy is a major source of material based on this three-fold nature of self and society. I was first introduced to the three-fold nature of the heart (mind, emotions, will) in my Church days in the 70s and also the three-fold of Spirit-soul-body. I have given considerable thought to this over the many years! I'm certainly into sharing about it with others as I think you can probably tell.

May 6, 2019 -

"Those who decide to go within discover that the source of their wealth – their spirit – is inexhaustible and that with very little, they are replete, fulfilled, and their thirst is quenched. It always comes back to the same question: how to free the spirit within us. It is first and foremost upon the spirit that we must rely. In times of trouble and hardship, only the spirit has the power to support us and give us the means to rebuild ourselves. Everyone can abandon us, we can lose everything, everything that is, except for ourselves, our spirit. So, why not search there, within, since it is the only possession, the only certainty we truly have? Everything – our successes and joys, of course, but also our hardships and sorrows – can help us to seek the riches the spirit has placed within us. They may not be very apparent, for that which is most precious and given to us by the Creator is buried deep within us. But thanks to the effort we make to discover these riches, we will grow in the world of the spirit."
Omraam Mikhael Aivanhov[166]

Comment: Re: "how to free the spirit within us"
The was a central question and quest in this blog-writer's initial entrance into "The Church." In those early days the quest was challenging to some degrees however because a method was given that was most enthusiastically embraced the challenges presented opportunities to press on! The method was most largely that of "calling on the Lord"! Several scriptural verses served as the most fundamental basis for this. On top of that the supreme elder's authoritative word at the time (1971) was essentially "the louder the better." Have totally "been there, done that" and as loud and as much as was humanly possible at that time! That course ran through an entire nine-year cycle. A transformed crystallization of that cycle has remained however it does not require the volume of amplitude or duration. (Thank God! ; ~ )

July 9, 2018 - Sabian Symbol for Progressed Mercury in Sidereal Chart ...

... at: Sagittarius 5°: An Old Owl Sits Alone On The Branch Of A Large Tree. (Connected with this symbol about a day or so after I had communicated to the Gene Keys Society that I am very much "Alone" where I live with my work with the Gene Keys!)

KEYNOTE: A poised and wise approach to existence based on a clear perception of unconscious factors and their operation. ("Factors" that because they are "unconscious" are much like the greater mass of an iceberg that is submerged under the surface of the water.)

Dane Rudhyar's commentary: The owl has always been a symbol of wisdom, and its hooting call has evoked a rise to mysterious and hidden elements in life. The owl functions lucidly in the night aspect of existence. (Also "a day" before I had communicated with a client saying I am a night owl.) His eyes see what men normally fail to perceive. He represents that consciousness which is active where the processes of life normally escape the attention of the personal ego and its intellect.

This is the last of the five symbols in the forty-ninth sequence. It suggests the possibility of developing a wisdom beyond tragedy, a peace and poise beyond conflict. One might speak here of TRANSLUCIDITY.[150]

The above symbol is the fifth (of fifteen) in the seventeenth "Scene" called Abstraction. I wish Dane had given a word or two for the kind of abstraction that he was thinking of for this. After researching this term I searched for a surviving protege of Dane and most fortunately found an individual along with their email contact whereupon I emailed them asking if I may present a question for their consideration. In any case this progressed placement of my Sidereal Mercury in my third astrological house convinced me of this time in my life that lends itself most favorably to writing and publishing! It was only about a month ago that I had deeply realized an upgraded self-acceptance of my being a writer! I'll have to verify that it appears I'll have Mercury in Sag for another seventeen years!

May 29, 2018 -

"... This New Moon could be significant for Donald Trump as it happens at the same degree as his Sun. A New Moon solar return is the end of one cycle and the start of another. The Metonic Cycle repeats every 19 years, bringing lunations to the same zodiac degree every 19 years. So if we back-track 19 years to June 1999 there was a New Moon at the same degree as this one."

This may be the very first time hearing about "The Metonic Cycle". It has sparked this writer's interest, "big time"! Hie 19th birthday was possibly the most profound revolution in his life and certainly at that time: September 1970! To see the events that he survived the month before in August (and my "decent" into his "end-of-the-world") from the perspective of this "cycle" as an end of the first nineteen years and as clearing before the beginning of the new cycle gives him deeper understanding and appreciation for his affinity with "Cosmos and Psyche"! And then to see the next 19 year cycle to age 38 in September 1989 when he received two pivotal books as a birthday gift namely: "The Inner Nature of Music and the Experience of Tone" plus "The Arts and Their Mission" both by Rudolf Steiner as these books then inspired him to attend "The Healing Forces in Music In Waldorf Education" conference about nine months later and that in turn inspired him to go to Rudolf Steiner College that Fall.

Age 57 in 2008 was majorly significant as well. It looks like the Metonic Cycle is very significant in this writer's life!

March 20, 2018 - Happy Equinox, where've you are (entering Spring or Fall!) -

Today the Sun is transiting through the 25th Hexagram and activating the 25th Gene Key corresponding to Gate 25 in our Human Design. This is the Gate of Innocence - AKA The Gate Of The Spirit Of The Self. -

"The perfection of action through uncontrived and spontaneous nature -
Center: G - Quarter: Initiation - Theme: Purpose fulfilled through Mind -

The love of Gate 25 flows out of fully accepting and living surrendered to one's form. A gate of the higher self, its pivotal role is to turn people toward individuation. Your innocence is not designed to bring love into the world in any specific way, but rather to love without discrimination. You hold the potential, and empower others with the potential, to love life and everything in it equally. A flower can be loved as profoundly as a human. This quality of love is often projected as cool or cold but is neither. The mystical potential of this love is transcendent and universal, and your spirit innocence is always being tested. You have the capacity to meet these initiations from life like a spiritual warrior, fired up and ready to compete for your spirit (your individuality) no matter what the circumstance. ..."[74],

I have this gate activated by my Personality Earth. In re-reading the above description I'm especially noticing "your spirit - your individuality". This apparent union of spirit and individuality stands in stark contrast to the dogma of oneness that I had been conditioned with during the whole of my immersion into "The Church".

February 3, 2018 -

By acknowledging an awareness of soul pain I realized my need for miracles. Earlier I had just written affirmatively: "I most certainly deserve all natural expressions of miracles throughout all my thinking and in every thought I am aware of now." Something must have been corrected through doing that as I soon followed my attraction for and through an article and inspired I then searched out another one that gave great highlight to "Imagination". The power of "Imagination" inspired my search to the Human Design System/Gene Keys for the Hexagram/Gate/Gene Key of Imagination. Now re-reading the 64th Gift of Imagination I find: "...this is one of the roles of meditation — to allow this pain to rise to the surface of your awareness so that it can be transmuted. All it takes is willingness to feel the pain, and the miracle begins."[142]

February 4, 2018 -

Just read: "It has been said that the fundamental principle of hypnosis is 'in the battle between logic and imagination, imagination always wins.' Imagination is often closely connected with emotion. ..."[144]

November 24, 2017 -

Just reviewed my notes from the October interview with Barbara Marx Hubbard and the big "spark" in all of that for me is her statement: "When we meet each other we turn on" and also "It's almost impossible to affirm this in yourself alone". I don't think that recording is still available for me to fill in a blank I have on another quote that ends with: "... part of a systemic change. What if that's true? We'll have to get together to find out."

I now recall the Beatles singing "Come Together" on "Abbey Road" in 1969. I count it as a miracle to truly come together in the way/s that will allow for "a systemic change". And saying that it takes a "miracle" doesn't mean it's impossible. It only means it requires some thought corrections because that is the true transformative nature of miracles. We need to "chose once again".

I find myself preparing for "when we meet each other" and especially to allow each of us to "turn on". What do we turn on" to? As Barbara has said: "We're at the very beginning of our universal species. We're at the threshold. The more who cross this threshold the more this field expands. We're a new born planetary system ~ planetary awakening in love ...!

I also recall "On The Threshold of a Dream" by The Moody Blues, also as of 1969.[133] Forty-eight years later and next year it will be seven cycles of seven: 7x7 = 49 years! 2018 = an 11/2 universal year. Expect Miracles!

One more (partial) quote from Barbara: "... discovering what we might become."

All these quotes together correspond (in my mind) to the Great Change that is very well-spoken of and articulated in considerable depth in the Gene Keys! We are presently a transitional species and we are on the very real threshold of a most awesome genetic mutation that will transform our species into the next series of our unfolding evolution and this will actually begin to occur in the next several years! Having said that offers me the opportunity to add citation references about that here. (Truth be told: There is a large part of me that loves to do this particular research & writing and there is also another part of me that sees this as "work" that I would welcome being supported for. ; ~ )

October 28, 2017 -

Just sent this a moment ago (approx. 8 PM - Pacific) to "Barbara Marx Hubbard & Humanity's Team":


Thank you for the replay[130] (that I just finished listening to a moment ago). May I be considered for a scholarship to attend the 52-week online intensive? I do not have the financial means of paying either the listed price/s or participating in a "payment plan". I have no income. (I'm happy to share more details about that if necessary.)

In support of my request I'd like to offer a little more information about myself. I blog extensively at Curezone.[i] One of my blogs is devoted to my High Ideal of co-creating a Biodynamic eco-village[ii] that I call: Cheeta: Culturally Healing Eco-Enlightening Transformational Arts. The webinar mentioned that the 52-week online intensive could be a "venue" for connecting with other co-creators. This is exactly what I most want to receive into my life now. I believe I am a prime candidate for the program and that not having the finances need not be a barrier for my participation. What do you think?

Looking forward to hearing from you!
Have a fabulous rest of your October!

~Chef Jemichel
P.S. Neal (Donald Walsh) knew me in Escondido at "Helping Hands" as John-Michael when I published Transformations that featured two of his pre-"Conversations With ..." articles.
[i] Here's one of my blog posts:
"Conception Day 2012 & Beyond":


I'm thinking positively about joining the "intensive"!

I got a reply! Some partial scholarships may be available.[131] I've now asked to know what the "co-pay" amount is so I can ask for a donation.

September 21, 2017 - One of my "Twelve Perspectives" -

Today the Sun is transiting through the hexagram gate that my Natal Sun was in when I emerged out of the womb into "the world" (as many of us know it). I am feeling a particular rising up of my energy just in thinking about this particular (46th) Hexagram/Human Design Gate/Gene Key. Following is the "Daily View" for Line 1 which has ignited my "rising":

"Gate 46
Pushing Upward
The Gate of the Determination of the Self
The Body is the Temple

Good fortune that may be perceived as the result of serendipity but derives from effort and dedication. To accept that one is in the right place is deeply spiritual.

Right Angle Cross of the Vessel of Love 3
Godhead - Christ
Line 1 - Being discovered
Dedication in obscurity that is unexpectedly discovered.

Exaltation: Art for art's sake. Any creative endeavour that is self-fulfilling sooner or later is recognized. The potential for creative success through dedication.

Detriment: The ability to judge the potential of those in obscurity but often solely to benefit one's own success. The determination to recognize and benefit from the success of others.

Quarter of Duality, the Realm of Jupiter
Theme: Purpose fulfilled through Bonding
Mystical Theme: Measure for Measure
This Gate is part of the Channel of Discovery, A Design of Succeeding Where Others Fail, linking the G (Self) Center (Gate 46) with the Sacral Center (Gate 29). Gate 46 is part of the Collective Sensing (Abstract) Circuit with the keynote of sharing."[117]

Inspired to identify the arc of astrological degrees for this gate/hexagram I am now really delighted to see that it begins at about 28 degrees Virgo. Although my Natal Sun is 0 degrees Libra - knowing that this gate actually begins in Virgo feels deeply validating for me in light of all the references I have mede to my affinity with Virgo!

I also wish to research the "Mystical Theme: Measure for Measure".

We also have the 46th Gene Key as part of this Sun Transit:

“We humans have no real idea of the capacities of this body in which we live.

It can sip the nectar of a star when it's correctly attuned.

It can make sweet love to another person just from thinking about them.

The body is a mirror of the macrocosm. It has so many jewels and treasures within it that we couldn't explore them all if we had aeons. Our bodies are the great untamed wilderness. They're the frontier, not the final frontier, the only frontier. We'll never exhaust their abilities, their capacity for love and Ecstasy."[118]

This theme: "The body is a mirror of the macrocosm" and similarly-phrased as: "Man - microcosm of the universe" has repeatedly come to me over the past several days which I now see as a build-up to this present time with the current transit.

In addition to the Sun's position from the perspectives of Human Design/Gene Keys there is also the Sabian Symbols with scenes for each degree of this Hexagram. The degrees run from 28 Virgo 15' to 3 Libra 52' 30". The Sabian Symbols are read at the next higher degree since that system starts at 1 degree rather then at 0 degrees. Therefore there are a total of six successive scenes for the entire span of this current Hexagram starting at 29 Virgo and "culminating" at 4 Libra.

Here's the first scene:


KEYNOTE: After a crisis one should seek to realign the renewed consciousness with the primordial Revelation of the Truth of Man.

Any revolutionary movement, once it has succeeded in over-coming the inertia of the past and in toppling obsolete structures, needs to tap the most essential realities of what Man represents and signifies in the universal Order; or else it merely re-embodies in a superficially altered manner the very things it has destroyed. This is the crucial moment. In occultism the "Pattern of Man" is an archetypal Power that may be contacted. It must be sought with undeviating determination. After each revolutionary crisis this Pattern and this Power can ("can" is in boldface type) be contacted — always the same, yet at each new cycle perceivable in a different light.

This fourth stage symbol presents us with the technique required to "reach the other shore." But each individual, and each group or racial unit, must come in its own way to the ROOT KNOWLEDGE which provides the only safe foundation for rebirth.[119]

I relate to this symbol and to the commentary by Dane Rudhyar. He suggests that we look at each scene as the center point of a trinity of scenes that include the scene immediately prior plus the scene immediately following. His book: "An Astrological Mandala: The Cycle of Transformation and Its 360 Symbolic Phases" was copyrighted in 1973 - fourteen years before the revelation of the Human Design System as a synthesis of both traditional mystical systems (the I Ching, Kabbalah, chakra system and several astrological systems) along with neutrino physics, DNA science plus a revised cosmology. In the "trinity of scenes" we have past, present, and future. With six lines to a Hexagram we have an evolutionary process that Ra likened unto the levels of a two-story house and including the staircase between first and second floor plus the roof of the house.[122]

Following is a quote from a Human Design teacher regarding the two most prominent Lines in my 3/5 Human Design profile:

"Line Three – The Martyr (Experimental)
All gates expressed as Line Three are experimental in nature. Line three gates may have a 'trial and error' component. All gates in Line three will be experimented with and the wisdom of the experimentation will not be evident until around the age of 40.
At 40, you have experienced all the 'wrong' things and are deeply wise about the highest expression of that energy based on your lessons from your 'mistakes'."[121]

That is a perfect match for my experience! At age 40 I "graduated" from an abusive relationship and a most significant piece of the wisdom I gained at that time was regarding sexuality.

"Line Five – The Heretic (Mature Expression)
Gates that are expressed in Line Five are the ultimate expression of the gate. In traditional Human Design we say that the fifth line universalizes the theme of the gate. Fifth line energies are the mature expression of the energies of the gate and will be shared with others in a wise way."[121]

March 28, 2017 -

Just got inspired to generate my progressed astrological chart and so glad I did! I have my progressed Sun and Moon conjunct in Sagittarius!

"Progressed Sun in Sagittarius
When your progressed Sun enters Sagittarius, expand your mind and vision of your life and the world. If you can see it, you can make it happen. You can take your dreams and make them reality now. ..."[92]

And in the first house I "have a greater ability to lead others".

If the Sun progression is one degree each year then from where it is now (just about six degrees Sag) it will continue in this sign for at least twenty three more years!

April 14th - Wow! I just dissolved my agreement with one of my clients which now frees me to "expand (my) mind and vision of (my) life"! I also just made an appointment for an introductory consult on my "experiment" with my Human Design. I'm thinking positively in both respects. I'm also thinking positively about my historical conditioning that I see largely represented by my natal Saturn conjunct natal Sun. I just reread in Cosmos and Psyche where Richard Tarnas refers to Saturn as "repressive" and reading that was somewhat biblio-therapeutic for me! The most challenging part of my conditioning was the repressive parental relationship mostly that of my father (Saturn = responsible father figure, authority figure). Zeno says: "Saturn contributes its discipline and seriousness to the channel defining the center. My Personality Saturn is in my Spleen Center. The pertinent channel is Spleen 57-10 Self Center: "The Channel of Perfected Form"! Writing this now underscores the significance for me of Saturn in my Human Design! In addition to the few things I've already mentioned about Saturn there is also the association of Saturn with form. And all the more with "perfected form"!

Original start of this blog on: Thursday, July 23, 2015 -

Thursday is ruled by Jupiter - "god of expansion, generosity, ... philosophy, belief systems, higher learning, principles, ethics, morals, the law, ... social learning through story telling, teaching ... "[1]; also known as "the general" and "the functional ability to expand and increase the scope of an individual's power and authority". Therefore I deem today to be the perfect right day for the subject matter of this blog post.

I'm inspired (as of late this past afternoon) to begin a biographical accounting in several major areas of my life. The initial idea was to create a separate biography at each of my twelve blogs[2]. (I'm impressed with Steiner's thinking for developing twelve perspectives[27] on a conception of the world and I can also imagine possibly including seven modes within each of the twelve for a grand total of eighty-four perspectives!)

July 25, 2015 -

I'm realizing now that I find a deeper sense of my biography when viewed from an astrological perspective. Also that biography for me is not only the "historical" but the current process of living as well. Writing that may be a type of journal - an accounting of one's navigation by both sun light and "star light".

Today is day one of Venus retrograde!

"With Venus Retrograde, it’s all about how you invest: your time, your money, your creative pulse, your affections, your recreations. ...

Although Venus begins her retrograde Saturday July 25th at 0 degrees of Virgo, the majority of her 6 week cycles will be in Leo, and this costume of Aphrodite needs to be adored as numero uno. ..."[3]

0 degrees of Virgo gives the following Sabian Symbol that I include in my characterization of this Venus retrograde:

"Scene Eleven: Characterization -
by Dane Rudhyar

(Virgo 1° to Virgo 15°)

First Level: Actional

Phase 151 (Virgo 1°): In A Portrait, The Significant Features Of A Man's Head Are Artistically Emphasized.

Keynote: The capacity to picture to oneself clearly the salient features and the overall meaning of any life situation. (An ideal influence for a retrograde!)

During the two preceding Scenes the 'feel' of energy at work has been the dominant feature of a consciousness still strongly ego-centered yet at times eagerly and devotionally reaching up to a realization of divine or cosmic order. Now we have come in the seasonal cycle of the year to the sign Virgo. It is in a sense the symbol of harvesting, but it is also that of the Path of discipleship, and of all strongly determined processes of training, or retraining. Flooded with and having enjoyed and released energy, the personalized consciousness now has to learn the lesson of significant form. It must be able to see life situations as wholes of experience, and to discover their meaning by distinguishing their most characteristic features.

This is the first stage of the thirty-first five-fold sequence of symbols and its Keyword is DISCRIMINATION. Implied in discrimination is both analysis and intuition. The mind separates and identifies — and unfortunately often exaggerates — what makes a person or a situation different from another; but the intuitive responses of the whole person to what confronts him or her is also essential, for what matters is not only my or your 'difference,' but the place and function this difference occupies in the organic pattern of the evolution of 'humanity as a whole,' i.e. of Man.[4]

July 28, 2015 -

Just read today's "Thought for the day"[5] (from the online group "Prosveta S.A." that is "dedicated to the publication, distribution and spreading of the teaching of Master Omraam Mikhaël Aïvanhov (1900-1986)."[6]) that conveys a most profound message of an ideal relationship with/in nature!

I am quickly reminded of my beloved paternal German grandfather who was born in, raised up in rural Germany a century ago. I wish to positively identify the village (made note to do that). I want to identify the forest that he was closest to. The "Thought for the day" message inspires me to discover this now. In any case my grandfather and grandmother were members of a German club in Chicago that was named after the "Böhmerwald"[7] in Germany. I note that here because the annual "German dance" and festive gathering of the club (on or about Valentine's Day) played a significant role throughout my childhood. I attended this event every year it existed since the mid-50s and 60s. It gave me my most fulfilling immersion into an authentic German culture that had been transplanted to Chicago fairly early in the 1900s.

This is a significant part of my biography! Although my father was born in the u. s. of A. his first language was German! (English became his second language.) My father's early childhood diet was largely German foods (prepared by his excellent German chef-mother! ; ~ ) I believe his first "religion" was German Lutheran as that was my grandmother's religion. (My grandfather had Catholicism.[8])

July 29, 2015 -

The film: "2001 A Space Odyssey" had a significant impact on this Blog-writer when he first viewed it in the late 60s. He is glad to now read about it in a scholarly thesis that says: "The overall theme of the movie appears to be man’s exploration and ascent to something higher." The "ascent to something higher" theme is one that this writer had begun to identify in another previous blog.[9]

... Dave’s transportation through the tunnel of colors and light leaves the viewer utterly lost. Much like Dave, the movie watcher is being taken into the unknown. As Dave experiences a rebirth, the viewer does as well."[10]

This writer had previously blogged at least a mention of this film over a year ago and hinted at its impact on him.[11]

"Next stage in human evolution: the Star Child"[12]

July 5, 2020 - Underscoring The Significance of "2001" -

"2001: A Space Odyssey is a 1968 epic science fiction film produced and directed by Stanley Kubrick. The screenplay was written by Kubrick and Arthur C. Clarke, and was inspired by Clarke's 1951 short story 'The Sentinel' and other short stories by Clarke. A novel released after the film's premiere was in part written concurrently with the screenplay. The film, which follows a voyage to Jupiter with the sentient computer HAL after the discovery of an alien monolith affecting human evolution, deals with themes of existentialism, human evolution, technology, artificial intelligence, and the possibility of extraterrestrial life.

The film is noted for its scientifically accurate depiction of space flight, pioneering special effects, and ambiguous imagery. Sound and dialogue are used sparingly and often in place of traditional cinematic and narrative techniques. The soundtrack incorporates numerous works of classical music, among them Also Sprach Zarathustra by Richard Strauss, 'The Blue Danube' by Johann Strauss II, and works by Aram Khachaturian and György Ligeti.

