Day Two 16 y
I can't believe in fasting longer than 60 hours any more. Help!
I have horrible feelings of bleakness today and boredom. It is sunny, and the brightness just feels oppressive. I feel like I do not have anything. I just feel so empty. I got a shaming post here that is really upsetting to me. The post said people on the forum were trying to help me but in fact these people were doing no such thing, only taking out their aggressions on me and beating me up for even wanting to fast. It is so not OK with me to get comments like this. I am horrified. What planet is this person on? All responses from others have said that the forum was clearly insane ... read more
i have to fast longer than the first three days 16 y
affirmation; need supporting evidence
i have to fast longer than the first three days/
i need to keep affirming this.
i need really to believe it
i need to gather evidence that it is true!!! visit the page
Saturday, Sept. 15th: Starting FAST!! 16 y
Goal is 8 Days
I just wanted to announce my fast on the forum. I am positive-affirming this fast and as someone else is doing journaling every 2 hours my feelings. I have thi sin a paper notebook but should probably post it all here -- that would be a great document.
I should probably do fasting affirmations every 2 hours too.
I should probably use this space to concentrate and doa real honest pros and cons list for fasting 8 days. People really change when they really examine pros and cons, I read.
Con: I won’t be able to get high on food. No oblivion or comfort.
RESPONS ... read more
Post for Thursday. Sept. 13, 2007: Planning 60Hour Fast 16 y
Trying to find willingness to fast nd to abstain from triggering fooda nd abstain from large meals... feeling unwilling to fast... too tired to fast... run down... but fasting should heal all these things and should be the ideal response i could make to them.
I would like to make a longer fast.
I am sitting here after class has ended. i have eaten ”sugar-free” frozen yogurt today. I expected severe depression but got just moderate panic/depression. my therapist went away today for a long weekend. She didn’t say where.
I am supposed to go rock climbing and I am scared. I hurt the guy’s felings that I am supposed to go with cause I said at first I wanted to go sat and sun but realized i would have to fight for my right to fast during that time (it would not have been dangerous)... and even now it will be hard to conceal my fasting.. spe ... read more
Post for Weds., Sept. 13, 2007 16 y
Review of Food SLamming and DElving into SAdness/Negativity about next fast, and Logistical considerations.
sh*t, wrote one hour and lost post.
Story is: slammed but only 1200 cals today.
Have terror and can’t get positive to do next fast.
Weekend trip rock climbing interfering with fast -- not physically or with danger but socially having to conceal my fasting.
Want to stop being compulsed to eat before bed time ... body cannot handle food... yet I feel entitled to x number of cals per day... so toxic... have to change this thinking... have to learn to wait long times for food if necessary ... have to WAIT overnight instead of feeling oh the day is over and I have to eat NOW or else ... read more