Preparation for Day 1
Mental preparation and reasons for doing this
Date: 5/28/2008 1:53:29 PM ( 13 y ) ... viewed 945 times
Hello everyone! Today marks the eve of my embarkment on a 14- to 20-day water fast. While I have been mentally preparing myself for this adventure for quite some time now, it was not until today that I decided to start a blog. I know that I am very inspired by other peoples' recordings of their experiences, and I would love to share my journey with you. I also think that being accountable to my blog and all of you out there will provide me with a little more motivation when I am finding it difficult to continue.
While some of my motivations for this water fast are common (cleansing, clearer mind, weight loss), there is another strong motivator that I have which is a bit different. I have struggled with several eating disorders for 4 years now, and have gotten better as a result of therapy and medical help. However, I still struggle, and I think that this fast may help me get past some of the problems that still plague me. I know some of you might think that fasting is not healthy for someone with an eating disorder, but my MAIN goal for this is not weight loss. While I am above the desirable weight for my height and build, and weight loss will be a welcome side effect of this experience, what I am really hoping to gain is a new perspective on food. I spend so much of my time and energy on counting calories, restricting, and thinking about food - i think that this will help me see that food, while a necessary and enjoyable thing, should not take center stage in our minds. I hope to gain some freedom from this constant focus on my body and food, and I think that this journey, while difficult, will help me do that. I will not be weighing myself every day, only at the end of the experience. I don't want my focus to be on the scale & on my weight - rather, I want to focus on the other mental & physical sensations that I will be experiencing.
So, with that said, I would really both appreciate and enjoy your support, comments, and shared experiences throughout this process! Also, if there is anyone out there who also struggles with disordered eating and would like to use this blog as a form of support, please feel free to ask me any questions you would like and I will keep in touch with you.
Wish me luck!
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