The film received diverse critical responses, ranging from those who saw it as darkly apocalyptic to those who saw it as an optimistic reappraisal of the hopes of humanity. It was nominated for four Academy Awards, with Kubrick winning for his direction of the visual effects. The film is widely regarded as one of the greatest and most influential films ever made. In 1991, it was deemed 'culturally, historically, or aesthetically significant' by the United States Library of Congress and selected for preservation in the National Film Registry."[194]


Since the film's high regard up to at least 1991 a new perspective has begun to slowly emerge (much slower than the rising sun in the film's opening scene) offering an even greater view of its contents via the "Science of Differentiation" known as The Human Design System. A perspective that this Blog-writer could easily devote attention to elaborating upon (if only he had nothing else to attend to like a probable relocation ; ~ ) On top of that is an additional greater view via Gene Keys that only now in the writing of this comment does this writer realize that the pre-natal appearance of the fetus depicted at the culminating conclusion of the film is directly representative of the new human species that will emerge from the genetic mutation as presented in Gene Keys primarily through the 55th Gene Key. This is the Great Change that is to occur as of 2017 and that humanity has begun to prepare for although as a consequence of external forces.

July 18, 2020 - Continuing Insight Into "2001" -

The Early Man sequence represents the Cro-Magnon genetic mutation from a five-centered humanoid to a seven-centered homo-erectus.
"The Great Change" will be a genetic mutation from the current nine-centered "Homo Sapien In Transitus" to what Ra Uru Hu called the Rave.

"...understanding Homo sapiens' lengthy evolutionary journey, compared to our barely 230 year presence on this planet as Homo sapiens in transitus, gives us a perspective on the pervasive impact that living in these transitory times as an interregnum species has on us. It affects how we make decisions, relate to one another, break away from the controlling modes of the past, and attain our full potential as conscious, awake and aware beings. Briefly, anthropologists speculate that 5-centered Neanderthal hominids, who relied on instinctive splenic intelligence and their keen senses to survive, were animistic and deeply connected to and influenced by the forces of or 'gods' of nature. They lived as small family groups in harmony with the solar/lunar cycles of the natural order, and appear to have been peaceful and non-aggressive.

As the Cro-Magnon mutation took place over thousands of years, the stage was set for the evolution of modern man, for 7-centered Homo sapiens, our precursors. Their progress was greatly enhanced beginning 85,000 years ago when the larynx mutated, increasing space in the cranium for neurological advances in the neocortex and visual cortex which further delineated the characteristic raised foreheads and binocular vision common to our species. Existential, instinctual (or instantaneous) Splenic awareness was soon overshadowed by mental awareness or intelligence that was given expression through the voice.

This metamorphosis continued to distinguish humans from the rest of the mammalian kingdom. Being able to make and systematize a variety of repeatable sounds led to language. Communication led to cooperation, and the unique ability to share intelligence, which then led to specialization, and organization into villages and fiefdoms. All of these evolving traits ensured new levels of personal and group mastery as part of Homo sapiens' thriving existence.

With Cro-Magnon man, the emphasis shifted from survival of the form and living attuned to the natural flow, to focusing on and revering the powers of the strategic mind that dominated the natural flow. This is how Homo sapiens made it to the top of the food chain. Shrewd and inventive strategic thinking replaced fears for survival with strategies formulated to control the environment, and eventually the people in it. As a species, Homo sapiens were conditioned to look to forces beyond themselves for authority, such as gods, priests and kings, to guide, rescue and support them, as well as to justify their often aggressive conquests.

By 1781, the remarkable, strategic mind had succeeded in taking the 7-centered form to its zenith of human potential. Enter 9-centered Homo Sapiens In Transitus. The 7-centered Homo sapiens had a shorter life expectancy marked by the Saturnian cycle. Our new 9-centered forms or bodies have an 84-year life expectancy marked by the Uranian cycle. We need to live longer in order to process and integrate increasing amounts of information, and to develop technologies that will be needed in the future. Driven by the genetic imperative to reproduce, 7-centered beings found communion through sexuality. The 9-centered being is here to find communion through awareness. The ways we communicate, and the shape our relating/relationships will take in the future, are an intrinsic part of the transition to living completely as 9-centered beings.

By 1987, as the entire planet was flooded with the potential for heightened awareness, the stage was already set, and the tension elevated between our body's consciousness and our mind's domination. The moment was ripe for The Human Design System and its effective and practical way of addressing this dilemma. The bottom line is that our now highly evolved 9-centered forms, our vehicles, are designed to guide us through life decision by decision. We no longer need to look to an outer authority through our mind for direction. This is a huge blow to the strategic mind in its determination to retain its former control of our decision-making process. ... The Human Design System bridges the evolutionary progression from the mental outer authority of the 7-centered being to the revolutionary, aurically connected, personal authority of the 9-centered form."[74]

The Following Thursday, July 30, 2015 -

"Dialogue and reflection are the essentials of autobiography.

Autobiography is a process of reflection that reveals self-as-object through reflective self-representations. ... to look (back) to lived experiences--to capture autobiography. ... This interpretation considers autobiography as a two-step process. The first step requires the reflection of experiences once lived in order to grasp their meaning. The second step involves the presentation of the experiences and then interpretation -- experiences as they appear now.

Thus, the autobiography barely recaptures the past--or even records it. It records the present understanding of the story teller and presents it in the context of that situation."[13]

From new inspiration to look more deeply into the process of autobiography I've just discovered "currere". I now find more meaning for entering autobiography simultaneously as part the path of transformation and as a teacher. I also feel blessed in realizing that this understanding of both autobiography and the currere "method" fits very well with my particular Human Design configuration as it requires the quality of self-reflection that I see with currere.

The following quote may appear a bit "heady" for some (and maybe I can simplify that soon) however I hope it offers a helpful point to consider in this way.

"... William Pinar ... suggests that the term currere indicates a framework for autobiographical reflection on educational experiences from a subjective and narrative perspective. He describes currere: The method of currere—... this autobiographical method asks us to slow down, to remember even re-enter the past, and to meditatively imagine the future. Then, slowly and in one’s own terms, one analyzes one’s experience of the past and fantasies of the future in order to understand more fully, with more complexity and subtlety, one’s submergence in the present. The method of currere is not a matter of psychic survival, but one of subjective risk and social reconstruction, the achievement of selfhood and society in the age to come (Pinar, 2004, 4.)"[14]

"People are continuously learning and always in the 'process of becoming' which stems from Bill Pinar’s Method of Currere."[15]

(Christmas '15 - I underscore this again. The Human "Being" is one expression of our wholeness. We are also Human Becomings")

August 11th, 2015 -

"... in 1966, ... a new spirit of change and liberation, particularly in our attitude to the biosphere, occurred. To many it felt that, despite the awesome Sword of Damocles represented by MAD (the nuclear doctrine of Mutually Assured Destruction that constantly hung over our heads at the time), a new consciousness was dawning, that anything was possible. But ... the initially innocent and vigorous 'counter-culture' of 'the flower children' was within three years largely overwhelmed by the unholy trinity of 'sex, drugs, and rock'n'roll'".[16]

"... in the time of Christ the Celtic Initiates were able to 'witness' metaphysically the mystery of Golgotha (according to Rudolf Steiner). One of the brightest pages in the Book of the Living of the Irish people was the Golden Age of the sixth century:

'It is recorded "that from the sixth to the tenth century while the peoples of Europe were torn asunder by internal struggles and racial wars, Ireland, and Ireland alone of all the nations, kept the light of faith and knowledge alight and burning with a brightness which diffused its rays far beyond the shores of Erin"'..."[17]

My maternal grandfather claimed to be from Irish descent, however years later my uncle said it's Walsh. In any case keeping "the light of faith and knowledge alight" feels good to me! ; ~ )

"... the instinct for truth in human nature"[18]

August 16th, 2015 -

My biography is one of truth regarding the new nature of self, life and others and as such requires an all-inclusive paradigm to do it "justice". Stating this in terms of "justice" is actually serendipitous to my Mayan astrological sign which I refer to (following) along with a dozen other astrological systems that I feel are required to "outline" the "all-inclusive paradigm".

According to the Mayan Sun Signs I was born a 'Monkey'.:

"Monkey takes ideas as threads of vines and weaves them into the fabric of our reality. New patterns or inventions are also woven into our lives by Monkey. … Monkey's innocent curiosity leads to artistic expression and constructive solutions. ..."

Also included with my "Day Sign" is the "Galactic Tone" - numerical value of eight. "...Eight is the power of organization demonstrated in the statement, 'As above, so below'. From simplicity to infinity, the energy of eight organizes all levels of creation."[19]

Also it is most interesting to me that my 'Trenca Sign' is "Seed"! I have known a deep mystical connection with seed since forty-five years ago that was somewhat 'unexplainable' to me that is now validating for me to see in the Mayan paradigm!

You may like to know that "Your higher self chooses your sign before you are born in to this world. You take into consideration your needs for evolving and growing spiritually. Your 'Day Sign' provides you with your life mission that includes your strong and weak aspects. You forget all of this information the minute you are born, however. This sign guides you and reminds you of your spiritual essence and personal mission to help you evolve."[20]

Also at MyMayanSign I appreciate:

"...Being an artist and artisan from birth, the monkey symbolizes the child within us. This child should be given permission to paint the walls of the house or play the violin in a free way or do anything artistic and creative it wants to do. If you are someone that is born under the Monkey Sign, you should give permission to the child within you to play and creatively express itself. That is, if you wish to grow and be free. ... When your creative channel is open, you can be very beneficial to self and community with your practical mind."

August 17th, 2015 -

According to the indications that I'm working with in "The Book of Houses" I've just ended my "Harvest Month" several days ago. I'm now in my 11th House of "Choosing Seeds" which naturally follows times of harvest. I had made an intention to make a conscious accounting of my harvest and elsewhere noted that of all the "goals" I had set for my self a year ago - none of them came into fruition in this cycle. As I write this now (11:22 AM, PST) I think the goals simply need more time. My goals included substantial objectives that involve other individuals. in any case - during my most recent contemplation of a quarter our ago I realized that I received a tremendous harvest this year! I have an abundance of real peace! I realized in my contemplation that peace is all I really want! I had been faithfully tending my inner "garden" throughout this past year, paying attention to what "seed" thoughts were there and weeding out every "tare" to the best of my ability and the result of all my labor is that I have real peace residing in me that is part of me now! Once again, It's all I really want! ; ~ )

October 11th, 2015 -

Re: "Truth of Life" -

As I mentioned in my abstract for this blog post my vision for an autobiographical account consists of "Truth of Self, Life and Others" largely in light of my Human Design. In this blog post I also mentioned how dyads could be used for autobiographical purposes and how attractive that approach is for me since I'm an avid dyad enthusiast.

In the traditional Enlightenment Intensive (EI) series every individual begins with "Tell me who you are" and most probably can take on: "Tell me what you are" as of their second intensive. After that there may be an option to have: "Tell me what Life is". The fourth traditional EI contemplation directive is "Tell me what another is". If I could record my dyads in an EI then doing a complete series could give considerable material from which to develop an autobiographical presentation. However that is a mighty big "if"! Most likely not going to happen in a genuine EI. It is better for me to think in terms of an independent dyad session for this project.

I just referred to the Enlightenment Manual[21] and after calculating the total hours in dyads for a single EI I figured that an individual doing an autobiographical dyad series (ADS) on a once/week basis would possibly need to allow a full year to cover all four of the EI contemplative directives as mentioned above. I'm not suggesting that the ADS program would take the place of or serve the same purpose of an EI. ADS is simply my vision and serves a significantly different purpose than the traditional EI. It Actually would be an experiment, one that I would gladly conduct!

Therefor I'm attracted to this experiment. I'm especially attracted to the "truth of life" contemplation!

Omraam says "In the psychic and spiritual realms, we become more and more alive when we let go of the lower expressions of life."[22]

Contemplation within dyads on "... what life is" can be a most effective way to let go of the lower expressions of life as one intends to join with the living truth of what life is!

Oct. 13th, 2015 -

Mikhael goes to India – 1959, Part 1/7 -

"... A memorable meeting was with Neemkaroli Baba. ...

It was Neemkaroli who acknowledged Aïvanhov’s mastership by bestowing on him the honorific name Omraam. This name is made up of two famous Sanskrit mantras or words of power, om and ram. ... The syllable ram, which was rendered as 'Raam' in French to assist with the correct pronunciation, is the mantra denoting the fire element. ...

Aïvanhov explained his initiatic name as follows:

'The name I was given in India, OMRAAM, corresponds to the two processes of ‘Solve’ and ‘Coagula’: OM dissolves all things, rendering them subtle and fine, and RAAM materializes them. The name OMRAAM is the symbol of the process of concretization, the invisible, intangible idea that must incarnate on earth so that it can be seen and touched by the whole world.'"[23]

In the early 80s I participated in a training that included receiving a spiritual name: Ramjah! I now recognize the materializing, concretization correspondence of ‘Coagula’ in Ram that is part of my spiritual nature!

November 2nd, 2015 -

If you are in a "5" Personal Year (as I am), November is a 7 Personal Month for you:

The best way to approach this month is to set aside some alone time to do a little soul searching. You may even find that you have more leisure time on your hands this month to do exactly that.

You have been on a fast and furious pace all year but this month brings you a considerably different opportunity. Set aside your career and relationships for a bit and concentrate on listening to your inner self. You are particularly insightful this month and perhaps living just a little too much in your head but this is precisely what you need to do. Take stock of your life and where you are headed.

You may also find yourself drawn to the spiritual and certainly there will be spiritual growth this month as well as vivid dreams and messages from above. If you are open to it. this would be a good time to get a reading to explore that side of you.

Take time to rest, relax, read a good book or go for a long walk. Reconnect with your thoughts, pay attention and listen to what your soul is trying to tell you.

No need to worry about your career as by next month, you will return to it and all the other aspects of your life but the work you do this month will help you gain perspective and balance and a clearer sense of self.

Keywords: Slower paced, introspective, insightful

Nov. 16th, 2015 -

Inspired to search more insight re: my Fifth Astrological House that "has to do with creativity ... self-expression .... our originality and flair, enthusiasm ... pride in ourselves, building confidence and self-esteem ...the life area of personal sovereignty, where we begin to recognise and appreciate our own dynamic and playful nature. All forms of creative expression ... are connected with this house."

and I have "Aquarius on the 5th House Cusp Aquarius, the sign of humanitarian goals and altruism. Always impartial and nonsectarian, Aquarian energy is communal (even global). The focus is on the goal, and the goal is always one that is for the many and not the few. Thus this sign is connected to far-seeing visions, world views and group work of all kinds. ..."[24]

I see the "far-seeing visions" (and the rest of my highest ideals) converging in Cheeta.[25]

December 13th, 2015 -

Continued with my astrological research for greater self-understanding about a couple things including my IC (Imum Coeli - on an axis with Midheaven) that is ruled by Capricorn indicating that I want security and safety in my home and family life to which I concur! Then I discovered a little list prioritizing "most to least likely to try to see only the best in people." The top two signs are Cancer followed by Libra which I felt happy about as I have Cancer Moon at Midheaven and Libra Sun at my Ascendant! However down at the bottom of the list where it is least likely to "try to see only the best in people" is Virgo and there I shrieked some as my Venus is in Virgo and my Sun is actually on the Virgo/Libra cusp! I certainly do try to see only the best in others and I admit it most certainly has been challenging at times! Fortunately I have "The Human Design System", "Love Cards" "Destiny Cards", "The Secret Language of Destiny" and several other astrological systems that I use to get a deeper understanding of people and guess what? ... they all work together to give me that understanding that I need to help me accept the differences in values (Venus) that I see with others through my Virgo eyes!

Dec. 14th, 2015 -

Just received a gift of info after subscribing to an astrological site where I had essentially gifted a lady from Chicago who posted her natal data seeking a reading. I offered a brief yet key intro to her Human Design. My "gift" is the following:

"Chiron in the 3rd house: This shows your deepest wound residing in communication. This could mean constant feelings of being misunderstood or not being listened to. It can also show unintentional or intentional insults in childhood that have left you with low self-esteem and feelings of inadequacy. ... You are an advocate for those who are not heard. ... The goal of Chiron here is to show you that your words are important and you are worthy of attention. You can admit your mistakes and praise your accomplishments without feeling guilty. Realizing your divine being can help you gain confidence in yourself. When you learn to speak without need to be heard, but instead just being able to express yourself, and knowing that it is valid and important, then you will have healed your deepest wound."[145]

The degree of my Chiron is in Sagittarius where it corresponds to Ajna Gate 11 at Line 5. And the Sabian Symbol for this position is healing in itself!:

"Sagittarius 28°): An Old Bridge Over A Beautiful Stream Is Still In Constant Use.

KEYNOTE: The enduring elements in a society which reveal its ability to significantly link the genius of its individuals to the everyday needs of the collectivity.

This symbol brings together, as it were, the essential values implied in the two preceding ones. The mastery over material factors of a few imaginative and trained individuals enables their community to remain well-integrated and able to function easily in the best possible environment. The work of these sculptor-engineers allows their people to develop a relatively permanent culture. A tradition is built which enables men to link their outer nature with the highest vision their leaders can conceive and objectively demonstrate.

This third symbol of the fifty-fourth sequence also suggests the way in which the works of man can blend harmoniously with natural environment in producing beautiful and enduring shapes of profound meaning. Reacting against the ugliness of our commercial and chaotic cities and highways, today we tend to long for "wilderness." But the combination of natural beauty and human skill and imagination is the true ideal to strive for. As Keywords we might use the title of an excellent book by the architect Claude Bragdon: The Beautify Necessity."[26]

Cheeta embraces "the combination of natural beauty and human skill and imagination (a)s the true ideal to strive for".

December 18th, 2015 -

One of my twelve auto-biographical perspectives is the evolutionary journey that I took with music - starting in the 50s and continuing through the 70s. The music of the 50s is important as a kind of "back drop" for what emerged in the 60s. And the music of the early 60s is a kind of bridge to the mid and late 60s. In all there's about a twenty-year span that from my perspective deserves to presented as a whole continuum.

If you are aware of the "evolutionary" perspective of this generation of music then you know that the entrance of the music of Led Zepplin onto the world stage made a certain "contribution" that possibly has not yet been fully identified. Maybe the interview with Robert Plant begins to identify the contribution.

Robert Plant: "We were part of a huge youth movement that was going to change the world."

Reporter: "So it was the right time for LED Zeppelin."

Robert: "It was the right time for us all,".

And this is the line that resonates the most. This is the takeaway line:

"Being a contributor in any form was way more important than being a hero." — Robert Plant[28]

Glad I listened to the interview! Here's one comment that begins to touch upon the "contribution" that stands out as the greater highlight from all of this.:

"There was magic in their music and it's captured for all to enjoy. You can't duplicate that in my humble opinion."[29]

That their music had magic is a good place to start in the contemplation as to what was contributed. I'm now reminded of "Cosmos and Psyche" and will check to see what Richard Tarnas mentions of Led Zepplin (LZ).

Another comment by "3434arc1":
"... I still love The Beatles, Stones, Who, Floyd, and a few others, but Led Zeppelin truly had a magic about them that set them apart."

Update on "Cosmos and Psyche" - LZ is mentioned twice in a larger context along with all the new music greats of 1968-69 coinciding with a "triple conjunction of Jupiter, Uranus, and Pluto in 1968-69" ... "the cllmax[47] of the classical era of rock" a statement that I more than "agree with" for I had actually "lived it"! This "living it" is a certain "cllmax"[47] of my autobiography from the musical perspective.

December 20th, 2015 -

As mentioned at the start of this blog - I intend to develop twelve distinct autobiographical perspectives. I've just previously noted one here as Music. Others include Family, Communication, "Christian", Education, Health, Community, Spiritual, Esoteric, Healing, Dance and Ancestors & Descendants.[30]

Dec. 23rd, 2015 -

Many of the postings here are essentially notes for this writer's further development in his autobiography. He counts the following quote as seminal for the spiritual perspective.

"When soul and spirit unite, they bring into the world a seed which grows into a new consciousness."[31]

This writer has memories of longing for this union as of the Summer of 1970. In August he had an acute spiritual emergency.

July 23, 2019 - Continuing - "Spiritual Emergency." -

The "acute spiritual emergency" (mentioned above) refers two times that this blog-writer had signed into a psychiatric facility. Those two stretches filled up most of August of 1970 (and possibly went into September). However a couple weeks prior to that he had a notable day wherein he had certain impressions of the pending end of the world. That evening upon returning home he had a silent inner prayer essentially agreeing to "the end" as long as the foundation of nature would continue - the first of which was "night and day" (followed by man and woman).

Omraam's "Thought" for today is an excellent reference for this:

"Nature has a life with different manifestations that follow on from one another and bring changes. And there is above all the alternation of day and night. ..."[176]

June 24, 2020 - The "End of the world" is now "World War three" -

"... this is
World War three this is what World War
three looks like ..."[193]

Christmas Day, 2015 -

With the "Christian" perspective of the twelve-fold autobiography I wish to identify the "sacred seed" of "Heaven" that was included.

Just discovered (in search re: "Triple Conjunction" 1968) -
"Lifespans of the 'Club of 27' -
Jimi Hendrix (Nov 27, 1942 - Sep 18, 1970) UR +6º, NE -3º
Brian Jones (Feb 28, 1942 - Jul 3, 1969) UR + 4º, NE - 3º
Janis Joplin (Jan 19, 1943 - Oct 4, 1970) UR +8º, NE -3º
Jim Morrison (Dec 8, 1943 - Jul 3, 1970) UR +3º, NE -3º"[34]

[Reviewing this on July 13th, 2016 - 27 is 3 9-yr cycles]

During the month of August right in between the "crossings of the threshold" by Jim Morrison on Jul 3, 1970 and Jimi Hendrix on Sep 18, 1970 is when this writer had his "spiritual emergency"! That event was a kind of convergence of about seven of the twelve perspectives that he had named above.

For the autobiographical "Music Perspective":
"Got Cream? - Ginger Baker, Jack Bruce & Eric Clapton -
Possibly the start of a chapter in my 'book of life' leading up to my T.O.M.M.Y. Transformation of My Mythological Youth."[33]
(9:15 PM)

"That big Pluto-Jupiter-Uranus conjunction of the late sixties, fell on (Hendrix's) Neptune. That was a generational experience, concerning that flower-power Generation, they were born with Neptune right there: for a while, they could be part of it."[34] (9:32 PM)

Skyscript author Nick Kollerstrom continues: "Jimi's chart, more than any other you will ever see, expresses the essence of funky rhythm. It's all trines and sextiles! This guy just had to sing, the tunes had to come tumbling out of him. All five 'club of 27' members (Jim Morrison, Janis Joplin, Brian Jones and Kurt Cobain) have in common an almost total absence of squares in their chart, plus a massive excess of trines and sextiles."[34]

I have twelve "squares" in my chart! Five of these are with my natal moon. It can give you an idea of how attracted I was to the music of Jimi Hendrix and Jim Morrison and how I love to dance! Dancing opened a greatly needed liberating portal for me and especially for my soul survival!

