How much time do I have?
When do you know that its over?
When do the thoughts, the temptations give up?
When being alone means your safe to...?
When are you safe being alone with yourself?
What does normal feel like?
How come I can’t be like healthy people?
Why couldn’t I have been a boy?
Why do I hide?
What time is it?
What are they thinking? Do they see? Do they know?
When my family found out why was it worse?
What time is it?
Why is it always tomorrow?
How many excuses can I think of?
Why do I talk to myself so much?
How much time do I have?
Do I have a split person, one anorexic, one obese?
How come its only when people aren’t looking?
Why is it easier when its free?
Twenty is okay as long as I get ride of it, right?
The more I eat the less of a choice I have.
OMG my fat jeans are too tight, what now?
How can one both have so much self-control and then lack it?
Once its gone its gone, yeah?
How long is it going to last this time?
Plenty of liquids makes it easier.
What CAN I binge on that’s safe?
Its okay, its not okay, I could never eat that, I want it.
What time is it?
Can’t I just lock myself in my room until im skinny again?
What's a tape worm? (haha)
Why is it that when you’ve reached your goal, its not your goal anymore and you don’t get to enjoy any of the rewards of being thin because your still in hiding? Then you balloon and all you can think is “I was there.”
Can they hear me?
How much time do I have?
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