You do have the ability to control your drinking and you're doing it now!
It took me 15yrs to realize I had a drinking problem and 15 more to quit! So you're way ahead of me.
Opening your eyes to the reaities of addiction is controlling your addiction ! Perserverence and vigilence is all that is required of you now! Yes "Onward into the Light and the Beauty" a quote from The Bard I believe!
Grog (born in the yeay of the Ox, And a Red Crystal Dragon, my Galactic Signature!)