Dec. 31st, 2015 (@ 11:22 PM) -

Re-searching the astroids including Ceres plus aspects and got mine: "Ceres conjunct North Node: These natives have far-reaching aspirations for comfort, relaxing and joyfulness"[35]

January 1st, 2016 -
Note for the "Music Perspective":

The WHO's double album: TOMMY was a major contribution among my many music influences that often included a matrix of music and message expressed in words, images and a third factor that I'll refer to as inner resonance. I suspect that the impact of these musical contributions at least touched upon significant Gene Keys in my Holographic Profile. This past day I recalled this line.:

"... If I told you what it takes
to reach the highest high,
You'd laugh and say 'nothing's that simple'
But you've been told many times before
Messiahs pointed to the door
And no one had the guts to leave the temple!"[36]

"Highest high" could easily be thought of as the Siddhi frequencies in the Gene Keys. However in 1969 neither I nor anyone among my friends had even heard the word Siddhi nor were we on any kind of a dedicated path leading to higher consciousness. Nevertheless certain music (such as Tommy) "sparked"[132] deep within me, igniting my inner being beyond the everyday "reality".

(August 30, 2016 My "Tommy" chapter would be elaborated upon in a number of ways including within the context of the "drug culture" at that time. I would disclose my personal experience in my private publishing of this biography in response to the following:

"People with such a placement (natal Uranus in the first astrological house) should be very careful with drugs, alcohol and any substance that can furthermore blur his already liquid reality. Neptune himself is creating a personality that is stepping with only one leg to the ground, so misuse of substances might totally disconnect someone from the common reality. If Neptune is only positively aspected and shielded by strong planets, then experimenting will not harm the native but rather enhance his ability of understanding the thin web of how the universe functions. Nevertheless, any usage should be under control and he should never allow himself get hooked on any kind of dependant substance. Individuals that have adverse aspects from Mars, Pluto, Saturn and Uranus should not even try to experiment. They are very prone to substance abuse, and such kind of behaviors might awaken/create mental illnesses and psychological problems.[66]

November 6, 2017 - The "Who" - phonetically speaking is somewhat similar to "The Hu" although not exactly so. Is it close enough to possibly "spark" (what I will call) the "Hu frequency" within the listener?

More regarding Neptune in the 1st - "Music is extremely important, as long as anything artistic. Neptune in the first house does not grant some artistic ability by himself; he creates the appreciator of other’s art. People with such a placement can become great art critics. [67])

Just attempted to post the following comment however it requires a Facebook account and I no longer have anything to do with that.

I deeply appreciate both this presentation and the personal disclosures in the comments. I am all the more grateful now having survived the "drug culture" I was submerged in during the late 60's (and then again in the 80s)! Especially seeing the additional vulnerabilities now with my 1st house Neptune square Midheaven Moon and Uranus! I find the thought of it now ping-ponging between frightful and insane on the spectrum of personal risk-taking. And yet I do remember the "quest" that I was on - at least with some of those trips. No doubt in my mind Higher Intelligence had definitely overshadowed me!

June 13, 2019 - Continuing: Hologenetic Profile -

The IQ at 59.3 -
"The 3rd line pattern is founded upon its flexibility. This is a mindset that thinks on its feet. The beauty of the 3rd line is the sheer scope of its knowledge. We should remember that we are looking here at mental belief systems that affect our relationships. The 3rd line pattern is a mind that explores all kinds of belief systems and mental structures. This is what makes it so versatile and eventually can lead to a real gift for communicating with and listening to others. If you have a 3rd line IQ then others will always feel understood and accepted by you. You will have the ability to think sympathetically, which can lead to all kinds of possibilities. The 3rd line mind is also invaluable in strategic thinking – because it is so absorbent it can help others in all kinds of ways."[172]

Comment: The above quote is to underscore the significance and value for "a real gift for communicating with and listening to others ... others will always feel understood and accepted by you."

July 11, 2019 - Continuing the (above) "Comment" -

The knowledge of this "gift" further validates a continuous realization of this writer's "Life Work" that is now all the more highlighted with the current Sun and North Node transit through his 10th House! This is being expressed through recent inspirations that are expanding his vision for Genuinely Open Dialogue (GOD).

An earlier inspiration for "Revelations of Self Explained (RoSE) appears to have a kind of "life" as it is seen to be evolving through "Revelations of Self Expressed" and now exemplified in dialogue as: "The Dialogue of RoSEs." Quintessentially this "dialogue" occurs in aura-to-aura dyads that are devoted to the truth of self.

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Jan 3rd, 2016 -

Note for the "Family Perspective" -

I was raised to be my father's "little man". It was only last year that I heard my mother "confess" this to me during a visit with her. Hearing that one line gave me a major convergence of realization to the benefit of my psyche and that allowed me more complete acceptance of how I was raised not to be myself! Astrologically I think this is portrayed with Saturn about four degrees in front of my natal sun.

Jan. 4th, 2016 -
More notes for the "Music Perspective":

I'm recalling some of the music I enjoyed in the 60s that had some references to God/Jesus/Spirit or the like. One of the first songs is The Doobie Brothers' version of "Jesus Is Just Alright". There's a few other songs that I will add later.[44] "'Jesus Is Just Alright' was one of a number of religiously themed songs to reach the U.S. charts between 1969 and 1973, along with 'Spirit in the Sky' by Norman Greenbaum, 'Put Your Hand in the Hand' by Ocean, 'Superstar' by Murray Head, 'Morning Has Broken' by Cat Stevens, 'Jubilation' by Paul Anka, 'Speak to the Sky' by Rick Springfield, 'Jesus Was a Capricorn' by Kris Kristofferson, and 'I Knew Jesus (Before He Was a Star)' by Glen Campbell."[37]

Jan. 6th, 2016 - ("Epiphany"[38])

"For the time being, it is true, my work is not bringing many visible, tangible results, but in fact I know that it is already bearing fruit." - Omraam Mikhael Aivanhov[39]

Jan. 8th, 2016 -

"Solomon wrote the Book of Ecclesiastes, which contains the best definition of astrology I have found anywhere (chapter 3): "To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the sun. . . "

The song "Turn, Turn, Turn" by "The Byrds" was released on December 6, 1965. (Dec. 6th is my beloved sister Linda Marie's birthdate. This song was also a favorite of Linda's.) "The lyrics, except for the title which is repeated throughout the song, and the final verse of the song, are adapted word-for-word from Chapter 3 of the Book of Ecclesiastes"[41]

What a way to learn scripture! Bible verses turned into lyrics and song by contemporary musicians. A number of churches included such in their church services. During my cycle in "The Church" we sang from a "supplement" to the Hymnal that was filed with popular tunes (including "Yellow Submarine") that had lyrics rewritten. I have a housemate now who expressed interest in this supplement. I'm adding interest now to my intention to get the supplement so that we can sing these songs together! We can also include "Turn, Turn, Turn" even though that was not in our Church supplement. (That "omission" doesn't matter now! We'll supplement the supplement ; ~ )

February 4th, 2016 -

I found an exceptionally informative webpage on the progressed moon. Based on what I generated as my progressed chart my progressed moon is in the Balsamic Phase, in Scorpio and the Seventh House now.[42]

February the 5th, 2016 -

The Dark Pixie Astrologer mentioned the Asteroid Veritas (Latin for truth) and that inspired me to locate mine at 6 degrees Scorpio in my 1st House of Self. The Sabian Symbol is read at 7 degrees as follows.:


KEYNOTE: The will to explore the hidden depths of all experiences and to search for primordial causes.

This symbol essentially refers to depth psychology — a coming to terms with the collective Unconscious and its contents. This type of depth-plumbing adventure is basically different from the one symbolized by the gold rush, for it can take place within the individual and with no relation to social value. It refers symbolically to a quest for "under-standing" — i.e. for what lies under the surface waves of daily living. This quest may lead to great dangers. It demands a strong will and good breathing — i.e. a degree of spiritual strength. It usually challenges powers hidden in the depths of the unconscious.

The contrast between "deep-sea divers" and "men of the gold rush" is significant. It presents in an interesting manner the opposition between a first stage and second stage symbol in the five-fold sequence of cyclic phases. The inward quest opposes the outward search for the great social symbol, gold. It should lead to a DEPTH REALIZATION of the very roots of consciousness.[43]

Feb. 9th, 2016 -

After visiting the website for "The Church in Chicago" earlier today and feeling some emotions stirring in me as I recall memories from 40 to 45 years ago I realize that my time in the Church Life was in large part the beginning of my healing process regarding my family of origin. The Church was another family for me: "God's Family" and living with the Brothers and Sisters allowed me to have a new social reality that was other than the social reality of what I had grown up with for the previous 19 and a 1/2 years. The full account of history is at least one whole chapter in my biography and possibly a book in and of itself!

Later got inspired with identifying where my progressed Veritas is located now. I find it at 28 Scorpio 3 and looked up the corresponding Sabian Symbol at 29 degrees:

Scorpio 29°: An Indian Squaw Pleading To The Chief For The Lives Of Her Children.

KEYNOTE: Love as a principle of redemption.

"Here the soul is presented as a mother whose sons (i.e. her active energies) have become disruptive forces in the collective life of the tribe. She seeks to counteract the karma of their misdeeds through her love and implorations. The soul is responsive to the experience of unity (the spiritual king or chief) but the energies of human nature often follow their self-seeking, divisive tendencies.
This is the fourth symbol of the forty-eighth sequence. It presents us with the value of prayer. The principle of wholeness in man — the soul — acts to offset or attenuate the dictates of karma. In a religious sense, Mary, the Mother, is seen as the Mediatrix, in constant acts of INTERCESSION for the sake of waylaid individuals." [45]

What stands out the strongest for me in this symbol is "The principle of wholeness in man — the soul". That is where the "healing process" (mentioned in the previous post today) takes place and what now stands out for me in review of my entire Church Life experience and that I now realize was a preparation for my family-of-origin healing.

Also in my search for the above Sabian Symbol by Dane Rudhyar I found:

Scorpio 29 - An umbilical cord.
"Definitely completely attached, but what you are attached to changes drastically. Each time it is to the source of sustenance. If at first a mother, womb, an elemental past, it can easily become later on a great teacher, a path, a journey. You are still thoroughly, personally hooked into the sweetness, the juice, the power. Yet as the levels shift, as the attunement deepens, you go from destructive enmeshment toward incredible openings. And as you learn to cut loose from each last thing and to move toward the next greater thing, you become adept in the rough process of inner soul work. You have an extraordinary aptitude for taking the most binding and heavy-duty circuits and moving into and through them, grasping hold of the guiding influence of ever-greater circles of allegiance. Leading eventually toward mutation and evolutionary breakthrough of the first magnitude."[46]

The last three lines speak directly to my learning and graduation beyond what can be expressed in terms of the conventional understanding of "salvation" in Christianity. The depth of my natal Veritas (at Sabian Symbol Scorpio 7 degrees) simply does not settle for anything less than a "Deep-Sea Dive" to "explore the hidden depths of all experiences"!

February 17th, 2016 -

"Water is a materialization of the cosmic fluid that fills the whole of space. By means of thought it is possible to be in contact with this fluid and be purified by it, for if water cleanses us on a physical level, on the mental plane, it can do just the same."[48]

My spiritual emergency in August 1971 is a chapter in my spiritual/healing biography. One of the things I remember early on inside the facility (that I had signed myself into at the time) is when I washed my face. I remember intending it to be a washing of my mind. I wasn't thinking of any practice of spiritual initiates although I did think of "baptism" even though I only knew of baptism as a ritual that was performed in church for an infant. I just remember sincerely wishing to cleanse my mind of everything that had preceded me up to that point in time.

Sunday the 21st, 2016 -

I started this blog on and regarding "Thursday is ruled by Jupiter". Reviewing my natal chart I find Jupiter is square Uranus indicating (among other things) that communications is a perfect "career" choice for me. I think my Venus in Virgo supports that as well. And if Jupiter represents our guiding philosophy then part of my philosophy is "Communications is life" plus "dialogue is the new community"! Also "Jupiter is about having an outlook or belief system - something we can identify with or look forward to."[49] I really look forward to communicating and most especially dialoguing with others!

March 22nd, 2016 -

For most of my present incarnation I have wanted to know Truth, all the truths of Life, Self & Other, God, etc. My journey intensified during a nine month period with my first spiritual emergency starting in the Summer of 1970 and continuing through the Spring of 1971 when I entered "The Church". The Church had "New Beginners" classes that included a essential three-fold perspective of man illustrated with three cocentric circles with the outer circle representing the physical body the next circle in representing the soul (with three parts of mind. emotions and will) and the inner most circle representing the human spirit. I went along with that at the time. Later with my introductions to Anthroposophy I appreciated an enlargement of that view. Over the last decade or so I've appreciated the perspective of Human Design in this regards. Now Omraam gives a perspective that I feel a wonderful validation with.:

"The fact is that there is no one theory of man which fully accounts for his extreme complexity, and it should not surprise us to learn that the different religions and philosophical schools of thought have all different notions of the structure of man." (Omraam then makes references to about eight different examples.)

"So which system possesses the truth? All of them. It just depends on one's point of view. We cannot reject any of them. ... for the sake of convenience, I often divide man into two parts: the lower or personality and the higher nature or individuality, because this division makes it easier to understand certain problems. ..."[50]

July 22, 2019 - The All-Inclusive Big Circle -

"Pythagoras described the indivisible Unity lying behind all manifestation as 'No Number,' in this way repeating the statement in the Stanzas of Dzyan that 'there is neither first nor last, for all is one: number issued from no number.' The plane above, therefore, can be indicated only by the nought or Circle, which Pythagoras said is the most appropriate symbol of Divinity."[175]

Having just discovered the above presentation on Pythagoras this autobiographical blog-writer now has an external reference validating his experience of 1970 (estimated to have been in September) when he walked into a university classroom in downtown Chicago and before the class had officially started (with "the professor") he drew a large circle on the blackboard in an attempt to share his insight of "the indivisible Unity (and Divinity) lying behind all manifestation." Then the professor same in and it was time to go.

The month before he may have been a little more successful in communicating his presentation that once again had started with the circle. This demonstration consisted of drawing a circle on a sheet of paper representing The All then drawing a vertical line indicating that there were now two forces at play within the whole field and that had a beginning at the circumference of the one all-inclusive big circle as well as a return there. Finally he drew two radii to represent a life time and that formed a peace symbol! Was he a former student of Pythagoras or at least of The Pythagorean Science? .........

May 1st, 2016 - Happy May Day!

I'm a healer. I appreciate Chiron as "the wounded healer". Currently Chiron is in Pisces "forging on with Neptune asking us to believe that we can heal, to believe and perhaps let go…in order to receive."[51]

Astrologer Carol Barbeau says: "One of my favorite sayings is 'sometimes we have to let go of what we thought we wanted in order to have what we really do deserve, which is often more than we could have imagined'. ... be ready to let go of what is not working and BRING in the brilliance of new ideas and new people and NEW joy in life. ... Wish, hope, believe and DO the work necessary to make your life Grow. ... Open up and ... FLY into our own sources of self and higher power this month."!

A couple hours earlier before I opened Carol's email I noted "Sooner or later we will have to let go of everything. The more we let go the lighter our load will be."

May 13th, 2016 -

In the Destiny Card system we have what is known as Auspicious Years of various sorts including the Pinnacle Year that may occur twice in a lifetime! This is such a year for yours truly and I have been looking forward to it for a number of years! I had imagined it as a major graduation for me and now that I am in the midst of it I see it may very well be just that. I also imagined possibly moving onto a "sweeter" living situation than the one I currently have. I actually do not know about that at this time although I am open to the possibility. In any case I got to wondering: "what is the true nature of my current pinnacle year?" I realized by forming this question that I could have the option of a potential Oracle Reading. I acted on that and gave myself a reading.

The "What" part is portrayed in the Sabian Symbol I got for Gemini 1 degree:


(Gemini 1° to Gemini 15°)

First Hemicycle: The Process of Individualization
Act 1: Differentiation


KEYNOTE: The revelation of unconscious energies and submerged psychic structures.

Within the relative security of a "boat," an individual person can learn to be aware of the as yet hidden contents of man's collective Unconscious — provided this boat (that is to say, his ego that separates him from the collective planetary psyche of mankind) has been given a glass bottom. The conscious mind must have become, in part at least, translucent. This translucency is not direct openness. The window of the mind remains closed, but through it the individual can become aware of the outside — here "outside" means the psychic depths below the normal level of consciousness.

At this first stage of the "discovery" process one can only speak of vision, not identification. The feeling is one of wonder. "I did not know this could exist! How beautiful)" or "How exciting!" A NEW DIMENSION OF REALITY is perceived by the earnest inquirer.

There "Whereto" is depicted at Sagittarius 1 degree:

Second Hemicycle: The Process of Collectivization
Act III: Group-Integration

(Sagittarius 1° to Sagittarius 15°)



KEYNOTE: The will to reaffirm the value of the struggle upon which civilization and group-achievements are founded.

Two important factors are revealed in this symbol: the men who have come together are Army men, and they are linked by actions and a type of consciousness that have roots in a common past. What we call “civilization” is built by constant struggles against nature, for it seeks to wrench power from nature. This element of power is seen in its most obvious aspect in the military consciousness. Moreover, all civilization is built upon the accumulated products of the experiences of past generations of dedicated men who agree to follow rather rigid procedures of work. Veterans’ groups in all countries seek to rekindle in their members the old fire of well-fought battles; but the type of abstract or religious thinking normally related to the zodiacal sign, Sagittarius, also implies a special kind of “fire.” It is a fire that burns the “now” of natural living in order to build a greater “tomorrow.” It is future-oriented It aspires to produce a greater, wider civilization, even though it finds its roots in the harvest of mankind’s past. Comradeship and group activities are implied, but the togetherness is one of fighting spirits.

This is the first stage of the forty-ninth five-fold sequence of cyclic phases. The symbol should be understood in its widest and most basic meaning, not merely as the reunion of old comrades, but as referring to the very power implied in the process of civilization, as opposed to culture — thus to the PERPETUATION of the spirit of struggle for power.

The "How" follows at 1 degree Virgo:

Act II: Stabilization

(Virgo 1° to Virgo 15°)



KEYNOTE: The capacity to picture to oneself clearly the salient features and the overall meaning of any life situation.

During the two preceding Scenes (Leo 29 and 30 degrees) the "feel" of energy at work has been the dominant feature of a consciousness still strongly ego-centered yet at times eagerly and devotionally reaching up to a realization of divine or cosmic order. Now we have come in the seasonal cycle of the year to the sign Virgo. It is in a sense the symbol of harvesting, but it is also that of the Path of discipleship, and of all strongly determined processes of training, or retraining. Flooded with and having enjoyed and released energy, the personalized consciousness now has to learn the lesson of significant form. It must be able to see life situations as wholes of experience, and to discover their meaning by distinguishing their most characteristic features.

This is the first stage of the thirty-first five-fold sequence of symbols and its Keyword is DISCRIMINATION. Implied in discrimination is both analysis and intuition. The mind separates and identifies — and unfortunately often exaggerates — what makes a person or a situation different from another; but the intuitive responses of the whole person to what confronts him or her is also essential, for what matters is not only my or your "difference," but the place and function this difference occupies in the organic pattern of the evolution of "humanity as a whole," i.e. of Man.

And finally the "Why" at Pisces 1 degree:

Act IV: Capitalization

Dane Rudhyar

(Pisces 1° to Pisces 15°)



KEYNOTE: The process of commingling and interchange which at all levels demonstrates the health of a community.

In any twelve-fold division of a complete cycle (for instance the 12 zodiacal signs and the 12 Houses of a birth chart) the twelfth section often has been given a negative significance. It can refer to oppressive conditions as it represents a "closing of accounts," a final evaluation of the harvest of the cycle. A very bad harvest may lead to bankruptcy; a premature revolt may bring the rebel to jail; the dissolute may end in a hospital. In this section of the cycle a man reaps what he has sown. But it may also be honors, social prestige, the interests of well-managed wealth. In this twenty-fourth scene what is stressed is the coming together, in a final experience of community, of all factors previously experienced; this means constructive interaction and an interchange of the products of social activity. In a practical sense, the symbol, whenever it is found, emphasizes that the time has come to take full advantage of the social opportunities to bargain and to trade.

This is the first stage of the process related to the sixty-seventh five-fold sequence of symbols. It refers to all that can be gained from social interplay and especially, in the broadest sense of the word, from COMMERCE.

The preceding and final "keynote" is the creme de la creme for all I could wish for from in a "Pinnacle Year". I wish to embrace the spirit and soul of this deeply into my heart!

Just submitted the following as a comment to an article on the addiction of religion.[52]

I appreciate these conversations in response to the article!

I see religion in context to consciousness and consciousness is not necessarily logical. According to Gene Keys author Richard Rudd we all have a unique configuration of geniusness encoded within our holographic human design. We don't really need to have perfect agreement with one another to live in harmony with our design. I naturally did not realize this forty some years ago when I was in "The Church" and consequently was subject to the conditioning elements that had been established in my life that had started since at least the day I was born if not before.

We are all conditioned. Many of us have been conditioned by religion. Whether or not religion is or can be an addiction is possibly a mute point in light of the universal conditioning field that exists on this planet! However, it appears that religion often underscores the impact of conditioning. At least I found that to be true for me.

The conditioning of "authority" was probably my biggest issue. Fortunately I woke up to the dysfunctional behavior that I had continued allowing in my life even though I had left the original severe authoritarian conditioning field of my birth father. My internalized conditioning continued! Then four years later in "The Church" I got to have an experience of hell by acquiescing to the appearance of church "authority" even though it was truly my own conditioning that I was following. I am grateful I experienced 30 days of institutionalized hell because when I did get out I promised myself I would never allow anyone to "lord it over me" ever again! That was the first day of my greater freedom, not necessarily from "religion" but more so from the conditioning fields that exist in family/tribes and throughout the collective society. I eventually did leave the Church yet it was a serendipitous departure of a new door opening to a new chapter in my life!

