2nd day of the cleanse
Understanding my relationship with food = Understanding my relationship with myself
Date: 3/25/2008 1:35:22 AM ( 10 y ) ... viewed 1651 times
Ok, so this is my 2nd day of the Master Cleanse and I am feeling really good. I started yesterday, Easter Sunday, but I didn't find this forum until this morning as I have become completely obsessed with googling all things concerning this fast.
So I decided to do this because I have become increasingly aware that my relationship with food has begun to grow more and more out of control. Over the past couple of years I have found myself eating more and more junk...and it's not that I eat a lot...it's just that when I do, it's always the wrong thing. Fast food and chocolate have become my weakness. And I am noticing that (and I am sure this has to do with me hitting my 30s) my body has been less forgiving of my bad habits because I am starting to gain weight (something that I've never had to worry about before). So I'm hoping to set the proverbial "reset" button on my eating habits.
So anywho, one of my best friends did this fast recently and she said it was the best thing that she's ever done because on top of redefining her relationshiop with food she said she's never felt so good in her life and the mental clarity and enlightenment she experience was beyond explanation. I was like, "I want some of THAT!"
So on to the last two days...yesterday was surprisingly not as hard as I thought it would be. Everything I've read about the juice resolving any actualy hunger is true. I have NOT been hungry. Please understand though that not being hungry does not mean I don't think about food. Those thoughts do come up from time to time but I am realizing that wanting food and needing food are two entirely different things. It's amazing to think that I can go 48 hours drinking what is essentially lemonade and not need any real food from the standard American diet to sustain me. That means that the majority of time that I put food to my lips it is not because I need it, it's because I want it. That is scary and sad.
I did the laxative the first night but I hate it...I'd had experience with something similar to it before (because I have never been regular in that area so I tried it for a few days to get started about a year ago til I had a bad experience...that's a story for another blog) and it makes me have cramps so horrible that I can compare it only to being in labor. And I could barely sleep because the rumblings in my tummy started about an hour after I drank the stupid tea. Anyway, the next morning I did the salt water flush and it wasn't so bad except that I'm not an avid drinker of any liquids so taking in 32 ounces at once is a huge feat for me. And I swear far less than 32 ounces came back out if you know what I mean.
Last night I decided to skip the tea cuz I didn't feel like feeling like I was having another addition to my family and I took a senna pill from a cleansing program I did and did the salt water flush again this morning and had about the same experience this morning, looked like way less came out then went in. I gave myself my first enema this afternoon to flush out whatever may still be there. Who knew I'd ever be this concerned with my bowels but I figure that must be an essential part to all of this. I'm debating whether to do the tea again tonight.
Today and late yesterday I was feeling pretty cold ven though it was in the mid 70s all day today. I sat inside under a big comforter sipping on my tea. I have a really bad taste in my mouth right now. One cool thing is that I feel like my circadian rhythms are becoming fine tuned because generally I have a problem getting myself to go to bed at night and for the past two nights I seem to be getting sleepy when I'm supposed to. Like it's 11:30 pm right now and I feel exhausted...usually I don't get into bed til 1 so this is good. I'm goin to bed. See you tomorrow.
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