Yep, that's where I am right now. I broke up with this guy a few weeks back and he seems to be moving on, but I am not. I'm the one who broke up with him! What the hell is wrong with me? I'm so goddamn lonely. I sometimes don't even feel like meeting new people. I just can't seem to be bothered. Sometimes i think I'm depressed, but I know what depression is and it doesn't feel like it used to. I don't know. I don't know what to do with myself.
My ex seems to have moved on and I guess that hurts like a son of a bitch. I mean i don't know for sure, we don't have contact, but from what I hear he's in a better place than I am and that shit hurts. I don't want to be with him, that's not it. I'm just so goddamn lonely and don't feel like I have anyone to talk to or just hang out with.
Now I'm crying, pathetic. I just want to move on and be happy again, but I'm not. Sometimes I get so lonely I almost want to call him which would probably be a huge mistake so i don't. I'm not stupid.
Anyone relate? What do you do when you feel so lonely you could just puke? I'm trying to meet people, but usually I feel like I can't even be bothered to. Any words of wisdom? I need help or just some kind words. Anyone out there? I feel like I'm going to die of loneliness. I hear that can happen.