October 23, 2018 - On The Last Day of "Institutionalized Hell" -

Just generated a transit chart for the day that I had left the "institutionalized hell" (mentioned above) and what an amazing revelation this transit shows me! Transiting Pluto was conjunct my natal Personality Saturn (which had activated) in Gate 18. “The 18th gate challenges authority. It also has a fear of authority. Doesn’t want anybody to have authority over you. It’s the ability to say ‘the king has no cloths.’ That can be quite annoying in nice social situations."[155]

Re: "the king has no cloths." That description is also amazing to me as the incident by which the "Church authority" had essentially sent me to hell was by way of my "confession" of coming out of a shower with just a towel on and seeing a young girl (daughter of the responsible brother/landlord for the house) who looked at me as I was on my way to my room whom I noticed smiling with what I perceived as an interest in seeing my body. It may seem almost unbelievable yet reporting this to the brother (who had the brother's house) was apparently threatened by my report and about the next day I was taken to the Veteran's Hospital and directed to sign myself in.

July 11, 2018 - More Light On: "Hell" AKA "Going Down" -

... Marriage counselors and others who teach conflict resolution recommend precisely the opposite manner of speaking. They encourage opponents to "own" their subjectivity through the use of "I statements," to say how the other person's action is making them feel instead of labeling them with negative judgements. Owning feelings as subjective and relative opens up room for negotiation. Too bad this hadn't yet been thought of in (Rudolf) Steiner's day. Imagine how differently the Dornach matter might have unfolded if Steiner had said to (Alice) Sprengel, "I felt embarrassed by your letters."

Sprengel owned her feelings to a remarkable degree, given the setting she found herself in. In her second letter, she admits to being angry that Steiner didn't assign her a role she had coveted in one of his mystery dramas, and goes on to say that she is probably to be faulted for not having expressed herself at the time. Such admissions may seem commonplace to us, but considering the authority and the hostility to emotion of the man to whom they were addressed, they are quite daring. Beneath her tremulous exterior, Alice was operating from some conviction that bears closer examination.

She wrote: "I feel that everything that was to develop in me and flow into our movement through me has been buried alive." Steiner seems to have taken this as evidence of her vanity. He was referring to Alice when he said, "In fact we also made a point of admitting people [to the Society] to help them become healthy. And then what happened? Other members began to regard one of these people, someone who was to be helped by being admitted, as a kind of apostle, as someone who was there to heal the Society." Between the lines of this ridicule, Steiner is letting us know that Alice's belief that she had something important to contribute had credibility with at least some members.

So what was the nature of this contribution? To see it, we will have to explore another region of the vertical. So far we have examined a soul movement that travels upward from the horizon line. But there is a second movement, a vertical descent that dives below the horizon.

In his lecture series, The Most Holy Trinosophia, Robert Powell said:

"The relationship between mankind and Mother Nature was disturbed at the time of the Fall. Not only was man cast out of paradise, but nature also fell. The Mother descended into the darkness of the underworld; the sub-earthly spheres-comprising "hell"-were inserted between mankind and the Mother. The direct connection between the Father and the Mother also was cut off. However, a new connection was established at the time of the Mystery of Golgotha, through Christ's descent into hell. The deeper significance of the Descent into Hell has remained veiled up until now, and instead attention has been focused upon the Ascension, the ascent to the Father. Now, in our time, the Descent into Hell-or rather, the descent through hell down to the Mother-is of key significance for an understanding of the Second Coming. With the Descent into Hell at the Mystery of Golgotha, Christ re-established contact with the Mother, implanting a seed within the womb of the Earth for the redemption of the Mother."

This is the Sophia at the bottom. To get to her, one has to go down, down through fallen nature, the sub-earthly spheres. Through hell. And what is crucial to understand is that none of the methods employed on a path of ascent apply here. To go up, one must cast off the heavier elements of the self--all that derives from the body, including human emotions. But to go down, one must become heavier. One needs the full weight of incarnate experience in order to sink. Thinking alone won't do it. Thinking refuses to sink, because the descent into Hell is irrational. On a path of descent, thinking is the strong swimmer that must be exhausted before one can drown.

Downward spiritual movement is most often involuntarily. It tends to come about when our fallen astrality lands us in some pickle that we can't transcend our way out of, when some combination of inward nature and outer circumstances plunges us into doubt, confusion and despair. Paradoxically, downward movement--if carried all the way to the bottom--brings about a self-emptying that creates renewed openness to higher intuitions. It is difficult to empty oneself in this way through the willed movement of ascent alone, for a subtle arrogance almost inevitably arises along with self-conquest. The initiate, pulling himself heavenward by his bootstraps like some spiritual Horatio Alger, feels pride in this accomplishment. Attempts to extinguish this pride through will alone lead to a vicious circle in which the attempt itself is a further source of pride. Rescue from this predicament comes in the form of a banana peel cast on the spiritual path.

Perhaps the most prominent modern revival of the mysteries of descent is the Twelve Step Movement, which began with Alcoholics Anonymous. Steiner taught that the failure to keep any resolution of the will inhibits spiritual progress. This is quite true of upward spiritual movement. But for the twelve-stepper, it is precisely this inability to master oneself that propels the downward journey. In order to encounter the "higher power" that can save him, the alcoholic must "hit bottom"--a nadir of absolute helplessness, shame and despair. At that point, he has a transformative experience that re-integrates body, soul and spirit. The state of inner conflict that has rendered self-mastery impossible is healed.

In Twelve Step programs, there is no distinction between helper and helpee. No one can join out of a desire to teach or save others. Failure is the only admission ticket. All the "apostles" are there to be healed. In structure, it is a perfectly horizontal organization-no hierarchy whatsoever. The motto "one day at a time" undercuts even the potential status a member might gain from having years of sobriety under his belt. Twelve-steppers don't refer to themselves as "recovered," only as "recovering." Denial of emotion is roughly confronted. Tears flow freely. The only truths that count are those expressed in first person. Everything you're not supposed to do on a path of ascent gets done.

Goesch seems to have found another path of descent in psychoanalysis. In his obituary of Goesch, Paul Fechter wrote:

"He took up this new subject passionately, not as a theoretical, conceptual, or abstract object of study and experience, but plunging with his whole being and all the strength he possessed into this stream that opened up before him and led into new depths. He did not study psychoanalysis, he experienced it through and through, making himself the object of his own analysis, descending into the shocks and ecstasies of the darkness that opened up in front of him with a total disregard for how it might affect his everyday existence. At once, he began to pull the theory out of the realm of science and into his immediate personal experience."

Again, note the path-of-descent elements: the "shocks and ecstasies of the darkness," the "plunging with his whole being," the disregard for everyday existence. The journey is wildly incautious, messy and, above all, subjective. Everything you shouldn't do on the upward path of thinking.

So this is the impulse that Goesch and Sprengel had to contribute: they knew about going down. And it is therefore no mere hubris for Alice to say that in rejecting her, Steiner buried alive an impulse that might have flowed into his movement. The Sophia for whom he was preparing it had two addresses, and Steiner was reluctant to call on her at her second place of residence. He knew her as Raphael's Sistine Madonna, the pure, chaste, wise celestial virgin. But the fallen woman, the sadder-but-wiser gal at the bottom, he was too fastidious to meet.

Room must be kept open, however, for the possibility that Steiner knew what he was excluding and did so out of perceived historical necessity. He was working in a time of extreme polarization between materialistic science and a flaky, neurasthenic, things-that-go-bump-in-the-night "spiritualism" that gave all spirituality a bad name. To combat materialism it was necessary to present the spiritual in terms of equal objectivity and rigor-as spiritual science. The chaotic and subjective quality of downward spiritual movement would have muddled his argument. He might have seen it as especially dangerous in 1915, when all of Europe seemed to be losing its reason. According to Robert Powell, the proper time for the new mysteries of descent was not to arrive until thirty years later, when the etheric Christ began his descent through hell. Steiner was acutely aware of timing in spiritual matters, and may have recognized in his adversaries the right impulse coming at the wrong time.

It is this acute historical awareness of Steiner's that anthroposophists tend to overlook when they attempt to apply his every utterance to the present. To allow statements made in a particular historical context to remain frozen in time does him a great disservice. He would be the first to rejoice in the resurrection of impulses he felt it his duty to bury in 1915, if those impulses were demonstrated to be good in the present.[151]

The ethnicity and culture of Steiner's time is not elaborated upon in the above quote however if we look at the above "episode" from more of a biographical perspective then we would include the "German" ways of social conduct and I believe find emotional suppression as the convention of the day. To whatever extent that may be true is the extent that this way was passed onto me thought my whole upbringing under my father who although was American born he was also first generation of German ancestry. In fact German was his first language at home with his German-American immigrant parents. However, my father was not in a spiritual movement of any sort and consequently I did not get to experience a genuine "upward movement" with him.

May 17th, 2016 -

Just completed another Oracle reading that I am amazed fits right next to that of the preceding reading! My inquiry was: "What is the true nature of my relationship with D.M. (my birth mother)?"


(First Hemicycle: The Process of Individualization - Act II: Stabilization - SCENE TEN: RELEASE - THIRD LEVEL: INDIVIDUAL/MENTAL)


KEYNOTE: The realization by the individual that all thoughts and all messages are inevitably to be shared with all men.

"Coming as it does as the end of this tenth scene and linked with the last degree of the zodiacal sign, Leo, this symbol seems at first quite puzzling; when it has been thought of as an isolated symbol, its essential meaning has not been apparent. The fact that a letter is unsealed does not imply a trust that other people will not read its contents, but rather the idea that the contents are for all men to read. The letter contains a public message in the sense that when man has reached the stage of true mental repolarization and development — which we see in the very first symbol for Leo — he has actually become a participant in the One Mind of humanity. Nothing can really be hidden, except superficially and for a brief time. What any man thinks and deeply realizes becomes the property of all men. Nothing is more senseless than possessiveness in the realm of ideas. If God speaks to a man, Man hears the word. Nothing can remain permanently 'sealed.'

As this thirtieth sequence of five symbols ends, it is made clear to us, and particularly to the inherently proud Leo type, that all that takes form within the mind of a man belongs to all men. Communication and SHARING must always prevail over the will to glorify oneself by claiming sole possession of ideas and information."

I had shared the (email) "communication" that I had received from "D" this afternoon with a friend and told him that I intended to do a reading before responding to that email. My friend asked me about the communicative nature of the relationship. I responded saying that it has always been a challenge for me. Even when I very consciously choose to "Not Take Anything Personal" (as per my "Second Agreement" that I applied after my reading of D's email) it left me with a fundamental question that I then formed into my Oracle inquiry. I am truly grateful that I can form "questions" and that when I apply these to the Oracle readings I've found that they support me in deeper contemplation of the truth of self, life and others!

"Where To":


KEYNOTE: The ability for the person with an open mind and a deep feeling for self-transcendence to come in contact with higher forms of existence.

Dane Rudhyar: "The originally recorded Sabian symbol stated: 'The field of Ardath in bloom,' which referred to a scene in an occult novel by Marie Corelli centering upon ancient Babylon. The reference may well have been a 'blind' inasmuch as Marc Jones has stressed his inner contact with a Brotherhood with Babylonian (or 'Sabian') roots. A spiritual Brotherhood constitutes a state of 'multi-unity' — i.e. a multiplicity of individuals, if one thinks of the paths they trod to reach their final metamorphosis, but a unity of consciousness and 'Soul' —thus unanimity ('anima' meaning Soul). In this spiritual Whole each unit is a recognizable 'form' or entity if one looks at it with the eyes of personality; but when seen through a unified spiritual vision or from a distance, the Whole appears to be one single area of radiant light. Similarly, when studied by the modern physicist, light can be apprehended either as a stream of identifiable particles (photons) or as one continuous wave. Whether it is seen as one or the other depends on the point of view.

This is the last and culminating symbol of Scene Twenty-two of the cyclic ritual. This is indeed a fitting symbol, as the number 22 symbolizes all forms of mastery. At any level, it is a symbol of spiritual group fulfillment — of CONSCIOUS TOTALITY OF BEING."

This coming into "contact with higher forms of existence" has been such a deep and long-standing impulse in my life that I wonder whether the "Magnetic Monopole" referred to in the Human Design System has an astrological activation associated with it? I want to research that now!

May 20th, 2016 -

After meeting with my "fellow gardeners" I very soon got into a lesson from "A Course in Miracles"(ACIM) that I then found was immediately applicable to the three + hour meeting I had just participated in (during which I found myself challenged in a number of ways and questioned very early on whether this was a meeting that I really needed to attend).

In "the lesson" I thought of my mother and was inspired to make note of the following paragraph as an example of something I could possibly share with her; being that in my most recent email to her I had asked if she still "believed in Jesus".[54]:

"What could you not accept, if you but knew that everything that happens, all events, past, present and to come, are gently planned by One Whose only purpose is your good? Perhaps you have misunderstood His plan, for He would never offer pain to you. But your defenses did not let you see His loving blessing shine in every step you ever took. While you made plans for death, He led you gently to eternal life."[53]

May 22nd, 2016 -

I have been feeling this more intensely tonight (apparently with the full moon and with Mercury still retrograde)!:

"The human soul is a minute part of the universal Soul, and it feels so limited, so confined in the physical body that its greatest wish is to spread out into infinite space and merge with it...."[55]

Then the intensity greatly lessened after I got into contemplating the whole entire "Thought"! This underscores the importance of nourishing ourselves with "spiritual bread".

July 7th, 2016 -

Omraam's teaching on the choice to follow a spiritual path validates my own experience. "By accepting a spiritual teaching, the poor do not become rich, the ignorant wise, the ill healthy or the weak strong, and those who are despised and unrecognized do not receive honours and glory. There – you have been warned. And you might even feel much worse than before. Why? Because the new life beginning to move in you sees cleansing as a priority – and what an upheaval that creates!"[56]

When "the new life" began to move in me one of my very first impulses was that of cleansing. I am all the more grateful now to realize this "priority" of this impulse!

July 10th, 2016 -

More on "Tommy" (as mentioned on January 1st, 2016 - Note for the "Music Perspective")

Got inspired this past day to search Tommy+numerology. The name Tommy begins with the letter "T" which is a 2 in numerology.[57] I think 2 is the best first letter number for the name of the archetypal character that was created by Pete Townshend[58]

July 13th, 2016 -

More Sabian Symbols:

I'm continually amazed to discover more of the Sabian Symbols correlated with the planetary activations in my natal chart. In the process of sharing my info with a new friend/acquaintance regarding the placement of Neptune a "fellow gardener" I then checked the Sabian Symbol for that placement whereupon I saw my note that the same symbol corresponded with my Ascendant. Well I had to verify that before telling stories about it to others and in doing that I saw a reliable reference indicating my ascendant was actually at a higher degree giving me a different symbol as follows!:


KEYNOTE: Coming to terms with the inevitability of establishing steady rhythms of social activity.

In his early course, "Symbolical Astrology," Marc Jones sought to concretize this abstract image by speaking of "machinery parts, new and circular." It is far better, however, to face the image in its most general sense, as he himself did later on. It is because everyday activities, whether in the home or in business, inevitably tend to repeat themselves in circular fashion that it is necessary for the individual to have rest times during which he can be released from repetitive patterns. It is only when the individual has become fully attuned to, and in a sense identified with the vast planetary and cosmic rhythms of the universe, and thus free from emotional and group tensions, that he can act serenely and at peace along "circular paths."

At this last stage of the thirty-ninth sequence of five symbols we find an abstract image which can be interpreted in a positive or negative manner. We deal with repetitive activity; but that activity may either bind or free the consciousness of the actor. It can mean BOREDOM or TRANSPERSONAL PEACE in action.[59]

This symbol holds great meaning for me! Firstly as my own personal "Soul Sign" which happens to be an "identical twin" mirroring my Six of Hearts - Planetary Ruler Card in the Destiny Card System. Secondly - this symbol is the last of fifteen scenes that began with Libra 1 degree where I have my natal Sun placement! I also have Saturn at Libra 4 with the symbol read at 5 degrees. I'm enthralled!

July 24th, 2016 -

Ditto my July 25th, 2015 post above here! Now finding deeper meaning with Vesta! "Vesta in Fiery Leo is the Queen/Priestess/willing to give all for love and heart connection. This Vesta carries creativity, passion, power and a strong willfulness within its sacred energy. Vesta in Leo is proud and gives from the heart and soul ..."[60]

July 27th, 2016 -

"Wednesday, July 27, 2016:

At 3:44 AM EDT, Mercury, the planet of our minds and thinking, forms a trine aspect to Uranus. ...

When Mercury and Uranus come together, we want to keep our eyes open for sudden awareness, unusual communications, or profound unexpected light bulb moments. The cycle between Mercury and Uranus began at the end of March 2016. What began at that time that is now resulting in the sudden surprising awareness? Continue to open your mind to new ideas and ways of being in this world. Change can come suddenly."[61]

I'm having a direct experience of this aspect right now with an email correspondence that could lead to my supporting another individual with "new ideas and ways of being in this world."

August 1st, 2016 -

Astrological "Midpoints" has opened a whole new perspective on reading natal charts!

Following is an example interpretation on midpoints with my natal Chiron:

"Planets activating the Chiron/Midheaven midpoint

Principle: The need to be receptive to messages coming in from the universe. One's career needs to involved giving unconditional love to others. Any career in which one is not contributing to positively changing the world will tend to bring one misery and frustration. The need to not be attached to ones reputation in the world, to not be concerned if it is negative, and to not be too intent on trying to keep it positive.

The need to recognize oneself as a spiritual authority, and to use that authority positively by helping others to grow in consciousness.

Process: The giving up of all defenses that prevent one's connection to the spiritual realms. The giving and receiving of parenting that is deeply healing. The ability to allow oneself to be parented by spiritual forces.

Chiron/Midheaven midpoint activated by Sun
One's sense of self-importance is based on one's career and place in the world. When this is expressed with selfishness and pettiness suffering is the result. When one sees one's career ultimately as a healer and sharer of spiritual energies (no matter what the actual worldly career may be) one fulfills one's purpose in life and is a bringer of light."[62]

August 2nd, 2016 -

Astrological aspects - astrologer Donna Cunningham says "the stimulus of a square or two is energizing."[63] I see twelve squares in my natal chart. And since I was born in the year of the rabbit I guess that makes me the "energizer bunny"!

August 5th, 2016 -

I'm surprised I apparently have not mentioned my connection with Biodynamic Agriculture in this biographical Blog. In 1990 I became a student at Rudolf Steiner College in Fair Oaks, California and started an informal "meet up" group for fellow students and friends who were interested in the idea of a Biodynamic farm based intentional community. It wasn't until October of 1999 when I attended my first Biodynamic Conference in Spring Valley, New York. I went to the conference directly from an extended visit at Sally Fallon's home in Washington DC (not long after preparing the first Sunday Brunch with a Nourishing Traditions menu for the founding Board Members (and spouces) of the Weston A. Price Foundation).

I could return with some of my notes about the conference.

Aug. 12th, 2016 -

In the light of a biographical memory that flashed into my awareness while reading the following quote of Omraam:

"Wearing symbolic objects or religious emblems can be useful and beneficial, but only if certain conditions are fulfilled. First you must make sure you wear only those symbols whose meaning is known to you. Each symbol is as it were a sign by which nature spirits recognize you, and even if humans do not know what they mean, the spirits certainly do. Symbols always relate to entities, and everyone who makes use of them comes into contact with these entities and makes contracts with them that can cost very dear."[64]

Up until about August of 1970 this writer had identified with "the Christian cross" yet had absolutely no awareness of coming "into contact with ... entities and mak(ing) contracts with them"! He hadn't thought about this at all before now and suddenly wonder whether letting go of this "symbolic object... or religious emblem" did "cost" him. He thinks this idea could be explored. he certainly had crossed a threshold between his departure from the Episcopal Church religion and his entrance into "The Church in Chicago"!

August 29, 2016 -

Transiting Pluto!
I have Pluto transits that will pretty much guarantee deep changes and I am looking forward to the end results!

"Transiting Pluto brings intensity and focus to our lives. Pluto breaks through illusions, in search of the utter truth. These are not Saturn truths, when we see things for what they are in a mundane or material sense. Pluto probes much deeper, shining light on our darkness. Transiting Pluto offers us the chance to evolve and to rebirth. Pluto acts to strip away what is unnecessary or superficial in our lives. Pluto wants deep experience, of the transformational kind. Things that are not working for us, whether they are thought processes or lifestyles, undergo a transformation. Pluto transits bring about rebirths of sorts in the areas of life affected. Pluto transits are about letting go of things that are holding us back from deep and meaningful experience."[65]

August 30, 2016 -

My Natal Jupiter:

"People who have their natal Jupiter in the 6th house actually love to work. Through working, they gain deep satisfaction and gratify themselves; it is their way of philosophical evolution. For them, it is very easy to find a new job and Jupiter usually gives a lot of them. Such a native will not be left unemployed for long; when he applies for a new position he will be granted it earlier than all the rest. Actually, the reason of him changing jobs might be only to find something better or to try experiencing a new position or work type."[68]

Finally have a positive acknowledgment on the "lot of" my "changing jobs" and now this feels good!

September 15th, 2016 -

Got inspired from one of my main subscriptions (with an announcement of a new film) to search the birthday of the "star".

A Birthday of June 21st gives the
"star" the Nine of Clubs:

The 9 of Clubs is known as “The Universal Knowledge Card” in Robert Camp's "Love Cards".

"This is a card of expanded consciousness. Those who have this Birth Card experience revelations about life and the truth behind what is going on here on Earth that few other cards do.

Though this is a card of expanded consciousness, it is also a card of negative thinking. These people must let go of many negative mental patterns accumulated from past lives if they are to access the inherent power in this card. There are many who do and who have reached the very heights of recognition through their work of giving knowledge to the world.

The Nine of Clubs is here to end a major cycle in their soul’s development, a completion that should see them giving their wealth of knowledge to the world. There are some debts to be paid, but once these debts are paid, they can proceed with their cosmic task of enlightening the world."

Also "The 9 of Clubs is known as the 'Adventurer's Card'. They like to gamble and are always willing to take a chance. They are intensely curious and when they apply their adventurous spirit to the field of knowledge, they are capable of making profound discoveries that can benefit others on a universal scale."

