OHHHHHHHH What A long... Weekend 16 y
days have past but i am back on track
I had to miss work yesterday and couldnt post allll weekend cause of my baby. She was really sick. I am feeling really run down. So i am back from a long weekend i dont even know what day i am on ...
I have been really reflective lately having deep thoughts and a sort of depression like feeling. I mean i am trying to focus on God and get closer but this sadness is sort overwhelming. I am going. I am down about 7lbs which is good. It could be better but i havnt drank that much water and havnt done any enemas and havnt ”Gone: I plan on doing one soon.
I start school again for my Mas ... read more
3 Gone and 4th day is here. 16 y
DAY 3 Gown and 4 well on its way...about 26 to go
Well the i am just somber. I dont like this feeling. I want to smile and laught yet somehow i have this look on my face i cant change. I did do some deep thinking then praying yesterday.. I felt myself starting to cleanse spiritually. It was awesome and still then i had my look. This morning i just have this look. I cant wait till it goes away. I will try my best to stay positive.
Well i did some cardio yesterday for 1/2 an hour and then some weights for about 15 mins.. I got a little tired. I drank more water yesterday which kept the headaches away. My pants fit better.
Todays I ... read more
Day 3 16 y
A day closer to my Goal of health.
Well i woke up and i was 5 lbs lighter already.. I am sure its just water..
but it does feel good. Anyway i did have strong cravings today.. This morning dont feel hungry at all.. Really thirsty i didnt drink enough water yesterday and that is KEY!!!!
I plan to do an enema on Friday to cleanse.
did read my bible study yesterday and read the bible. Was soooo tired i didnt pray and this morning i was even more tired. I hope this goes away. I cant wait to experience the need for less sleep this will give me more time in the mornings to pray, read and exercise. I read in many books an ... read more
Day 2 And let all the junk dissapear...Physically and emotionally 16 y
Day 2 has brought forth some emotional pains rather than hunger..
I am trying to stay focused but i get to emotional.. I know this is a emotionally cleaning but i found myself so sad last night and this morning sooooo cranky.. I hate getting like this but i know that if i conquer this and over come my urges to be upset it will develop my character.... OH this flesh is sooooooo :-(
I did my prayer and morning meditation heard some inspirational cd this morning on my way to work and have my gallon of water next to my desk.
I did work out yesterday and my stomach burned and my head ached when i jumped. I have to take it easy. But i will rest today and ... read more
just a confirmation that a new me begins today 16 y
We need to make firm decision that we want change.
Lord, I am broken and hurting due to the brokenness of others and mistakes of my own. Please use Your powers to heal me and give me courage to make the choices I need to make to allow Your healing in my life. Forgive me for standing in Your way of healing for me. Thank You for allowing my past to end one second ago, and my future to begin right now in this moment with you.
Today I choose to heal.
My healing begins right now, in this moment.
I am no longer bound by my sick past.
There is healing in my future.
For the next twenty-four hours, I ch ... read more
spring is here!!! beginning of a new me!! 16 y
The beginning of a new me springs forth today as we enter into a new season, I enter into a new season of life.
Well this weekend i did a short fast but ended slightly last night. But that was just a preparation for my new fast/health journey. These are my plans and my desires during this time.
I Plan on water fasting for 21-30 days...
During this time I want to gain control of my overeating.
Get closer to God, Spend extra time and focus on HIM first.
I do believe God has called me to do this because i was starting to get caught up in the beginnings of an eating disorder and that is not good and would not be of God to be controlled over this. So i want to put this flesh under submission.
I pl ... read more