I have for the last 12 years had extremely poor social skills and just generally am a totally reclusive individual with little personality. But it became much much worse in the last year of high school and during college.
At the same time, I had trouble doing math and understanding numbers and personal financing. But I was just so ridiculously intelligent, that even with a possible Candida Infection
or something like it, there was too much I was still able to do, and I did not understand how serious my illness was, nor was it even addressed, I did not see doctors, could not get help, etc
I knew I had trouble organizing and communicating my thoughts and remembering a lot of advanced college work as soon as I headed back to college 2 years ago when I was 20. But the information was in my head and caffeine seemed to let me use it plus it allowed me to interact in public, classes etc. Consequently, I became dependent on nodos and 5 hour energy drinks intermittently over the next 2 years. I eventually replaced the nodos with yerba mate. But this became much more difficult in August.
I always had these problems to a degree, but just not so disablingly severe since the beginning of about August. I for the longest could not understand that the social impairment, the cognitive impairment, and mental fatigue, anxiety, depression, paranoia, were all one in the same. They are all caused by whatever makes me physically tired, some sort of condition immune or otherwise, likely viruses and nuerotoxins/metals. As long as I have no capacity for exercise, these all get worse. And of course whatever triggers IBS makes them worse, and any food allergies such as dairy or gluten.
Six months ago and lasting up until about a month ago I took a great deal of Schizandra, Cordyceps, and Rhodiola starting 7 months ago. I took Frankincense, Triphala, Ashwaganda, Tribulus, Gingko, and Mucuna Pruriens as well, all at the same time, with other vitamins/minerals etc. I was also taking Panax Ginsing.
I remember the day I got the headache in my temple back in September was like a day after I had mixed together a really strong cocoa/ginseng/cordycep/rhodiola/yerba mate tea and had am extremely severe IBS attack. I just remember not feeling like I was gonna be OK because of how severe I was shaking. I felt like someone had took a cow prod or tazer to my brain.
So any one of those herbs could have really messed me up, and they were all psychotropics. Some of them even said on the bottle not to take if you were prone to seizures etc, which I did not know I was. But the thing that started to make my digestion and morning energy levels so severe over a year ago was me taking fish pills. I would feel so dull the next morning after taking them. I believe they made it to where I could barely even wholly digest food. I found evidence that they suppress inflammation by suppressing the immune system. At the same time however, some of those herbs like aswhaganda cause hyperthyroidism and increase the immune system and decrease inflammation.
So I am very very confused, and I know I cannot handle a juice fast or calorie restriction for long, but ultimately I must go on mostly vegetarian meal, because of how degenerative to health excess meat consumption is, and I know in order to detox the headache and fatigue, and induce my body into producing more thyroid and growth hormone, I have to liquid juice fast. Juice fasting takes a huge burden off your body initially. But the diet challenge remains and issue. My body needs herbs, but not the wrong ones. I need food, but not so much in the immediate time, with this level of immune problems and physical/mental fatigue, it needs to not be burdened with waste and digestion.