I have this as my Neptune Card in my Life Spread under my Incarnation Card of the Five of Clubs. Neptune is the "Divine Dreamer", "Divine Inspiration", the planet of Enlightenment that inspires us to transcend ordinary reality and commune directly with the Divine. It is also the dissolution of the old structures both personal and social. Therefore the 9 of clubs is very harmonious as the Neptune Card! The only exception I see is that I'm no longer into gambling and not willing to take chances (as I have in the past) and therefore am not planning on reaching the "heights of recognition"[116] (at least not too high ; ~ ).

September 24th, 2016 -

On my solar return day - I find this "Thought" from Omraam especially meaningful to me:

"...You have been dazzled, you have understood a mystery, you have seen the truth, but this is not enough to transform you...."[69]

Sept. 29th 2016 -

More Omraam:

" grow and advance in intelligence, love and self-dominance, so as to become useful to the whole of humanity."[70]

I find serendipity in the above Omraam quote with my note of this past hour: The Creme de la Creme of humanity is Human Brotherhood". I am deeply grateful for the brotherhood! I probably wouldn't be here if I hadn't connected with the brotherhood as of forty-five years ago!

And -

The need for purification of the soul impressed itself upon me as of August 1971. I did not make much of an effort toward that then and over the next several months. In late Winter I experienced a small yet very potent taste of what Omraam describes as "go(ing) underground ... subjected to strong pressure, ... difficulties and suffering".[71] Then within a matter of days the "brotherhood" became aware of me and essentially took me in. I had in a sense escaped hell and possibly death. There's no question about the sequence of events and the dramatic contrast that I must have needed to finally make the choice for purification. I continued in the "purification" process for about seven years.

Astrological transits on August 1st, 1970 - Pluto was 25Virgo30 transiting his 12th House and approaching his natal Sun @ 0 degrees Libra. At the same time he had Uranus @ 5Libra conjunct his Saturn @ 4Libra also 12th House. It was certainly a time of radical "housecleaning"!

October 3, 2016 -

Chetan Parkyn says Gate 46 "is known as 'Pushing Upward into Heaven,' described as 'Embracing the nature of the body and one's growth to give access to all possibilities in life.'"[72] Zeno calls this gate "Rising". Others simply call it "Pushing Upward". Although this may be the first time this writer is seeing the gate referred to as "Pushing Upward into Heaven" this particular name has significantly more meaning for him than the other names. The significance began for him in August 1970.

Oct. 4th, 2016 -

My HumanDesign BodyGraph includes "The Right Angle Cross of Vessel of Love-3" as my Incarnation Cross. The four Gates are all in the Self Center:
10 (Behavior of the Self), 15 (Extremes), 46 (The Determination of the Self) and 25 (The Spirit of the Self).

As the name implies - this Cross is based in love. Love of the Spirit, Love of the Body, Love of Humanity and Love of the Self. The destiny for individuals with this Cross is: to "bring the energy of the love of life." Individuals with this Cross are into their body and everything that affects it. They are into experiencing this earthly existence and doing it in a loving way. They are here to be love and the key ... is that it has a sensuousness to it. They are here to show others how to love being alive. [73]

Today I continue to realize my need to give my "Love of the Self" to myself. And as I turn my attention in that Direction (possibly the primary "Self Center" function) I reconnect with my "Truth of Self" which is where I truly Live! As I stand in "the 'Truth of Self'" then whatever other people say about "me" is seen as not anything to be taken personally by me as it is all about the other! And if by chance I don't really feel that in the residual "pain body" then I continue to "turn my attention in the "Direction" of "the 'Truth of Self'" with the intention of welcoming my blessed union with that!

Gate 46 is the "lead" (Personality) Sun Gate in this Cross and known as "Pushing Upward" People with this Cross are "fully 'embodied,' fully alive in their body, who enjoy the physical (sensual) dynamic of relationships; dedicated to living life for life's sake."[74]

Oct. 6th, 2016 (Happy Birthday to a Divine Friend in Bloomington Indiana) -

"...The idea of serving God only has meaning if human beings realize that the Divinity they must serve lives in their soul."[75]

I have a 7-yr. "Church" cycle in my biography that was a deep learning backdrop before I finally accepted the truth of this quote from Omraam.

Oct. 10, 2016 -

The Sun is transiting my 1st house now. I am rediscovering who I am!

1st House in Libra (Libra Rising)
"You come across as someone who is graceful, mediating, and sociable. You may get along with everyone that you meet because you know how to carry yourself well in public, and know what to say and do to not offend anyone. You have an easy time compromising with others, getting people to find middle ground, and people look to you to bring everyone to the table and find a solution that works for all. You try to be balanced, at least publicly, and might feel out of control when you’re in an environment that lacks harmony or order."[76]

The last half of this last line is the point where I can express "radical honesty" here (not really possibly to communicate radical honesty in what I call "the Enchanted Garden Onion"/EGO without some kind of consequence!). I most definitely feel the "out of control" feeling and now appreciate seeing this reference to "when you’re in an environment that lacks harmony or order". The "EGO" environment most definitely lacks "harmony" and "order". I'm in the process now of waiting for my emotional clarity[120] on this condition to determine whether this condition is one I wish to continue living with!

Oct.12th, 2016 -

A key phrase in "Omraam's" Thought of the Day message: "cling with all our might to our heavenly father who created us"[77] sparked a memory of concentrating with all my might on my "crown" some time prior to my entrance into "The Church".

November 4th, 2016 -

The Human Design System (HDS) reveals the infinite field of the "neutrino stream" that penetrates, permeates and fills the interspaces of the universe that includes all of us, every individual and every other thing on the planet as well as the planet herself! That alone is a verifiable fact and not based on any belief. Based on the above - the "System" correlates the essential thirteen "portals" known as planetary activations (through which the "stream" passes through before reaching us) with both key genetics plus evolutionary meaning that has been encapsulated in several additional wisdom systems - most notably: The I Ching and The Kabbalah Tree of Life. 70% of the neutrino stream entering our solar system passes through the sun. Each and every day the earth revolves about a degree further (in essentially a 360 degree circular spiral) around the sun against the backdrop of the celestial zodiac of constellations. The backdrop consists of 12 constellations and each of these are divided into 30 degree segments giving a total of 360 degrees. There are 64 Hexagrams in the I Ching. Each Hexagram correlates perfectly with 64 Gates in HDS. Each Hexagram/Gate has 6 lines resulting in 384 lines. From the Earth's perspective the sun moves through slightly more than a degree of the zodiac each and every day. And each day it also moves through a little more than one line in the current Hexagram. Altogether this makes for a progressive I Ching reading every day!

Yesterday the sun corresponded with Human Design Gate 44 @ Line 5:

"Line 5 - Manipulation

Exaltation: The ability to transform interaction with inferior elements into the energizing of progressive process with the additional benefit, that in tapping the inferior elements they remain weak. Where the instinctive recognition of the patterns leads to the possible manipulation of others."[78]

I'm noting all of this to say I had a direct experience of this Line's influence yesterday in my interaction with another individual. I witnessed the interaction transform in the instant of my response to the "inferior element/s" being expressed through the other individual at that time!

I am inspired with the thought: "Neutrino Stream Healing".

December 5, 2016 -

I have several reference to the artistic propensity in my natal activations. I consider my artist "profile" as one of the twelve primary perspectives in my biography and I know a number of people who would agree even though I don't have anything in terms of images or music that I've uploaded as of yet to share with the world (although I did have taped piano pieces transcribed onto disk and those pieces could be uploaded). Nevertheless part of my artistic history includes the day that I burned virtually all of my art work as part of my renunciation of my soul-life as I was crossing the threshold into the Church in Chicago. I saw that now in reference to reading today's "Thought" of Omraam and especially the following:
"In moments of discouragement, artists have been known to destroy some of their works. It is normal to never be quite satisfied with one’s creations, but why go so far as to destroy them?"[79]

Also today I read in "The Astrology Book" about my 9th House Moon:
"Moon in the Ninth House: Your sense of honesty and truth is something that others sense in you and support. You might find yourself teaching or guiding groups in matters of religion or philosophy. ..."
I noted this because the 9th House offers a sense of purpose and direction. In addition I've noted that this House pertains to in depth study of profound subjects. This underscores my love for the Human Design System, Gene Keys, Destiny Cards and the like! The idea of teaching "or guiding groups" appeals to me. I've had a variety of experience working with individuals and I think working with the energy of a group may allow for more consistency and a regular rhythm than I've found with individuals. My Design works very well with the discipline involved with keeping a consistent rhythm going.

June 15, 2018 - More 9th House Philosophy! -

The Sun is transiting my 9th House once again and that gives me an opportunity to review my personal philosophy. My philosophical orientation is literally in my Body, right in my gut and referred to as the "Sacral Center" in Human Design terms.

My actions are inner-directed most largely by my Design mechanics with three of the four Human Design "motors" turned on 365 days of the year! My decisions most often go into a "To Wait" mode as I allow the need "To Respond" to process through my Solat Plexus (Emotional) Center for emotional clarity.

I gain a sense of satisfaction by following my Human Design rather than give into to pressure to answer other people's questions.

This personal philosophy includes an ongoing "push upwards" to continually "measure up" to the higher standards of my ideals as presented in my CureZone Blog: Cheeta.

June 15, 2019 - More "Satisfaction by Following My Human Design."

The Sun is transiting the 12th Hexagram/Gate now and conjunct my Design Mars activation there. Although I have read the hexagram line descriptions for this before it seems that it is only now that I am realizing the significance of the following characterization of Gate 12: "Releasing Awareness in the Proper Spirit." I find this especially insightful!

December 26, 2016 -

Inspired to verify my numerological year and then look at next year. I'll be in a seven personal year. "One of the most profitable activities in (which) to engage during a personal year 7 is that of study and writing, for your ability to think clearly, analyze, and integrate your thoughts is peaked now. Your capacity for research and understanding is at its very best."[80] The thought of "writing" came to mind recently in my astrological research - wondering when the best times for that may be. I've got my answer now!

December 30th, 2016 -

"immensity is our soul’s true homeland"[81] This quote from Omraam coincides with what I believe is the same quality identified in Buddhism. It certainly wasn't a quality that I had identified while submerged in the Christian paradigm. In fact I still remember having extreme feelings of restriction that were bordering the unbearable including finding myself literally pressed up against a corner of a room on atlas one occasion. I think if I had the quality of "immensity is (my) soul’s true homeland" I may have spared myself the anguish of extreme restriction/constriction. I offer this as a seed for other souls.

January 1st, 2017 - Happy New Year! Start the year as best as you possibly can!

I often get deep relief with understanding my Human Design and most especially when this understanding validates parts of myself that I struggle with in my relations with others. I have Gate 10 activated in my Self Center. "...there is a great distaste in the 10th gate for wrong behavior. If you're somebody who is a 10 it is very, very difficult to deal with any bad behavior."[82]

This is one of the most true statements within the Human Design System as it pertains to my Design. One of the great things about this system is that even though it includes certain astrological calculations traditional astrology could not reveal what Human Design reveals in this instance primarily because the planetary activation in my 10th Gate is calculated from the day of my Incarnation and that day is not included in traditional astrology. The Gates are correlated with the I Ching Hexagram which is also not part of traditional astrology. In any case I am very glad I've read this this morning. It makes it easier for me to accept my "distaste" by acknowledging it as such and knowing I have the Design for that! In other words I don't have to "blame" my distaste on conditioning! I like that!

September 15, 2019 - Insights from Human Design regarding an oracle reading -

Got inspired to consult the Sabian Symbols with this inquiry: "What is the true nature of the growth at my left temple." That gave me the scene at 21 Virgo: "A Girl's Basketball Team." After reading the "reinterpretation" by Dane Rudhyar I said: "It's a mystery." Then got inspired to identify the corresponding Human Design (HD) gate and that is where it became clear! The gate is Ajna 47. I don't have that gate activated in my HD BodyGraph and therefore not that familiar with it - however this is "the gate of Oppression" and it relates perfectly to the "father wound" that I believe is the root cause of "the growth at my left temple." Virgo 21 in the Astrological Mandala gets translated as Virgo 20 astrologically. The whole 20th degree of Virgo spans Line 4 and 5 in the hexagram/gate. Line 4 is: "Repression" and Line 5 is: "The Saint." Planets can activate gates and the corresponding genetics (very well represented by the Gene Keys). Life experiences can have it's genetic impact as well and if so then those impacts can correspond to the Human Design gates and this is what occurred in my experience! All of this led me to search for understanding of what in Human design is called the "abstract process" because gate 47 is a major gate in that circuitry. The following will give an introduction to this:

The Abstract Stream – Confusion about the Past -

"The abstract begins with the 64th gate in head center. The head center is a pressure center. It is the pressure to find out, literally. And that pressure to find out works in different ways. In the abstract process, it’s a pressure to find out about the past. And the way in which we experience the pressure is that we have confusion about the past. Of course the pressure about the confusion drives us to find a way to resolve, or eliminate, that confusion. That brings us to the ajna center, the awareness center.

Streams begin in a pressure center and move through an awareness center.

On the other side of the 64th gate, the harmonic gate to the 64 is the 47, the gate of Oppression. And Oppression is a gate of trying to make sense out of things. Where the logic begins with a doubt and seeking a formula, the abstract begins with confusion, but isn’t looking for anything precise. It’s trying to find a way to make sense out of it.

Again, when you’re looking at the logic and the abstract operating through the mental plane, they cross in the ajna center, the streams cross. In the same way that in the structure of our physical brains, there is this crossing over. From the 47th gate you cross over to the 11th gate. The logical process tries to turn the formula into an opinion. But the abstract process, because it is based on only a sense of something, leads to ideas, the gate of Peace, the 11th gate. And the ideas to be substantiated are seeking their outlet, and that outlet is there in the throat, the 56th gate, the Wanderer.

Now, the Wanderer is a very special gate, it’s a storytelling gate. Think about the relationship, or the difference, if you will, between the 62nd gate, which is a gate of detail and facts and the expression of logic, and the 56th gate. The 56th gate is all about the hope or despair of a story. And the value, or the information, has to be transmitted through the story itself, like a parable, or a tale. These two gates are extraordinary in their metamorphic capacity.

The gate of opinion, the logical 17th gate, and the gate of ideas, the abstract 11th gate are the gates of our eyes, symbolically. That is, the 17th gate is the logical eye. And the 11th gate is the abstract eye.

When we come to the metamorphosis we can see that in the collective process, whether that is the abstract or the logical, it is an inner vision translated into language. Because everything about the movement from the head center to the throat is seeking articulation, seeking expression in language. The collective takes the visual and turns it into language."[179]

January 10, 2017 -

My Lunar North Node is in Pisces:

"These people need to have their own private office or space. They work very well alone and enjoy projects that involve discovering and carrying out a vision where the work is done in private (such as research, library work, or computer work). Pisces North Node people succeed in any profession that involves the individual pursuit of spiritual Truth, including working and living in monasteries or convents. They can be fantastic artists, craftspeople, performers, or musicians—bringing their private dream to others. They are also great promoters, because they are so good at “behind the scenes” activities. ... they need to allow themselves ample time for solitude and reflection.

Pisces North Node people also have inherent gifts for noticing pertinent details and analyzing the significance of information. When they use these past-life gifts as a backdrop for manifesting their dreams, their innate practicality will help them. ... These folks are better off when their profession focuses on manifesting a vision, empowering them to use their practical skills to bring it into reality."[83]

Now if I just had a high office chair with state-of-the-art back support (ideally with built in massage technology) my NN in Pisces would be all the more delighted in my tiny private space!

January 15th, 2017 -

My progressed Moon is in the last degrees of the 12th House and in a couple weeks will be entering the First House!:

Progressed Moon in the 1st House -
"You feel free and walk with greater confidence. You feel you can get whatever you want and things will go well. The right people and the right circumstances come into your life with ease. ... issues with the home and family can become important now. Spend some time on yourself, reflecting on your life, who you are as a person, and what it is you want, so you can better cultivate your identity. ... This can mark a time of many changes in your life. You can see changes in your family, in your relationships, in your job or residence, and you could be thrust into the spotlight. ..."[84]

Jan. 24th, 2017 -

Just started researching my natal Chaos (asteroid) in my 6th astrological House which rules stress and the MindBody connection to which I grok! next I identified the following Sabian Symbol:


KEYNOTE: The analytical power of the mind necessary for the formulation of life processes in their many aspects.

"Cycles of existence begin in unity and end in what I have called 'multi-unity.' At the stage of consummation the many individual differences are totaled; they constitute a sum. Within that sum — a unified total — the inevitability of the future process of differentiation is implied, because every cycle leaves a mass of waste products slowly returning to the unconscious state of chemical matter, of 'humus.' What the symbol tells us is that unity will always break again into multiplicity. The 'prism' is always there. There is no absolute unity; if anything could be called 'absolute' it is the relationship between the One and the Many.

This fourth stage symbol of the concluding five-fold sequence of phases points to the fundamental type of operation in all modes of existence. The most beautiful and seemingly everlasting experience of unity will in time be superseded by the need to attend to a multiplicity of details. Existence implies DIFFERENTIATION."[85]

So serendipitous to connect with this Sabian scene now right after reading Ra Uru Hu's presentation which inspired me to blog further at "The Truth of Individuality"[86]!

Chaos is square my Chiron and opposite my Sun. All of which is indicating to me a very significant placement, further inspiring my research.

February 7, 2017 -

Got in the mood to communicate with someone regarding my "past life" in Chicago and acted on that.

"Greetings Reverend ............!

Just found your contact info ...
(by way of a search for 'thurifer' as reference for this blog.)

This writer was a member of St. John's from 1965 to 1970 during which time he served as an acolyte and as thurifer on those special occasions. Father Adams was the rector. Before that he was a member of St. Cyprians (where he was confirmed) from 1957 to '65. Father Paul Kyger inspired this young man with thoughts of entering the priesthood.

He looked at St. John's congregational photo online however there doesn't appear to be anyone there from the 60's (not that it would really matter).

He moved from Chicago in 1977 and to California in '78. He hasn't been back to Chicago since 1999 when he visited his sister (on Warwick Ave). However he has thought of St. John's many times. If he ever wrote a "real" biography he would definitely include this part of his history. If he were in Chicago (not likely to happen) he thinks he would be open to visiting. However he is so grateful to have email as he takes great pleasure in corresponding.

The "Reverend" does not know this writer nor has he had any contact with any of the members there since 1970. Except for the above "letter" he is a complete unknown to the rector. Having acted on an impulse to communicate it seems that act allowed feelings to emerge into his conscious awareness that inspired him to "sit" with them and to pray. He's glad he did! He also wrote a personal journal page and said he is generally at peace. That's good enough for him! Now he will search "Mercury in Aquarius" to see if this present transit has anything to do with the "mood" that arose in him.

So Glad he started my Mercury in Aquarius search! Aquarius rules his 4th House:

4th House in Aquarius -
"You don’t want a traditional home life. You may move often or change your home regularly in some way. You home life may not have been very stable when young, and you had to deal with family strife. You likely don’t have a strong emotional tie to your family, or have a place you think of as home. You become more innovative, original, and open as you get older, and want an interesting life."[87]

Virtually every word of this description is true for this writer!

February 9th, 2017 -

Glad to see that I had already identified in terms of "my 'past life'" as I had been mulling over what to make of my memories and last night I suddenly re-realized I'm not the person that I was at that time (essentially the late 60s through 1970-71). In fact, in August 1970 I had consciously, deliberately and actively chose to "drop the mask" of the person I was acting as![88]

January 28, 2019 - Continuing - My "dropping of the mask" did not eliminate the mask. However I think it at least cracked it!

Earlier - sent the following to the adopting mother of a beautiful young man that has some of my genes:

I have material that I see has impact potential if it were to be "acted out". That material has inspired me to reconsider "acting" and especially regarding theater in general with all the potentials that a live theater can have.

I'm especially attracted to small community venues and to having pre-theatrical readings of my material.

The "material" that I have the most interest in now is essentially a dialogue between a psychiatrist/therapist gentleman and another man (his patient) who is presented as the archetypal "normal" guy who then has paranormal experiences and thinks he needs psychiatric therapy.

I find this subject especially relevant now for the following reasons. -

Firstly - on one hand we have reports regarding a dramatically progressive increase and dependency on certain antidepressant pharmaceuticals (spanning over the recent decades) with an apparently corresponding increase in violent acts reported in public arenas that in virtually every instance have been positively identified as having been perpetuated by individuals on antidepressant medication.

On the other hand we have an anticipated genetic mutation that is in the works now and that will bring a most significant change in the actual Human Design of humanity - most notably as a mutation in the Solar Plexus (Emotional) Center - that will first begin manifesting in the next generation of children born with this mutation starting as of several years into this decade.

These children are not going to relate to the world in ways that we are most familiar with and if they are compared to the present day (normal) state of the "human being" they may be judged "abnormal." The risk of what could follow from that point on is something that I don't need to elaborate on if one realizes the overall pharmaceutical climate at this time.

In any case I definitely have the capacity to engage in theater in many ways on and off stage and feel my Design could benefit from this kind of engagement - given the right interpersonal introductions as a potential first foundation of support. I have a friend/client I've share this with and although he appears receptive I don't yet know the extent of his interest and whether it is compatible with my passion. We will see as it all unfolds.

February 20th, 2017 -

In reading The Complete Guide to the Human Design System (transcript of Lectures by Ra Uru Hu) I got a new perspective on Mars in transit as a deep mutative force and that inspired me to look at where Mars was in August 1970. On August 1st Mars was in the 33rd Hexagram/Gate. Kim of "Love Your Design" says: "Gate 33 is all about making a strategic withdrawal from what may harm you." I believe I mentioned this before that in early August I smashed my mirror and the next day signed myself into a complete "withdrawal". This Gate description says it all! Unfortunately it my be a while before I gain access to the complete description. In any case the description in "The Definitive Book of Human Design" matches my experience. Starting at Line 1 and continuing all the way through the transit till August 8th, 1970 the whole complete "journey" allowed for the mutative force of Mars to work deeply within me! I know that if I were not in "complete withdrawal" for that time the mutative forces would not have had the full effect as there would have been distractions in my life.

One thing that I realized in my current Human Design "study" now is that because I did not know my authentic self at that time[89] I had nothing stopping the full force of the conditioning. I did not know my inner "Authority" or my "Strategy". All I know was that I wasn't my true self and I had to break through a "mask" that was virtually smothering me!

