Your message is so moving and describes so well your pain that I would like to ask your permission to publish your message in our monthly newsletter. I would like other people to learn from your experience.
Maybe my words sound very simple...but I would advise you to ask yourself a question: what are my desires of the heart and did I follow my heart when I did this or that? I believe that in many cases people feel very depressed, when they realize they did not accomplish their mission or true desires. No drugs can cure the discrepancy between your true desires and the desires or ideas that are being forced upon us by some authorities.
God bless you,