I did find a woman, who made me feel wanted. And who likes sex as much as I do. I was beginning to think all women didnít like sex. Even though she still had a problem with me being married, she asked me if I wanted to have sex with her. I declined the first time she asked me, but the second time she asked, I said yes. And I donít feel ashamed, or sorry, or guilty about what I did. But I do want to resolve this with my wife. She deserves to know so everything can be out in the open.
I still canít believe this lady wanted someone like me. But Iím trying to figure out what to do now. My wife knows Iím seeing this woman, but not that we had sex. But I donít want to keep having sex with her. Not until I resolve this issue in my life and know what Iím going to do.
But I canít keep putting it off. Either I have to have sex with someone, or I have to put the weight back on. I canít stand having these feelings, and not do something about it. The feelings are just too strong, and painful.