"... so much of what you have to do in this life, what you have to do in this process of Human Design is shatter that surface, see the movie for what it is, begin to be aware and begin to find your way to put your stamp on your role. ..."[90]

I have absolutely honored the impulse to "shatter that surface" and more than once!

March 9, 2017 -

What's Essential?:

This is part of the note that I wrote moments earlier this morning in conversation with a "fellow gardener" (who actually does some composting! ; ~ ). The whole note is: "What's essential at a co-creator's point of view". This is the line that resulted from my brief account of what I had asked for in the midst of an acute crisis during my spiritual emergency of the Summer of 1970. The "end of the world myth" that had grown in my psyche over the preceding decade had been fed by the 60s with all of it's divisions between "doves and hawks", "freedom fighters and the KKK", "youth and the over 30", etc., etc. Then on one particular day (back home from a really strange ride with my father that at one point I had jumped out of the car) I knew the world (as I knew it then) was certainly ending and out of this "state of mind" (that I don't really have words for labeling) I "prayed".

My prayer essentially said let there still be polarities regardless of all the immanent changes and whatever ends here on earth. Looking back on this now (forty-seven years later) I realize that since I was not really taught anything about "polarities" in school (or elsewhere) the "prayer" to keep the polarities here had emerged out of some very deep inner knowingness although at an unconscious level.

All of life is built on the polarities i.e.: "heaven/earth", "light/dark", "land/sea", "male/female", "day/night", "moist/dry", "warmth/cold", "inner/outer", Macrocosm/microcosm", etc. All the essentials of life as we know it. I said to my fellow gardener that without polarities there would be no individualization which (IMO) is what we all came here for - to be individuals rather than homogenized clones! Yet the world systems require a lot of homogenization. So this is another polarity of retaining/recovering our unique individuality in the midst of worldwide conditioning that would have that either filtered out of existence or blended so that systems can essentially have "one size fit all".

Homogenization is not a healthy alternative; not with milk and not with people! In milk - the process that it goes through to reduce the fat molecules so that they can be blended without having the cream rise to the top (like milk used to do decades ago) is one of the most unhealthy food processes. [Mark McAfee and Dr. Dale Jacobson (DC) talked about this in the video "Raw Milk: The Whole Truth" that I produced.] What gets reduced in people in the "homogenization" process of their conditioning is the Individual's authority! This "reduction" process has been non-stop since the "Whiskey Rebellion".

The Individual's authority is essential! -

Much of human disease is the result of a lack of the Individual's authority. I blogged elsewhere on how this manifests in heart disease. According to the New Medicine all disease is actually an intelligent biological survival program that was launched by the innate intelligence upon impact of a "shock conflict" in which the Individual felt powerless. If you don't have your own authority you have powerlessness waiting for an impact to occur. The polarity here may be: "power/powerlessness" as well as "free inhabitant Individual/citizen".

April 25, 2020 - Continuing with "the end of the world" -

"when a person dies, the whole world disappears with them, and when they are alive, the world is alive too."[191]

The reverse of this can also be considered. In other words - when a person declares the end of the world that worldly persona can die as well. This is what this Blog-writer experienced in early 1970 in his room at the Irving Park YMCA one morning as he was thinking of the end of the world prophesy and declared "Let it be now."

August 25, 2020 - Light on: The "End of The World" in Revelation -

The Seventh Trumpet - Revelation 11:15 -
Then the seventh angel sounded his trumpet, and a loud voice broke forth in heaven, saying:

“The kingdom of the world[a]
has become the kingdom of our God
and of his Anointed One!
He will reign supreme for an eternity of eternities!”

[a] That is, the kingdom of finance, culture, and government, both religious and secular.[197]

Comment: The above "footnote" regarding the "world" underscores the current understanding of this Blog-writer and the need to distinguish "world" from "earth" where "world" refers to certain man-made systems and "earth" is the living planet as a whole. The realization of this distinction also adds illuminating light to the "end of the world" account of this writer who at the time only had an image of physical destruction as his reference for the "end of the world" meme that was implanted by way of the images in a Watch Tower book that was left at his home when he was a young boy.

March 12, 2017 -
Happy Daylight Savings!

It just "dawned" in me that the parental conditioning I had for the first eighteen (very long) years (of my extended dependency) may have been "perfect" for me on account of my propensity to "question" authority. I can elaborate and I just wanted to note this for now.

Back (sooner than expected) after just checking the planetary transits and see:
Sun at 22° 25' Pisces,
Chiron at 24° 31' Pisces, and
Mercury at 27° 56' Pisces.

It appears that Chiron is conjunct both the Sun and Mercury. (I think this has something to do with activating what just "dawned" in me.)

Continuing -
Chiron is in Human Design Gate 36 in the Solar Plexus Center at Line 3. "Gate 36 is the place where your fears of vulnerability and inexperience (emotional and sexual) are resolved or transformed into experience; where you create and meet the challenges of change and growth through emotional crises. As you gain emotional clarity over time, you learn how to handle emotional crises created by others, and you create less of them yourself." Line 3 is "Transition - The point at which decline has exhausted its power. Exalted: The ability to establish a new order out of the ashes of the old. The emotional depth to endure crisis and embrace change."[74] So glad I am following my inspiration, intuition and all on this one!

March 13th, 2017 - Astrological validation!

On Tuesday the 14th - "At 10:41 PM EDT, when the Sun conjoins Chiron, the Wounded Healer, at 24° Pisces, you may find the ability to release an old wound and reach for healing that is offered.

As you offer healing compassion to others, your own pain can be released."[91]

April 7, 2017 -

Chetan Parkyn speaks of a fated nature in Human Design and that inspired me to revisit my Personality Sun Gate 46 in the Self Center. Although I have mentioned this gate above a couple times I now wish to include the following full description:

"GATE 46: PUSHING UPWARD - THE GATE OF THE DETERMINATION OF THE SELF - Good fortune that may be perceived as the result of serendipity but derives from effort and dedication - RAC of The Vessel of Love -
The 46th gate is focused on the quality of life we experience in a physical body. It expresses the love of the body, and the sensual honoring of it as a temple in which we are always in the right place at the right time. You are one who lives the good fortune and discovery of serendipity. Whether you succeed or fail is dependent on the determination of your higher self. This is an abstract process of surrender to a cycle of experience that can fulfill your potential, or bring chaos. The lessons you learn and the wisdom you share with others is derived from your determination, dedication to and absorption in the experience as you are living it. The experience of the nature of your self in interaction with others is a deeply spiritual process, and can only be evaluated when the cycle is complete. If you cannot commit yourself to the cyclical nature of life, your body will begin to fail under the stress of constant crisis."[74]

April 8th, 2017 -

In the Human Design System we use two essential calculations to form the BodyGraph. One is the same used for generating a natal astrological chart. The second calculation is approximately 88 degrees earlier and represents the moment when the individual's incarnation began. (I say began because "fully incarnating" in the body-vehicle can possibly take years.) The planetary activations in the second calculation is referred to as Design. I generated and just now reviewed my Design astrological chart to identify my Design Mars representing my "Core Vocation" according to my Golden Path's Pearl Sequence. My Design Mars has a Sabian Symbol at 24 Gemini:


KEYNOTE: The use of inhibiting circumstances for the development of character and a transcendent approach to the environment.

Winter symbolizes darkness and the restrictions imposed upon living things by cold. Natural life is in a state of hibernation or inward-turned activity. Yet the developing mind can learn to use restrictions and the disciplining power of "cold" external responses to rise above the outer "freeze" and to grow in strength and skill. Man is nature rising above the cyclic oscillation of natural polarities. His way is often the via negativa. He learns rhythmic freedom ("skating") by using the most binding situations ("ice") to demonstrate his transcendent capacity for pleasure and self-mobilization.

Here again the fourth stage symbol presents us with a special technique. It is a mental technique inasmuch as it is through mind that man can transcend the entropy of the universal process of existence. We see here indeed man's TRIUMPH OVER ENTROPY.

And like the Oracle reading I did above (May 13th, 2016) for my Pinnacle year this phase also is in the first Hemicycle of "The Process of Individualization", 1st Act: Differentiation and now in the 6th Scene of Exteriorization.

May 9, 2019 -

The natal moon for this writer was in the Balsamic Phase is described as follows:

The Balsamic Phase is the last phase of the Moon’s cycle. This is the time of adjustment from one cycle to another. It is the bridge between the past and the future. People born at this time are finishing an eight phase cycle of lifetimes. Therefore, this lifetime is a very karmic one. There is a pattern of very intense, all-consuming although short term relationships with people from the past including other lifetimes. These karmic ties are in need of resolution before continuing on into the next new cycle. These people often have pronounced psychic abilities. They are the visionaries seeing years ahead of their times. As children they often feel apart from their peers; they are loners. Balsamic Moon people are able to take the true meaning of a situation, distill it into its wisdom essence and plant it into the awareness of others. They are the gurus. Their job is the transmission of essential knowledge which will germinate at the next level during the next Lunation Cycle.[168]

April 9th, 2017 -

Just did a reading on my "approach" in working with people resulting in the following Sabian Symbol at:


KEYNOTE: A return to the glorification of natural energies.

While the first symbol of this five-fold sequence pictured the magnificence of the returning sun after a storm, in this last symbol we see, by implication, man returning to nature and glorifying the sun after the long crisis of "civilized" living in artificial cities. For many years now, the American Pueblo Indian has been for the weary city dweller and the dried-up intellectual a symbol of this 'return to nature.' After having ruthlessly destroyed him, we come to him as an exemplar of peaceful and harmonious group living.

This fifth symbol of the twenty-eighth sequence brings us the image of a reversal of our socialized activity and opens for us the way to the deepest release of our long-denied root energies. Natural man links himself consciously to the source of all life on earth. And this means IDENTIFICATION THROUGH WORSHIP — and the sanctification of the creative power."

I find this most interesting after having inspiration earlier to search "neo Pagan Christian/neo Christian Pagan" with a "return to nature" in mind!

Just did a search on "neo Pagan Christian" and "neo Christian Pagan" and found mostly derogatory references yet continued (it's in my Design) to finally find one item of some value that referred to the early British Pagan Christians. I think Steiner has made reference to the pre-Christian "mysteries" that I should verify and then identify here.

May 14, 2017 - Regarding my Undefined Root Center:

"...there’s a ... a certain kind of stress that people with open Roots can feel, that might make it particularly important to unplug from the collective buzz."

I have been "unplugging" for so many years now that there are times when I honestly forget about "the collective buzz"! Then there are other times when the "buzz" has worked its way into my head and I have to "respond". Actually I was just thinking about this earlier in terms of one of my networking buddies who regularly sends me (and the rest of the network) forwards of a wide spectrum of "news" items and some of these certainly fall into the category of "the collective buzz". I count this as a reasonably "good" thing although some of the resources of these news items are essentially infested with low-frequency buzzes of their own.

May 16, 2017 - Dwarf Planets


"Ceres was the first to be discovered in the asteroid belt. It has since been reclassified as a dwarf planet, which would make Ceres at least as important as Pluto in the astrological chart since they are both dwarf planets.

Ceres was the sister of Zeus (Jupiter). She is the quintessential Earth Mother, and rules over food, cooking and nutrition. ..."

I'm deeply connected to my natal Ceres in Pisces-5th House and possibly within orb of my Lunar North Node. In the Astrological Mandala the Sabian Symbol for my NN is the synthesis of the preceding four symbols which includes the degree where I have Ceres. So she is in the "synthesis" of my destiny!

June 8th, 2017 -

A scholarship (notice) that I had applied for from the Biodynamic Association of America arrived today during the Sun's transit of Gate 45 (at line 2)[96] which completes my channel connecting my Heart Center with my Throat Center! I find this at least noteworthy!

June 15, 2017 -

I mentioned (in the above) that one of my twelve biographical perspectives could be "dance". The energy behind this is well represented in my Human Design with Gate 46 (activated by my Personality Sun at Line 3) which is "all about the physical embodiment of love. It understands that the body is a vehicle for the soul and is all about movement and living in the body. It is sensual, graceful, experiential, and grounded. People with this energy are deeply present to the body, and we see a lot of yoga teachers, dancers, and even portrait photographers with this energy."[97] Elsewhere (at another of my Curezone blogs) I had written an account of being "The Lord of the Dance".

July 20, 2017 -

In a dream yesterday: I have a number of turtles who have latched onto my arms and I attempt to shake them all off but am unable to move my arms. -
I woke up face down lying on top of my arms. When I finally had sat up (after finishing my sleep cycle) I noted the dream in my journal and made a separate note to check out the Turtle Medicine Card.[99] In doing that I also connected with my direction on the Medicine Wheel which also includes the turtle! [98]

Although I already had it noted to search out the card I subsequently found the broken head of a plastic turtle soap dish under a tote box in my room that then underscored the urgency to look into this. The Turtle Medicine Card is card 10. My natal direction on the Medicine Wheel is: 10! A day or so ago I had calculated the number of the name I have on one of my files: "J~Em" = 10! I thought about the extent I relate to the numerology of that. Turtle and the Medicine Wheel now underscore that affinity!

On November 3, 1994 my sweetheart Dominique gave me a card reading of the Medicine Cards for seven directions.
East gave me Hummingbird[100], South: Badger[101], West: Lynx[102], North: Bat[103], Above: Hawk[104], Below: Horse[105] and Within: Weasel!

My nickname was Weasel for the last couple years as an elementary school child and when I was at camp up till age 15.

July 27, 2017 - Eris

Recently discovered that I have Eris conjunct my natal Jupiter in the 6th House.

"When Eris sits in your sixth house of health and servants, you challenge your authority with others and other people’s authority to make health care decisions for you. This latter situation can manifest as a health care crisis that is not managed correctly by the care provider calling for clarity of thinking and intervention on your part. You will have to be your own best health care advisor."[106]

"Eris- goddess of strife (aggresive Mars)- strife so that everything unsubstantive and unvaluable was broken.(broken up)
House where is Eris, there is given problematic sphere of which is full of strifes, unless it is the 1th house result is problamatical personality, the 5th house and 7th house problematical realationships, the 10th house, strifes in career and so on.

Eris in houses

Eris ...
in the 6th house working strifes"[107]

Uh huh!

August 29th, 2017 -

Just read: "... controlling, heavy-handed Saturn"[108] and immediately thought of my father to which I am interested in identifying the Saturnian conditioning element that I had experienced in that relationship not only throughout my entire childhood but far into adulthood as well.

Also - "Virgo hates waste of any kind ..."[109] that I am reading now is so serendipitous to my note that I made a couple hours earlier at my dinner and then stuck in my 'to blog' file that I'm now 'compelled' to write it here:
The note:
I am so very grateful that I have all my chef experience as well as all my childhood conditioning in regards to food management most particularly regarding not wasting any food. ; ~ ) This serendipity is great! My note went on to say: My gratitude for "waste not" extends to other ares in life where I often find uses for items discarded by others, including the paper I'm writing this note on!

September 4, 2017 - Omraam's "Thought for the day":

"No matter how enthusiastic you are about the religion or spiritual teaching you have discovered, do not begin by preaching it to others. ... You must find very subtle ways to express your convictions. Otherwise you will lose them or, even worse, they will soon turn to fanaticism."[110]

Although I don't know of any scriptual teaching to support this view I can personally testify that the consequences mentioned here are real.

September 11, 2017 - Eris in the Astrological Houses -

Eris in the 1st house conflicting personality
in the 2nd house problematical finance
in the 3th house communication strifes, disputes with siblings
in the 4th house strifes in family
in the 5th house strifes in sexual life, strifes with kids
in the 6th house working strifes
in the 7th house strifes with wife husband or mate, (strifes with other people)
in the 8th house strifes about money
in the 9th house tension in sphere of education and intellect
in the 10th house conflicts in professional life
in the 11th house strifes in social life, strifes in politics
in the 12th house secret enemies[111]

I have Eris in my 6th house. I find this description applies in my experience. The wisdom I've gained from this influence is that open, ongoing and honest communication is absolutely essential in my work for/with others. I find that not everyone is willing to devote all that it tales to have clear communications. I accept and refrain from pursuing work relations with those who are not willing to devote themselves to this level of communications.

However -
"eris= superhuman powers. It has NOTHING to do with strife. It's the first chakra of the karma layer."[111]

I wonder what "the first chakra of the karma layer" is.

"Eris in 6th House
When Eris sits in your sixth house of health and servants, you challenges your authority with others and other people's authority to make health care decisions for you. This latter situation can manifest as a health care crisis that is not managed correctly by the care provider calling for clarity of thinking and intervention on your part. You will have to be your own best health care advisor."[112]

I am my "own best health care advisor"! This seems more true than the preceding 6th house description.

The best description:

Eris represents a life long process of liberation and the natal house where it resides is the house where you need t be liberated.

In the 6th House - The House of Work and Health. ("The Book of Houses" calls the 6th house "the healer".) According to this newest description this placement is about taking control of your daily routine and especially your health. It is about rediscovering both traditional and alternative medicine as well as nutrition and herbalism. This is liberation from the "standard health care system".[113]

Just sent a message to Heather with my compliments!

September 17, 2017 -

Just discovered the major themes in my natal chart house as the placement for my Chiron! My previously written notes for the third House include: Family ties, Communications and the following "biggies" in this regards: Speech, Perception and Self-expression! I was inspired to revisit some of my initial planetary activations starting with Mercury and Chiron in regards to better understanding my "father wound" that later began showing it's impact through my speech - as it was imagined then (about age five) that I had a "speech impediment". I figured I'd re-search both my Mercury activations (natal and incarnation) plus the same for Chiron. My natal Chiron in the third House is a bullseye for me with "speech" as one of the themes for that house!

This further validates my thinking in regards to some limitations with The Human Design System (HDS) and the need to include additional astrological perspectives. The Astrological Houses are not included in HDS as well as planetary bodies other than the "top eleven"[114] in our solar system.

Regarding the Profile Lines in Human Design -

"The left angle (is) purely transpersonal. The 5th and 6th lines are the most transpersonal in quality. ( I have an "Unconscious" 5th Line.) They are always getting ready both to go out into the world and to observe the world as a whole. They are the ones that carry karma. And the only way to unload this stuff is to meet the old forces that they got the karma from in the first place. It’s only through the transpersonal that we can universalize and connect with the other.

5th line : The 5th line is like the 2nd line but a lot more transpersonal. They aren't exactly hermits because they recognize the value of others, but there is a touch of suspicion there - 'What do they want from me?'"[115]

June 3, 2018 - Astrological Houses -

I include the Astrological Houses in addition to the rest of Human Design. For instance in this moment the Sun transit is at 13 Gemini 17. My 9th house began at 12 Gem 8 which means I've just entered my 9th House. This House includes many of my favorite subjects such as: "Higher Education", study in depth of profound subjects, Publishing, Life View, Wisdom, "Sense of Purpose", "Direction", Teaching and Philosophy, the last of which is serendipitous to my having thought moments earlier on: "What is an Anthroposophist" and that I didn't make note of at that time but get to now!

September 19, 2017 - A Personal Progress Report. -

I am aware that I have continued on my personal transformational journey and I am grateful for a particular progress. Firstly I'd like to briefly present a simple scale regarding the natural inclination for reacting to certain experiences. Imagine a span of 100 incremental degrees. The 100th degree is on the order of unbridled rage or the like. The "0" degree is absolutely cool, calm, and collected. I recognize that over this past year I have lowered the level of my "inclination for reacting" at least a degree or so for which I am truly grateful! I know better than to embellish the progress because of the fact that I still have an unconscious mind that is the submerged part of my "iceberg" and consequently that is not completely visible to me at this time. Nevertheless I am essentially continually aware that the "submerged part" is close by me and fortunately I am able and willing to "do my best" "To Respond" to virtually anything that arises from there.

I continue to live my "Four Agreements" which starts with being "Impeccable with my word" which I include my thoughts as well as expressed words. That agreement alone keeps me fairly vigilant! The other three agreements come into focus as well. Nowadays I often sing my own versions of the agreements. I.e. for the Second Agreement I sing: "Absolutely everything that others say is always all about them - and - none of it is ever to be taken personally - by me." It's one of my favorite songs! ; ~ ) I have several other version on that same theme regarding what others don't say, do, and don't do. I do my best to cover all the aspects of how I may "perceive" others in a less than ideal light. By practicing this constantly over the course of this past year I have established a kind of track record where I can honestly say I do not take what others say (etc.) personally. That is a major relief for me and so much so that I can recommend to to others! That transformation is probably the major contributor to my progress in lowering the level of my "inclination for reacting" at least a degree or so.

September 22, 2017 - My Natal Pluto -

"Pluto in the Eleventh House: Your burning zeal for the ideal world and your need to be part of a group of like-minded souls are major factors in your makeup. You learn and grow through your efforts to help others and to make your inner vision into a reality."[123]

Pluto caught my attention moments ago when I saw that it is exactly conjunct my IC (4th House cusp).

September 26, 2017 - Some "Auspicious Year" themes as identified in the "Cards of Your Destiny" -

I've previously mentioned the Destiny Cards here in this blog a couple times. Today I am identifying the primary cards for what Robert Camp refers to as "Auspicious Years" for several cards in their 66th year.

#1.) The King of Hearts: Year of Caution as represented by the 6 of Spades in the Saturn period:

"The Six of Spades in the Saturn Period:
Any physical problems you face now are likely to be the result of an accumulation of bad health habits from the past. As this is a 'triple karmic' influence, most any area of your life could be the one where you are receiving payment for past thoughts, words, or actions that were hurtful to others or to your own body. Now is the time to take full responsibility for your health, work and lifestyle and to be willing to make proper amends to correct any problems.

This is the strongest card of fate in the whole deck. Because the Saturn Period is also a karmic or 'fated' period, it triples the influence. Seeing this card coming, it is wise to take stock of your actions in the past and assume as much responsibility as you can for your deeds. It is especially important to make sure that your health and work habits are positive, honest and healthful as you approach this period. Everything in your life that is out of balance will probably be brought into balance in a somewhat relentless and often extreme manner."[124]

#2. ) The Six of Hearts with Four Themes -

Blessed Endings with "The Nine of Diamonds - Result Card":

This powerful card of 'Universal Values' guarantees that by your next birthday you be less attached to money and will have a new and broadened perspective about money that gives you more freedom and less concern than ever before. Somehow connected to your Pluto Card, you will learn and master the art of finances by the true knowledge of the nature of prosperity - that it follows cycles that go in and out and that only by flowing with it can we have peace of mind."[125]

Difficult Endings 2X -

9 Clubs Long Range Card,

& 9 of Hearts Pluto Card.

