Day 4 - Still Hungry!
I need to have faith.....
Date: 4/20/2008 3:49:12 PM ( 14 y ) ... viewed 2181 times
I keep waiting until my hunger goes away but its not. Every day, every morning I feel hungry. I can only imagine what this week will bring. So far I haven't been able to exercise, mainly because I have NO energy. I feel like a log, just dragging myself through the day. Even now, I can only think of taking a nap. That's what I'm going to do.
Another thing is I keep having these negative thoughts that keep telling me I can't do this! At least give myself a chance! Every time I hear them I keep praying to God for strength and protection. I've commit this to God and he's never failed me yet so I know the outcome if I keep relying on me. Yet there's some force out there that doesn't want me to be successful. I can really feel it manifesting in self doubt.
Today I did an exercise in faith. I cleaned out my closet! Mainly I did a flip but I realized I don't wear about 75% of what I own because it doesn't fit! That's depressing because every morning I wake up thinking I have nothing to wear despite having a closet overflowing with clothing that I had to change the hangers from plastic to wire just to squeeze out some more space. So I did a flip! I moved up all my summer clothing (most of which do not fit) to the front, pulled out all of my capri's, skirts, dresses and jeans (all of which do not fit) and moved them to the front of my closet. I'm about to pray over it that in a few weeks everything will fit or at least a lot of them. I need to have faith.....
I'm off to read the bible and take a nap.
**a few good things that I have seen coming out of the fast so far is:
1. I've been more productive case in point - cleaning out my closet today
2. I've been nicer to people around me, despite feeling hungry
3. I'm getting in the habit of praying about everyting, even if i think its stupid
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