Hang in there - you can do it! You've got a great attitude - very in the moment, very strong mentally, and very chill. Just a temporary setback! All y'all who are around food doing this - working in a restaurant or cooking for your family - are exhibiting tremendous self restraint, and I admire each and every one of you, whether you've fallen off MC or not.
But anyway, Bondgirl - if it's flukey with the MC, you'll master it or choose what you want to do accordingly. And if it's a head thing, I've got every faith in you that you'll find it and ultimately push yourself forward armed with that knowledge, however you choose to manifest it!
We're rooting for you - and think you are grand, no matter what!