Most Blessed Card!

May 31, 2019 - More Destiny Cards -

The Jupiter Card can indicate how you can make the most money. I have the "Cheeta" Village as my High Ideal and that project can probably take all the money that I could possibly generate. Therefore knowing, understanding and applying my Jupiter cards may be a worthy task for me. The following is the description of my Jupiter Card within the life-spread of my prime Birth Card:

The Two of Diamonds -
The Wheeler Dealer Card -

The Two of Diamonds has an innate intuition that, if followed, will always lead them to success in all their dealings. Inherent in this intuition is a high set of values and often a 'mission' in life, a mission that always involves partners and 'others'. There is a certain amount of ambition, usually for money, that keeps them motivated. This is good because they can get into ruts at times - especially in their closest relationships. If they tap into their inner guidance they will find a path awaiting them that is fascinating and rewarding. They do best by establishing themselves in one business and sticking with it. This is one of the more successful cards in the deck and they have only themselves to blame if they are not happy and productive. They are called the 'Wheeler Dealer Card' because they love to be involved in business and finance, especially with their friends and associates. This is a partnership card.

Two is the number of logic and Two of Diamonds have a mind that is quick at making distinctions and evaluations of things. They are often attracted to, and good at working with computers for the same reason. It is only when the Two of Diamonds is unfulfilled emotionally that this strong mind becomes pessimistic and argumentative.

They should be careful that their social obligations do not tax their health and well being. Sometimes they get so caught up in their business and work that they forget to take care of themselves. They can make large sums of money in real estate in their later years and maintain good health throughout their lives. This is one of the cards that is likely to live to 100. These people love to mix and mingle and to do 'deals' with others. They prefer to work in conjunction with others rather than alone.

For some Two of Diamonds, their life holds a special purpose, a mission that involves bringing higher knowledge of some kind to the world and those they love. These are the messengers of light.[170]


The last two lines totally align with the "Cheeta Village as my High Ideal."

Also I have The Five of Clubs for the date of my Incarnation:

"The Five of Clubs Person: The Club suit combined with the number Five merges the forces of change and motion (Fives) with the mind (Clubs). While this may produce restlessness and uncertainty, it can also stimulate an interest in many different things. Though this may spawn uncertainty resulting from confusion, it can also give birth to versatility.

An urge for action is likely to encourage you to seek solutions to your problems through travel, new areas of exploration and frequent changes. You like to be on the go! Channel the flexible mental attributes of this card in a positive way, and this can bring constructive expression of your many talents and abilities. ...

As you are identified with the Club, or 'mental suit,' education may be the most effective discipline. With organization, you may find that the promised good fortune in your life spread can bring you success in more than one endeavor."[171]


Once again the last two lines get my underline and acknowledgment of a correlation between both "education" and "organization" with Cheeta as one of the new things about Cheeta is the education system.

September 30, 2017 -

"...before you commit yourself to a spiritual teaching and begin to follow a master, start by studying the situation carefully: ask yourself if this master is suited to your mentality, to your aspirations, to your ideal, and whether his teaching corresponds to your deeper nature."[126]

I did not have this criteria when I was coming into "The Church" (which I've mentioned at least a half dozen times above here). The "master" in "The Church" was not local and I didn't even know he existed before the first Summer after I had already "crossed the threshold" into The Church. By then there was not an opportunity to make a conscious choice as to whether or not I would "follow" the "master". I can't say I regret that as it was just what it was and I am grateful that I am not meeting with any of "The Church" now. As it turned out - just after my "exodus" from the MidWest there apparently was a scandal in The Church that I believe I was completely spared from having to be exposed to it in any way. I am grateful for that!

October 5, 2017 - Ixion -

"A man with Ixion conjunct the ASC, MC Sun, Moon, Venus or Mars will have the outlaw vibe."[127]

I attempted to send the following:
Amazing, Amiann!

Feels like I'm positively identified and busted! Natal Ixion in first house at 16 Libra 07. ASC: 14 Libra 09. Is that a tight enough conjunction?

(I just tried posting the above as a "comment" at however I reached a message indicating an internal server error.)

Also noteworthy - My father had his natal Ixion (22 Virgo 42) in his 5th House of "self expression" (and how he expressed love to others) Square to his natal Mercury and Trine Venus. These astrological aspects answers an extensive and weighty wonderment concerning what forces were at play behind the way he expressed himself virtually all the sixty some years that I knew him!

In addition I see that he had Neptune and the Moon in his fifth plus Chiron in the 12th.

Oct. 6th, 2017 - The Sabian Symbol for Ixion (as described above).


KEYNOTE: The capacity to gain an objective and calm understanding of human experiences in which one was once deeply involved.

Old age may or may not bring to man this objective and calm understanding as one remembers the crises overcome and the quiet enjoyment of great life vistas or "peak experiences," but wisdom and inner serenity can hardly develop save on the basis of the overcoming of struggles and conflicts. The "sea captain" sailed his ship through storms and still waters of consciousness, his mind perhaps battered by gales, his ego-crew perhaps in revolt. Now there is peace and quietude. Another generation is sailing seas better charted perhaps, yet inherently non-rational and at times savage in their fury. He watches. He knows. Others are learning. At any age the ego-will may "retire" and contemplate, and be at peace before a greater voyage over even more poorly charted seas.

At this second stage we sec a picture of true overcoming of storms, in polar opposition to the preceding one which revealed the destructive effect of psychic upheavals tearing apart the occult link — the antakarana — between the incarnate consciousness and the transcendent Soul-field, the CALM MIND beyond struggles and victories.[128]

I find some relief with this description especially given the challenging nature of Ixion as I understand it.

October 13, 2017 - The Completely Open Head Center -

My father was born with a completely open Human Design Head (Crown) Center and it is only with my understanding of the the Human Design System that I finally am able accept the implications of this aspect of his Design that had its impact on me throughout all of my upbringing.

"Those without gate activations in the Head Center have ... no consistent means ... to naturally ease them into a familiar way of ... entering into dialogue with another person."[74]

Of all the things that I had struggled with in my relationship with my father the inability to dialogue with him was probably the most severe for me. I never gave up wanting to have the best possible relationship with him that in my way of thinking included two-way communication. However, In the last couple years I did manage to come to some greater acceptance of the fact that a full "two-way" was not really possible. Up till my understanding of Human Design I only attributed the inability to the fact that my father was the equivalent of a triple Gemini with at least his natal Sun, Mercury and Lunar North Node all in Gemini plus he was born in the year of the dragon known for its instant verbosity! It was nearly impossible to "get a word in edge wise" once he started talking! All the this astrology still carries the weight as it has before however the above Human Design insight "seals" the understanding for me in a way that gives me complete acceptance! The dialogue I had yearned for was simply not possible with him.

The rather amazing this is that dialogue was not really possible with my mother as well for she also had a completely open Human Design Crown! Apparently 70% of the population have Undefined Head Centers but how many of those have no definition in this center? In a number of ways I realize that I held some kind of a communication challenge thought most of my life especially with my parents. I wish to see where that challenge originated, how it was activated within me and where I am in resolving this now.

October 19, 2017 -

Interesting that I am adding a post here now that follows one regarding my father after having a conversation with a man who asked me about my relationship with my father and to which i responded substantially!

In addition to the music of the 60s that I mentioned above here (as well as the other elements of a simple lifestyle inspired by my Summer camp days) I want to note the time (probably in 1970) when I removed federal reserve notes (FRNs) from my pocket after leaving the basement of a friend's when the visit was ended abruptly. I was in a heightened state of sensitivity and had the instinct to remove these foreign elements from energy field. At that time I don't think any of my friends would fully understand my action however today the understanding is much more possible. It is mow fairly public knowledge (at least via the internet) that the Federal Reserve System is not part of the "Federal" government, has no "Reserve" and is not a "System" of the United States of America. There is much more I can say to enlarge upon the "foreign" nature of FRNs that may be informative for some however two main points for my noting this is now are 1.) I tapped a body of knowledge that was not commonly known at the time and is only recently coming to light; 2.) I had no hesitation about letting go of the "paper", letting it fall to the sidewalk as I walked away from my friend's house. Once again, there is more I can say about this however I can only note the above for now.

October 26, 2017 - My Progressed Mars is in Libra!

"When your progressed Mars enters Libra, you go from a period where your drive and energy is invested in work, and now, it’s invested in partnerships. You want to build strong relationships and may forge new ones. You work well with others, .... You’ve just been in a period where working alone was the way to go, and now, you can have a partner. ..."

This fits me perfectly!

November 7, 2017 -

Up till now there have been eight times that I used the term "dialogue" in this blog. I had searched the term here to see if I had posted: "Those without gate activations in the Head Center have ... no consistent means ... to naturally ease them into a familiar way of ... entering into dialogue with another person." This search came right after another search among my library of Human Design BodyGraphs to see who had and didn't have "Open Head Centers". I made note of about seven individuals in my life who all have Open Head Centers and with whom I have experienced varying degrees of frustration for their inability to have dialogue with me. That frustration was before I realized they had this limitation. Now I will no longer get frustrated as I know better not to expect dialogue with these people! (What a relief! ; ~ )

Nevertheless - I still have a strong attraction for dialogue. I made note in the first "search" I mentioned (in the paragraph immediately above here) that based on my quote: "Dialogue and reflection are the essentials of autobiography" I now see that dialogue is an auto-biographical dyad (or triad, penta, octagon, etc.) Also realize that I am living auto-biographically! (Makes a new acronym: LAB - Living Auto-Biographically is "my LAB!)

November 26, 2017 -

There are a total of about seventeen mentions of "The Church" in the above postings (plus one in the footnotes) and (as is often true to life) the contents of these postings extend across a spectrum of experiences that I directly had with/in The Church. One thing that I will note here is that I have eternal gratitude for "the brotherhood". I can definitely say I was saved by the brotherhood! As much as I had "called on the Lord" (and as loudly as I had throughout all my days in The Church) I am certain that no other/additional "salvation" could have occurred without the reality of the brothers (and sisters) functioning in the brotherhood. "The Church" has referred to this as being "saved by the Church life". That was certainly the case for me!

I imagine there are other expressions of the brotherhood such as had been (and may still be) connected to the teachings of Omraam. I also imagine that there will be be new expressions forthcoming and that one may be "budding" now with the Gene Keys Society. I also realize that whatever new expressions my come will probably not include the "vision" of "The Lord's Recovery" as it was advocated within "The Church". However (now after close to forty years since my "exodus" from The Church in Chicago) I no longer think that The Lord is restricted to "His Recovery" by the way the people in "The Church" define it.

From my perspective this comes back to the matter of "definitions" as an ever-present issue requiring our clarity and due diligence. I have blogged considerably abut this issue at "Son of Truth of Self" here at CureZone.

There is no question in my mind regarding the truth of universal Brotherhood and I am certain that there are practical expressions of that on a daily basis. I realize "The Church" advocated something more than this. Addressing this in simple terms: I can see that "Heaven" needs a way to bring (what may be referred to as) "The New Jerusalem" to Earth. A question I suggest is: Does this indicate a kind of "evolution" of the brotherhood in its capacity to express the order of Heaven in the world? If so I may be seeing a number of preparation processes in support of that.

If the ways of "Heaven" are to be expressed in the world then the relationships that individuals have with the world are subject to utter and complete transformation. I'm especially including "individuals" in any and all expressions of the brotherhood with this particular "transformation". Although I can't speak for anyone else this "transformation" certainly has been and continues to be my process!

June 21, 2019 - Continuing With "The New Jerusalem" -

"...The New Jerusalem—what it is and how it will come to the world—this is what I have to reveal to you today. The picture of the New Jerusalem as St. John describes it—its dimensions, its gates, its foundations of precious stones—is quite clear, and it can be understood in different ways: as a city, as a way of life, and as a human being.

The New Jerusalem cannot come until there are enough human beings built on the same pattern, symbolically speaking, for the twelve gates of pearl and the foundations of precious stones symbolize virtues and qualities.

You will perhaps ask why the city has twelve gates. Because it is an image of the universe and also of a human being, for a human being possesses twelve gates or doors. ...

Human being were built in the workshops of the Lord in such a way as to be capable of communication and exchange with heaven and earth and the whole universe.

It is no good expecting to see the New Jerusalem coming down as a ready-made city from heaven. No such city will fall on us from heaven. The New Jerusalem will 'come down' only when human beings are new. Yes, the New Jerusalem is the new human being; it is all the 'new' men and women who have undertaken a gigantic work of transformation in themselves. And this work of transformation is nothing less than the transformation of the old Adam into Christ, of the old man into the new, or, to put it in alchemical terms, the transformation of the red into blue. The parallel is very clear in Hebrew: Adam is the red man (adorn, red), who was taken from the earth (adamah, earth), and the red man of earth must transform himself into Christ, the blue of heaven, the symbol of peace. For anyone who is familiar with the language of symbolism these correspondences are very clear. As red is the colour of the spectrum that has the lowest vibrational frequency, it represents man's physical impulses: vitality, sensuality, anger, aggressiveness, even drunkenness. ..."[173]


"The Church" taught that "the growth and transformation of the seed (of the Kingdom in Matthew) are in the Epistles and the maturity, harvest and full manifestation of the Kingdom in Revelation." "The Church" also taught that we are now living in the days of Revelation. However "the seed" as well as its sprouting, "growth and transformation" are all stages of development that are still required and needed before "harvest and full manifestation" can be obtained. It is altogether a whole entire transformational process that individuals must go through rather than some external event that just "happens" to occur.

The transformation requires mind renewal. That is an on going process that depends upon the individual dedicating themselves to becoming aware of their conditioning (and absolutely everyone who is born of earth parents has been conditioned). Additional conditioning comes in through governmental, educational, and religious institutions. This writer has a double acronym to represent all these sources of institutional conditioning: G-MEM C-MEM.
G-MEM is Government, Media, Education and Military.
C-MEM is Corporations, Money, Entertainment and Medical.
(Maybe can add an "R-MEM" that begins with Religion and a "S-MEM" that begins with Science.)

These institutions condition the mind to believe the repeated programming as if it were the truth and to personally identify with it as if that's who and what they are.

September 29, 2019 - The "MEM"s -

There is always at least a front side as well as a back side to everything and this is especially true with the eight "MEM"s mentioned immediately above here. The "front side" is what gets initially presented, is willingly displayed and referred to as if it were whole, true and complete. However it's not possible to present one side as if it included another side or all sides. A most obvious example of this can be seen in "Media." The media appears to be all up front and center stage. Well because its nature is "staged" it is largely an act. It could possibly be a more believable act if each media outlet was both unique and original. They are neither! There content is scripted for them from undisclosed sources.

The "Government" operates through similar acts. Congress people do not know what they are passing because it is scripted from undisclosed outside sources. Congress has been likened unto the "E" in "C-MEM": entertainment.

"Education" is at best a joke as well! That leaves the military as the second "M" in the "G-MEM" and the backside of the "Military" has been "referred to" (can't say "covered") by Anna Reitz (and that perspective is no joke).

This writer was formerly in the military and Honorably Discharged. In fact he was born a free inhabitant on Michigan land and soil when his father was in the military and raised his son as "a little man" (rather than through natural stages of growth as a little boy, young boy, older boy, young adult). However, since his father had originally left home at age fourteen there is extensive undisclosed history as to whether he had a childhood with natural stages of growth himself. We suspect not!

November 30, 2017 -

I am somewhat compelled to note this and with the intention of further research. I experienced "visitations" three times within an 18-hour period by elephants. About 2:33 AM Wednesday I discovered an elephant patch on the sleeve of one of my shirts (that I inherited and very rarely ever wear) which was the second "visit" after having reconnected with an article: "The Elephants Knew" that was forwarded to me and finally at approximately 6:36 PM a business reply card fell out of one of my catalogues regarding "Matriarch of the Red Diamond" a "crystalline figurine" of a matriarch elephant!

So far I find "Elephant Medicine - Meaning: Memory, Longevity, Intelligence"[134]

Just found this one that speaks more deeply to me![135]

December 1, 2017 - Our Life's Work -

Although I had watched this presentation[136] By Richard before when he first released it I am taking greater note of it now. For those who are attracted to "The Golden Path" Richard suggests beginning your contemplation with: "What can I do for others. What is the greatest service possible that I can bring into the world?" I took up this question in a creative way that I am able to do by bringing the question into an Astrological Oracle reading with the Sabian Symbols. The following is a full description of the result of this reading:

Aquarius 15°: Two Lovebirds Sitting On A Fence And Singing Happily.

KEYNOTE: The blessing bestowed upon personal achievements by the spiritually fulfilled consciousness of the Soul.

This symbol can be interpreted at various levels of significance, but it evidently suggests a state of being in which two complementary aspects of spiritual reality — however we may conceive them — are united; this union results in happiness or bliss (ananda). As the two birds are "sitting on a fence," and a fence separates two fields or gardens, the implication is that the separative consciousness of the ego can thus be blessed, perhaps as a spiritual reward for long-sustained and well-done work.

This is the last symbol of the sixty-third five-fold sequence which completes Scene Twenty-one. Inner happiness is seen to be the reward for all individuals who have made a valuable "contribution" to their community or to mankind as a whole. In its highest aspect this happiness is indeed BEATITUDE.

This verifies my commitment to my personal transformation as the way for me to be in this world but not "of it".

December 12, 2017 - Playwriting -

Concept: The transformational journey of a courageous young American who's spirit must be free despite having been completely conditioned by conventional "herd mentality"!

December 14, 2017 - Insight Into TOMMY.

Tommy is healed. Although the "opera" dose not say exactly how the healing occurred I believe it can be reasonably deduced that it is simply a sudden self-realization. In an instant he suddenly realizes the truth of his wholeness immediately after the smashing of the mirror.[137] If this is true to this narrative then there are additional deductions that I can suggest as well.

Firstly - Tommy was actually already whole and complete. The only thing obstructing his realization of this was the temporary overwhelm "in his head" (psyche) consequential to the shock trauma of witnessing the murder of his father. From a new medicine perspective - a shock of this magnitude would typically leave an individual speechless, unable to communicate, feeling isolated from others along with an internalized belief of "I can't believe I heard and saw what just occurred" and therefore refusing to hear and see more resulting in his becoming deaf, dumb, and blind! With the "smashing of the mirror" the outer image of the state of his "obstruction" is broken and can no longer be reflected back to him. That allows his true self to come forward.

November 10, 2018 - Mirror and Mind -

"Dr. Ramachandran reports on the case of a man (James) whose amputated right forearm felt as if it was tightly and painfully knotted into a clenched fist.

He had the man place his left arm into a mirror box, “visually resurrecting the phantom limb.” Even though James consciously knew it was his left arm in the mirror box, the image in the brain–seeing it as his right arm/hand– was very compelling and convincing. By unclenching the existing left fist in the mirror box, visually it appeared to the brain as though the right fist was unclenching. Using this “visual feedback to trick the brain,” upon unclenching his right fist, James’ pain immediately went away.

This is all small piece of a larger picture: reality, even the reality of your body, your body image, is constructed in your mind."[156]

December 25, 2017 - More Numerology!

"People with Master Numbers is not easy to fit society. They may find themselves ahead of time and others may find their far time theories and ideas threatening."[138]

I have two core sets of Master Numbers! "22" in my "birthdate" plus "33" as my "Attitude Number".[138] My life has not been really easy however, now I am finally settling into my "Forth Pinnacle" with a "7" and appreciate "a period of rest, stillness".

December 27, 2017 - on the "Third Day of Christmas" -

Previously I had made only one mention of "A Course in Miracles"(ACIM) here (May 20th, 2016). After thinking of ACIM moments ago (starting in reference to the thought of another that was posted at LinkedIn) I recalled a previously written note that I wanted to research the publishing history of the Course.

A Course in Miracles was first published in 1976. The very first time that I saw a volume of "the Course" was in 1978 - not too long after I had first arrived in San Diego. Whenever that was in 1978 probably was the earliest time that I could allow myself to see and make special note of this text due to my self-imposed restrictions while I was identified with "The Church" in Chicago (pretty much up until the day I left Chicagoland in about March 1978). However, it took me another three years to actually begin listening to the message (in a study group in Escondido) plus another (estimated) eighteen years before I committed to consistently doing the 365 lessons over the course of one full year. In each instance it appears that some kind of threshold came with these steps. The last instance was coincidental to the "crossing of the threshold" by my younger sister.

January 11, 2018 -

More regarding "The Body Is The Temple" (as mentioned in the September 21st, 2017 post) -

"Our spirit is an immortal spark issued from the bosom of the Eternal. All the powers and all the knowledge of the Creator are contained in it, and if it cannot manifest these powers and knowledge, it is because it is restricted by the opaque matter of our physical body."[139]

I would add that the restrictions also include those in the psyche as well. The reality of Mind-Body/Body-Mind unity is now an established fact of the human experience.

January 15, 2018 - Natal Sun In 12th House -

"...the Sun is more 'comfortable' in some houses than it is in others. For example, the Sun’s energy seeks to distinguish oneself as a separate identity. It feels very much 'at home' in the fifth house which is its natural domain. In the twelfth, however, it is not as comfy-cozy! The twelfth house energy attempts to dissolve ego boundaries. The Sun is very personal, while the twelfth house is universal. The Sun represents the individual ego, and the twelfth house represents the collective. As such, the Sun in the twelfth house position is more complicated, both to live with and to interpret, than the Sun in the fifth house."[140]

I was inspired to look into this placement after reading about "Houses of Endings" (4th, 8th and 12th) of which I thought of my 12th House.

January 24, 2018 (Happy B'-Day to my former client Leslie who I hope is enjoying a beautiful life on Maui or the like!) -
"It Really is a Musical Universe!" by Dale Pond[141] -

"The universe consists solely of waves of motion." relates Walter Russell in chapter 31 of A New Concept of the Universe. Another way of saying this is: "There exists nothing other than vibration." In Russell's statement lies the base for his next blast at orthodoxy's belief in a material universe: "Any theory which cannot find a fitting place within the wave has no other place for it in Nature."

