What happened to my body?
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Date: 11/11/2007 1:54:36 PM ( 16 y ) ... viewed 2735 times
I guess I should start from the point of my last fast. The last time I fasted I did a Master Cleanse that was supposed to last 14 days. Instead it lasted only 8 days. I gave into temptation and got easily bored with the Master Cleanse drink and SWFs. I decided then and there that I must do it again but I had to find a better way. Also, before I did another fast I would decide what exactly I wanted to accomplish.
So what happened to my body since then?
I gained weight. I am currently at 230 lbs. on a 5'7" frame. I am overweight. I went through a separation with my husband -added stress and stress hormones. My menstruation is out of wack. I went on anti-depressants - wellbutrin XL 150mgs. I eat anything and everything whenever and I have become an insomniac. I recently commented on how much mayo we go through in 1 week, its an absurd amount of mayo. I then reunited with my husband and have tried to put back together the pieces of my life with my husband, 9 year old autistic daughter and 22 month old hyperactive son.
Physically, I am at my heaviest. My body feels sluggish and sloppy. I have no energy and bad body odor without deodorants and odorants. Food is processed slowly and I find myself constantly constipated. I have new acne and very rough dry skin. I don't eat much fruit or vegetables and I do eat a lot of processed food and sugary foods and drinks including soda. I also suffer from PCOS which throws my hormones out of wack and retains every ounce of fat on me. I have also become pre-diabetic. The skin around my neck is darkening, a sign of an imbalance of insulin production.
Mentally, I am back to a normal stress level but during the separation my stress levels were so high I had constant headaches, body pain, insomnia and cravings. I couldn't think clearly and I had a lot of memory loss.
Mommy brain continues to affect me. I have lost a lot of memory and at 25 my memory should be as sharp as a needle. I cannot concentrate on anything I usually zone out or fall asleep. I speak backwards and alot of gibberish. I find myself saying things like, "put the juice back in the bathroom, I mean sink, I mean sofa, I mean fridgadoo, UGGGGHHHH, forget it!!!!!" I don't suffer from any nervous or brain disorders for this to me is a sign of a toxic system.
Its time to clean up shop. I am first going to list what I have in my arsenal of cleaning supplies and then what my goals are. Then after that I am going to create a regimented schedule and implement it. I will blog daily on the effects and changes thereafter. Thank you all for the support.
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