Day 13 & 14
A little reflection
Date: 10/17/2011 10:24:42 AM ( 10 y ) ... viewed 1147 times
Two weeks in and i am feeling pretty good. My energy levels go up and down, i am getting pretty sick of the juices so might need to add the mc lemonade this week. I know i will make to the end just no chance of quitting now, but it would be nice if i felt a little better. I have not weighed myself which i am pretty happy with, previous fasts i have been obsessed with the weigh ins. I know the weight is going so that is enough. best thing about that is going to the cupboard and being able to fit into more and more things every day. To give some idea i am down a complete dress size. Sunday i ran around the little lake and almost all the way home so that was good. weights etc at home. today i walked around the big lake and some weights etc. i am feeling fitter and stronger looking fwd to increasing this.
Still feeling very low emotionally, not sure whether that is from the fast or just how things are at the moment. It is currently early hours of the morn and i should be asleep but just cant turn my brain off. Feelings of regret about past decisions and confusion about future ones. this is generally not like me. Wondering if the whole turning 40 thing has actually effected me??? I wish i could get the notion out of my head that i should be further ahead in my life than what i am. i mean this in regard to mostly financially but also what i am doing with my life. Financially its pretty ordinary, dont owe anything but dont own anything. that has always been ok with me but lately i am questioning it???? i also think that i should be doing something with my life that means something.I work in an office very unfulfilling job..i need to be working at something that makes a difference. Maybe if i fix that part i might feel more content about the rest of my life. im just not sure how to go about it...i need to form a plan and stick to it. Arggh never been very good at planning....fasting definatly makes you look at yourself. its just a bit scary when what you are looking at you dont particularly like. But i guess that just means room for improvement. Wondering does anyone ever really have this stuff sorted out in their life???? Or are we all suppose to constantly question ourselves??? Checks and balances?? Well if we are i am surely out of balance at the moment!!!
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