This morning during my first momentary opportunity for a brief "meditation" I realized that "circulation" is something that needs to be included in any theoretical construct of the whole of creation. (Something I can acronymize as T-Cors Theoretical Constructs of Reality). I had previous thought of my T-Cor based on a previous T-Cor of MEST (Matter, Energy, Space, & Time). IMO - "MEST" begs for both Movement and Mission (a most significant M&M! ; ~ ) . This morning (during a certain "movement meditation") the afore mentioned essential element of "circulation" entered my consciousness and I began contemplating how every one of the other elements of the previously conceptualized T-Cors were all subject to circulation! Then after that I began my first computer session for the day and the first item I opened was an email form my friend who linked me to and asked me "Have you seen this?" I hadn't seen the website before however I was generally familiar with the teachings. (I made a brief mention in an earlier post above of my very first contact with one of the teaching centers in Chicago in 1970.) I was open to exploring this new site and fortunately found the page on "science"! It is relatively recently (within the last decade of my six embodied decades) that I am finding a real passion for "science" and possibly only because of the scientific references that are within the presentation of the Human Design System. I'm speaking about my Passion that is in addition to a not-neccessarily passionate interest that I already had during the preceding couple of decades primarily focused within nutritional research. Now - my more passionate interest is the result of a synergistic combination of at least two tremendous forces: greater Self-awareness, my Life Purpose/Mission. This "more passionate interest" has been growing over the years through this current decade and the simultaneous build-up of the "forces" has reinvigorated me in ways I hadn't anticipated!

All of this is to say that my first time reading of the "waves of motion" as the sole "content" of the universe was an instant full validation sweetly serendipitous of my earlier contemplation! I still like my term: circulation!

February 3, 2018 - More "Circulation" -

"When Jesus said in the Prayer ‘Our Father’, ‘May your will be done on earth as it is in heaven’, he meant that we should create a connection, a circulation of energies between heaven and earth, until the harmony, order and beauty up above are firmly established on our earth, that is, within ourselves first. ..."[143]

February 13, 2018 - "Unlocking the Power of Large Group Dynamics" -

More than ever before I realize my sociability works best with one-to-one connections. Large groups are not attractive to me and small groups have often been somewhat of a challenge (in varying degrees) for me as well. In light of this realization I am encouraged to know that the professional business consulting offshoot of the Human Design System has addressed the whole arena of are group dynamics and broken it down to optimal small group functioning. Just enjoyed their article: "Unlocking the Power of Large Group Dynamics".[146]

February 14, 2018 - An Early Morning Serendipity -

In the course of my most recent mediation (of a couple hours ago) I noted a few things about connecting with people. -
Firstly: "All the ways and means to most deeply connect with others" (plus a footnote of examples).
Now I just read the current "Thought for the Day" from the Omraam community:

"Sight, hearing, smell, taste, and touch – our five senses connect us to the world around us. Have you considered the fact that we can hear sounds from a distance and see things at an even greater distance, but to feel and touch things we must get closer to them, and to taste them we must even put them in our mouth?...". Upon reading this I immediately contemplated it through the above perspective "to most deeply connect with others" and I could imagine including heightened senses for that purpose. As I write this now I see the development and higher use of the senses as most beneficial for dialoguing with others.

In the preceding post (immediately above here) I mentioned my challenge in connecting with others in groups however the inclusion of dialogue in a group changes the whole energetic dynamics of that shared energy field.

March 4, 2018 - Happiness - With My Type of Human Design -

"Satisfaction is the key word for Generators. You need to be selfish; it's all about self satisfying work. Do only what brings you satisfaction. Your life is all about doing what you love and only that shows you who you are and brings you happiness. In words of a renowned anthropologist Joseph Campbell: 'Follow your bliss and the Universe will open doors for you where there were only walls.'

If you initiate, if you don't respond and enter into things incorrectly, you get the theme of frustration and want to get out, quit. Your energy is cut off and you end up feeling depleted, tired or frustrated.

There are 2 categories of Generators: (Pure) Generators and Manifesting Generators. The main difference is that Pure Generators work in gradual phases, much like climbing a mountain: going up, things are moving on, until they reach a plateau when nothing seems to be happening. If they didn't begin whatever they are doing out of response, this is the moment when they feel stuck or trapped. However, if they entered into it correctly, eventually an impulse will come from outside and they will resume their work, and start climbing again. Manifesting Generators do things very quickly and are even more tempted to initiate (not waiting for something to respond to). They are very efficient and skip that, which is not important. But in doing so, they also often skip something essential and then they need to go back to it.

If you're a Generator, it's healthy for you to go to bed only when you are exhausted. If you haven't used up your energy, you will have problem falling asleep and will not wake up fresh the next day.

Strategy: Wait to respond ..."

I find affinity with these "Famous Manifesting Generators: ... Clint Eastwood, ... Jimi Hendrix, ... Jaqueline Onassis, ... Vincent Van Gogh."[147]

I've cut back on initiating. I'm determined to wait for life to come to me and then determine whether or not I'm up to responding to that. This has save me much "frustration". I wait "to go to bed only when (I'm) ... exhausted". Doing that has shifted my "days" to longer than 24 hours and that has made life all the more interesting for me.

May 17, 2020 - Continuing with Vincent Van Gogh -

"... in ten short years, Vincent van Gogh produced some 2100 works, including 860 oil paintings, most of which he completed in the last two years of his life.

Vincent was a prolific writer as well, a fine writer. His entire biography is found in his letters to Theo: 1640 pages (significantly condensed in Dear Theo: The Autobiography of Vincent van Gogh). He wanted to share everything: every thought; every image; every spiritual insight; every detail of his surroundings; every new idea about painting, every play of light, every color of the night; every event and escapade. Despite Theo’s devotion—he always responded to Vincent’s letters—and the occasional opportunity to work with other painters, including a relatively long-term collaboration with Gauguin, van Gogh lived largely isolated. Perhaps Vincent couldn’t put his finger on it then, but to the close observer it is plain now: he had no peers. No one else saw what Vincent saw or knew what he knew; this left him alternatingly depressed and incredibly anxious, longing so to be understood."[192]


The source article for the quote immediately above here inspired this Blog-writer to generate and study the Human Design BodyGraph for Van Gogh. His Human Design provides insight to his "incredibly anxious, longing so to be understood." In looking at his BodyGraph this writer was drawn to the channels between the Head Centers (especially Ajna) and the Throat Center (of which there are three). Of the three channels Vincient has one gate activated in Ajna 11. This is a "hanging gate" that "without Gate 56 (he was) under pressure to tell (his) stories, and may (have done) so impulsively without waiting for the right riming."[74]

March 17, 2018 - “The Elite Creation of Reality.”

Upon reading the above: "... in areas of politics, energy, modern medicine, media, money, covert intelligence, the military, religion, science, multinational corporations" I realized my continuous sense of alertness regarding what Jon Rapport calls: "A story that ultimately short-circuits and short-changes what the individual is really capable of."[148] With a sense validation in regards to all the research I have been doing spanning over the past twenty-seven years I think there must be an astrological indication for this in my natal chart. I searched using the keyword of power to identify power signs, planets and houses and semi-conclude that this is going to require more research and study then can be had in a brief search.

August 14, 2019 - How Our Stories Are Made and Unmade -

"... Babies are born without mental structures, although this can’t be a blanket statement, since the potential for complex mental activity is present already in a newborn. But even so, a baby looks at a shoe, a teacup, the walls of its room, and its own hand without naming or knowing what they are. Raw perception is a helpless state until the magic ingredient is added: interpretation. Through brain development and mental development, which go hand in hand, a baby enters the training of perception. Objects get named; their uses are understood; eventually they are mastered. Thus a floating pink blob turns into the baby’s hand, which it names, understands, and learns to use.

Once perception and interpretation are joined, the next stage is to construct a story out of them. Here is where we acquired the enormous freedom to build a self, to give meaning to our lives and participate in the wide world. To take a single example, a piano makes sounds that are meaningless to a baby; then this perception is named as music. Now the perception of sound, interpreted as music, leads to the story of Mozart and the Beatles, with the freedom to either become a musician, enjoy music, ignore music, or have such a tin ear that music is meaningless. Every story can be untangled in the same way to get back to the basics of perception and interpretation.

But life tends to move in the opposite direction. We become more and more entangled in our stories, and in this tangle, we forget how stories are made and unmade. Someone who always votes with a leftist party and cannot abide the views of the rightist party—and vice versa—has become entangled in a construct (politics) that can become all-consuming. If you have zero interest in politics, that entanglement hasn’t snared you, but for certain some other story has. The trick is to stand outside all stories, which is the point of tracing them back to perception and interpretation.

If we become aware of how we’ve created our own stories (with the help of family and society), we can get out of messy entanglements. Going a step further, it’s possible to see where all mental activity comes from, something even more basic than perception. In the Indian tradition, the source of all mental activity is the play of consciousness. This play isn’t mental. Instead, being malleable, consciousness shapes itself at a much more basic level than sensations, images, feelings and thoughts."[177]


This autobiographer has been in a kind of "waiting" mode for the above quote as a reference to his relationship to "story." He knows about being "entangled in our stories." He also had forgotten "how stories are made and unmade." And when his story had "become all-consuming" he thought the only way out of it was through death. Only "if we become aware of how we’ve created our own stories" can we "stand outside all stories."

This autobiographer has been in his "standstill"(i) in presenting his biography as a "story" because his true heart's desire is to disentangle all the stories! He is in the midst of his biographical disentanglement and offers disentanglement support to other autobiographers.

(i) His Human Design Throat Gate 12, known as Standstill.[178]

August 4, 2018 -

Curious to find an article (in the Journal of Ideology)[] regarding whether or not the use of smart phones by millennials and post millennials can be considered as an addiction to social media (or whether the use is simply a "lifestyle") as that inspired me to add it to what I imagined was my previous blog entry on this subject matter however I do not see where I might have blogged this (even though I am reasonably certain I did blog something). Also curious in the same way regarding Solomon's Temple. (My research on this focused on the layout of the temple likened to the body of a man.) After creating a new blog on the temple I then realized these two subject matters have a connection with each other. The central "nexus" is that the heavy use of smart phones has an impact on the body/temple. It forms a "chip body" possibly as an interface between the psyche and the etheric body. It does this whether or not the usage can be determined as an addiction or simply as a lifestyle. The impact is what really matters! The impact is deleterious!

October 21, 2018 - Erickson Psychology -

"Adolescence -
Adolescence begins with puberty and is marked by a person's struggle to find ego identity. It is a time of psychosexual growth, but it is also a period of psychosocial latency. ...The psychosocial crisis of adolescence is identity versus identity confusion. Psychologically healthy individuals emerge from adolescence with a sense of who they are and what they believe; but some identity confusion is normal. The conflict between identity and identity confusion produces fidelity, or faith in some ideological view of the future. Lack of belief in one's own selfhood results in role repudiation, or an inability to bring together one's various self-images.
Young Adulthood -
Young adulthood begins with the acquisition of intimacy at about age 18 ..."[154]

Age 18 is when I smashed my mirror as an expression of my "role repudiation". About six months later I had less than a zero "ideological view of the future".

December 19, 2018 - Exercising The Will With Certain Efforts -

"...Those who want to face all situations must get used to making an effort. Even if these days we can acquire many things without effort, we must resist succumbing to this climate of ease. Otherwise, what will be the result? We will be outwardly fulfilled, and that is all. Inwardly, we will have nothing; we will be empty. Through the efforts they make, human beings remain on their feet and alive."[157]

This is a great footnote number for this entry (immediately above here) because "157" adds up to a 4 which is the number for foundation. Also the "will" (required for efforts) is a function in the Heart Center (Human Design) and that center is the only one of the nine Human Design centers that has four gates.

I remember the last nine months that I was living at home with my family of origin and how increasing difficult my inward state of "emptiness" became for me. What was possibly the most difficult part of that was not knowing that I had a need to care for my inner life. I was virtually clueless in not knowing that I needed to make certain efforts and consequently without those efforts my inward state was in a kind of "free fall" and eventually descended into such significant darkness that I finally became desperate for some kind of resolution even if that meant crossing the threshold of death!

I wonder to what extent Waldorf students in their fourth year of high school are guided into facing "all situations" and getting "used to making an effort". I know at least one graduate with whom I can possibly inquire with on this. In any case the need for "Exercising The Will" (starting at the earliest age-appropriate time in the child's development) is integrated within the Cheeta Hamlet by allowing children to build their own "villages" so they can "remain on their feet and alive."


[1] Zeno - The Course in Human Design v.2 page 59.

[2] The Top 16 Blogs of Che-doctor Jemichel:

#1.) Son of Truth of Self:
[viewed 959,821 times as of January 3, 2016]

#2.) Chef Jemichel:

#3.) Raw Milk: The Whole Truth:

#4.) The Whey, The Truth and The Life:

#5.) Cheeta:

#6.) The U-n-I-Verse:

#7.) Psyche & Health:

#8.) Evolving Nutrition Awareness:

#9.) Raw Goat Milk Magic:

#10.) I Love:

#11.) d Design:

#12.) Transformations With Chef Jemichel:

#13.) Creme de la Creme

#14.) Original Truth of Self:

#15.) Enchanted Garden Onion:

#16.) These Auspicious Times!:

[3] VerDarLuz CelestiOwl











I originally used "essentials of autobiography" as my search terms and that gave me two search results! I'm glad I had the idea of using these terms as "dialogue and reflection" speaks volumes to me! If "dialogue" can also be considered as a "complicated conversation with oneself (as a ‘private’ intellectual)[15] then I can see the "essentials of autobiography" pursued in a series of dyads! Anyone who knows me can probably understand how delighted I may be about the thought of that! ; ~ ) Wow - autobiographical dyads, what a concept! Come to think of it I recall having had some experience of this in my very first enlightenment intensive! The "reflections" that emerged at that time included apocalyptic themes that I related to my experience in "The Church". My seven-year Church-life cycle could be one one entire autobiographical dyad series (ADS)[32].













[27] "There is not merely one conception of the world that can be defended, or justified, but there are twelve. And one must admit that just as many good reasons can be adduced for each and all of them as for any particular one. The world cannot be rightly considered from the one-sided standpoint of one single conception, one single mode of thought; the world discloses itself only to someone who knows that one must look at it from all sides.

Just as the sun — if we go by the Copernican conception of the universe — passes through the signs of the Zodiac in order to illuminate the earth from twelve different points, so we must not adopt one standpoint, the standpoint of Idealism, or Sensationalism, or Phenomenalism, or any other conception of the world with a name of this kind; we must be in a position to go all round the world and accustom ourselves to the twelve different standpoints from which it can be contemplated.

In terms of thought, all twelve standpoints are fully justifiable. For a thinker who can penetrate into the nature of thought, there is not one single conception of the world, but twelve that can be equally justified — so far justified as to permit of equally good reasons being thought out for each of them. There are twelve such justified conceptions of the world."

- See more at:


(See: "Being a contributor...more important than being a hero" at about one third down the page.)




[32] The "autobiographical dyad series" (ADS) and the twelve perspectives (for a most wholistic autobiography) can be coined as ADS-12 or 12-ADS. (All I need now is a recording device with dragon speak (or the like) for the transcription.)












[44] Blind Faith - "Presence Of The Lord" by Eric Clapton:

Comment by notfragile33 at:

Question I've always had is: Why hasn't this song ever been covered by a Christian artist? Why isn't it sung in churches? There is nothing unbiblical about this song at all, compared to others of the era that had questionable lyrics, such as "Spirit In the Sky", "Stairway to Heaven", "My Sweet Lord", and "Jesus is Just Alright". This one is sincere, and I believe, divinely inspired.

More @ You Tube:

[45] /An%20Astrological%20Mandala%20-%20Scorpio%2016-30.htm



Note that Curezone censored the above url because of the last word. Therefore you will need to replace the second "l" with an "i" to get to the page that I have linked)



Pages 10-11 Man's Psychic Life: Elements and Structures.
with the book's excerpt linked from:




[54] In the most recent correspondence I referred to a statement she had made I believe around the time that her younger daughter had crossed the threshold. She said: "I still believe in Jesus". It came to me a number of times since then to ask her what that means to her. I finally was inspired to ask her. If she responds I could possibly refer to the ACIM lesson. I am not making any assumptions about this!













[67] ibid





[72] Human Design System - Love, Direction and Purpose, as seen through Design by Chetan Parkyn

[73] Incarnation Cross Index:
Also at:

[74] The Definitive Book of Human Design by Lynda Bunnell.




[78] The Daily View - International Human #SanDiegoSustainableDesignSymposium inspired many of us. School




[82] "Incarnation Crosses by Profile" - a program of the International Human Design School (IHDS)







[89] The whole crux of the mirror smashing was deeply centered on finally breaking through the outer persona to know the core truth of my inner self.

[90] "The Complete Guide to the Human Design System" (transcribed lectures) by Ra Uru Hu; page 151.



[93] Human Design - Discover The Person You Were Born To Be




[97] "The 64 Human Design Gates" by Karen Curry.
Also here is a nearly identical description at another site:
"Gate 46 is all about the physical embodiment of love. It understands that the body is a vehicle for the soul and is all about movement and living in the body. It is sensual, graceful, experiential, and grounded. People with this energy are deeply present to the body, and we see a lot of yoga teachers, dancers, and even portrait photographers with this energy.

This gate is not about predicting or forecasting. It is not logical. It is the energy of being and experiencing in the body. It is also about giving the soul expression, and this energy can give way to deeply expressive art and movement. This entire channel is about being alive in a purely sensual way. It yearns to move, longs for expression, and holds dear to the responsibilities of commitment that give life meaning.

If you have this energy, you may have a yearning for physical perfection or work as a healer.":











(See: Wednesday, August 30, 2017)

Also the number "108" has special significance in a number of spiritual/religious traditions that I may add to here (when I have more free time).





[113] "Dwarf Planet ERIS in All 12 Houses!— with Heather!"

[114] Sun, Earth, Moon, Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune and Pluto. In addition to these eleven "planetary bodies" the mathematical locations of the Lunar North and South Nodes are also included.

[115] “Curso-Perfiles.pdf”:

[116] "...many chefs who chose non-traditional paths are not recognized or held as highly as traditional chefs.":

I am most certainly on a "non-traditional path" in regards to my work as a chef and as a practical nutritionist. If you read the Culinary Institute article that I have linked immediately above here you'll see one of the non-traditional chef paths "is known as a futurist". I don't think of myself as a "futurist" as it's described (by Irena Chalmers in her book) however I am certainly an idealist!
My ideal is based on a grand "convergence" of direct experiences that have utterly convinced me of superior food ways! To get more of a "taste" of my idealism on this I invite you to visit my other blog: Cheeta that is devoted to the ideal eco-village based upon its own Biodynamic Farm-to-CSK Kitchen: and scroll down a little to entry at: "April 23, 2012".




[120] "Solar Plexus - Emotional Authority ; “There Is No Truth In The Now” - Truth Reveals Itself In Its Fullness Over Time, And Emerges Eventually As A Sense Of Clarity. Patience Is The Key Component In Waiting Out The Emotional Wave Before Making A Decision. Spontaneous Decisions Are Untrustworthy And Not-Self Decisions. The More Time The Better, The Goal Is To Become As Clear As Possible.":

[121] By: Karen Curry and Joyful Mission, Incorporated: 2007,_2010_30hrs_audio.pdf

[122] See this video for the "House" metaphor regarding the six hexagram Lines in the Human Design System:

[123] The Astrology Book: The Encyclopedia of Heavenly Influences; James R Lewis; p. 784.

[124] Search "six of spades" on this page:
and read the first result.

[125] Cards of Your Destiny - The Nine of Diamonds; p. 189







[132] "The luminous ones who would journey to Gaia's assistance agreed to spark each other's remembrance. Thus, these starseeded ones were encoded in many ways with sounds, colours, lights, images, words, and symbols - a vibrational resonance that would assist them in remembering their commitment to the light. It was agreed that these coded clues would appear everywhere: in visionary art and music, in penetrating looks, in speech and feelings - all creating a deep yearning to awaken and become the embodiment of love.":

[133] "On the Threshold of a Dream is the fourth album by The Moody Blues, released in April 1969":









[142] Gene Keys - Unlocking The Higher Purpose Hidden In Your DNA" By Richard Rudd:


[144] See under: "ENERGY" at about half way down this page:


Also noteworthy is the Chiron square Sun aspect:




[149] The specific description for the gate and the line for the day although re: a dated transit:

[150] "An Astrological Mandala: The Cycle of Transformation and Its 360 Symbolic Phases"; A reinterpretation of the Sabian Symbols, presenting them as a contemporary American I Ching - By: Dane Rudhyar, copyrighted in 1973.

[151] "Work On What Has Been Spoiled" - By: Catherine MacCoun:

[152] "Smartphones: Addiction, or Way of Life?" -
Journal of Ideology,
Volume 38 | Number 1,
Smartphones: Addiction, or Way of Life? William E. Thompson 8865136,
Texas A&M University-Commerce, Mica L. Thompson,
Texas A&M University-Commerce,


[154] "Chapter 8 Erikson: Post-Freudian Theory" at Scribd.





[159] Blog: "Cheeta: Cultivate Healing Environments - Enlighten Thru Arts!"

[160] See "Gene Keys" By: Richard Rudd.


[162] In an email titled: "Jill's Wings Of Light"











[173] Omraam Mikhael Aivanhov, Sevres, January 4, 1959:




[177] "How Reality Is Made: The Play of Consciousness", By: Deepak Chopra, MD:

[178] Gate 12 : Standstill - The Gate Of Caution
- The quality of restraint and the importance of meditation and inaction in confronting temptation -
Center: Throat
Quarter: Civilization
Theme: Purpose fulfilled through Form

"The articulate, mutative and moody voice of the Individual is restrained in Gate 12 by a natural caution. This caution keeps you silent until your mood tells you that you really do have something to say, as well as a unique, transformative way of saying it. ... Standing still, or contemplating a unique perception or feeling until in the mood to express it in a creative way, through poetry or music for instance, gives your message time to mature. ..."[74]




[182] The album was first released in May 1969:


[184] "A FUTURE AND A HOPE - Church Life Beyond the Local Church Movement", By: John Myer.:
Accessible at:

[185] “Practical Astrology: A Simple Method of Casting Horoscopes and The Language of the Stars
Easily Comprehended."
By: Comte C. de Saint=Germain.




[189] The Art of Contemplation:

[190] Saint Augustine (354-430) is a Catholic saint and theologian, one of the most important figures in the development of Western Christianity. This passage is published in Easwaran’s spiritual anthologies, “God Makes the Rivers to Flow” and “Timeless Wisdom.”:


[192] "To Be 'Among the Early Risers': Vincent van Gogh’s Painting as Ministry to the Soul," By: Leah Walker" in LILIPOH, Spring 2020.








[200] The "International School of Healing Arts".




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