Date: 7/23/2009 10:17:36 PM ( 10 y ) ... viewed 9157 times
Cut to the chase, I blew it I'm sorry, and I'm soooooooo ashamed. I lasted untill 4:30 this afternoon, then someone who i thought I loved made dinner. It's soooo my fault! I thought I was stong enough, and well prepared! All day all I thought about was pizza, and the banana bread my so called sister made, I don't even like banana bread! Ugh. I wasn't going to write tonight because I was/am too ashamed, but I really want/need this and I don't want to give up on myself. Food isn't worth feeling like this. if i just kept my chompers shut, i could be typing this with more uplifted spirits of succes, but i'm not, and that's my fault. no excuses, just shame, and dissapointment. I'll try again tomorrow, (where have i heard that before...) i just have to be better focused, and perhaps gets some support, i didn't want to tell anyone what i was doing, but i think i might now. Let me tell you though, this blog kept me going strong for a while, knowing that i would have to report to it in the evening and how emberassing that is for a blog like this to start after just the first day knowing that that person quit. I din't want to be like that but hey. I will try harder tomorrow, keep focused, and keep busy so i don't dwell over the thoughts of food.
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