chavey,we are looking for that I, and you, you; I mean that I in you, the subject. I myself asked to me that question: who am I, in this morning still at bed.
it is good that you ask for this we can really find that what we want to know.
I am offended at the me, the collective existence as spirit and stupid wasted work for a reason invented out of me and you know we want to clean that from the subject, that I, in peace.
You see, what is taking place? I want to have that "I" without me but as you mentioned the chattering, the criticism of the people coming back as resistance to the freedom of I.
When you are in peace you can have that "I" with joy and alive. I want you that as I want mine. That is what real Love. But that Me is not in peace and we have leaned it not to be in peace because it is separate from I and one has to forgive it and so it stays alive as evil spirit, as forces from the death, the defense as duty but not to that "I" as part of the real whole.
we will clean that when we do not make use of bad energy to do more evil to serve the lie, the opposite in us.