Day 5 - Something happened today
I lost my hunger.
Date: 4/21/2008 9:46:20 PM ( 14 y ) ... viewed 2083 times
I lost my hunger. Well that's not entirely true. Somewhere between the afternoon/mid evening I finally felt like I was okay. No more obsessing about food which was nice. I hope this lasts, time is really going by quickly though :)
So far I'm REALLY tired by the end of the day, not even tired but DRAINED. I'd like to start working out, like doing some cardio but I don't know if I' have the energy. I really miss my workouts. Its something that I always did daily. But since I started I really don't feel like it. Its been a week since I've worked out. I hope tomorrow I'm feeling better....
Lastly in my devotion this morning, I read in Psalms how much God wants to carry our burdens. How much he cares for us and loves us "unfailing love" is how the psalmist describes it. So I thought about this. How often I feel disconnected from people, how I tend to ruminate on my problems and issues and how they seem so much more life altering than everyone else's. Anwyay, I got to thinking about this and my prayer this morning was to make me more sensitive to the needs of other people so that God's love (unfailing love) can somehow manifest through me to others. There are a lot of lonely, misguided, sad and depressed people out there just wishing someone would care enough to show some interest. If only we could get past our fear of rejection our unconscious selfishness and reach out to others. Pause at somepoint during the day and notice someone. Do they look sad? lonely? bored? tired? happy? What makes us so intimidated that we can't even show an interest in the people we share this space with.
So I have to put forth the effort despite my insecurties and fears to try to connect with others. Maybe in doing so I can start to feel the human connectedness thatshould be innate.
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