another day more decisions 9 y
More decisions related to challenges of cancer. SeaBands and Ginger to relieve nauseousness.
Yesterday I thought I had 38 more days of short term disability left but found out I am approved for 98 more days of short term disability. Thank you God. However, if I want to keep my current job I need to go back to work next week and be full time by August 18. I had to create a plan for how I was going to do that and have my oncologist approve it. Not only will he not approve it, the insurance company will not approve it, and the Accommodations Management department at work will not approve it. So after 14 years I am going to need to find another job...that is if I am cured or ever wel ... read more
decisions of a cancer patient 9 y
Cancer patients personal questions about dying, feeling responsible for having disease, and sexual limitations.
I’ve burned through 144 days of short term disability, how the heck did that many days go buy already? You would think that given my prognosis I would be well into a chosen alternative cancer cure protocol. I can provide the excuse that there is so much information out there, and so many different protocols I still have not finished all of the necessary research. I like that excuse.
In the back of my mind, stirring and trying to remain unspoken (or written) is “Do I want to die?” Have I made an unconscious choice or decision to die? I do believe that we create our own existence and exper ... read more