When I left my abusive husband, I left the state. That was a big help. But I will tell you, even 20 years later, there are still things that bother me. I have concluded that I will never be 'normal' again. I will get 'close' but that's it.
Whenever I see couples hugging and kissing, I walk away.
Whenever I see pictures of a gas mask, I throw the magazine away.
I hoard a lot. Not as bas as I used to, but I still hoard deodorant, feminine products, toilet tissue and other stuff. I no longer hoard food.
I have a fear of 'being without'. I no longer have bars on my windows. But I do have the security things and a gun and a stun gun.
And I don't let too many people get 'close' to me. I need to stop that. There are people who care, it's just that sometimes we don't open our eyes to see them, or we have scared them off.