A lot of your depression is, no doubt, coming from household issues, but, if you are able to see all of the filth, corruption, evil, etc. that there is in the world (turns your laughter to tears and your joy to dejection James 4:9), then you are like LOT (whose heart was "sorely vexed" because he saw what was going on around him in Sodom). God spoke very highly of Lot (I think that's Genesis 18). It seems that you have "eyes to see and ears to hear" and see the world as God describes it (Human nature is Human Folly). Satan doesn't want us to understand our depression. There's nothing wrong with you.