Day 5 update
Fasting, Boyfriends, Heavy emotions & Uncertainty.
Date: 10/6/2011 3:11:41 PM ( 10 y ) ... viewed 2287 times
I had to tell my boyfriend about my fasting, he stays with me a few days every fortnight.
Today I have been a little emotionally fragile.
He told me that I would never manage it even past a week. I was hurt. On one hand I wanted to give up, on the other it made me more determined.
He is skeptical about me fasting for any length at all, he doesn't think I can lose all of my excess weight by February on a diet. I've calculated it & I know I can do it, but I guess because I'm FAT that means I'm lazy, unable to change, and will always be disgusting.
I'm not really sure how I'm feeling right now. I just know I need to do this for myself.
I want to give in and have a juice or soup.
I don't want keep fasting and not eat so that I can continue this journey and lose some weight, better myself, rest my body, AND show him that I can do this, that I can continue on to a healthy lifestyle and be done by February.
I wish he was supportive. I guess I am just a little fragile today.
Maybe tomorrow will be better.
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