I believe that what you have "discovered" is so insightful that you
don't give yourself enough acclaim for what you have written. Denial is
the biggest block by far to any healing, physical or spiritual/emotional.
It wasn't until I turned to meditation that I began to recognize how much
self hate that I had within my own spiritual energy system. It wasn't
until meditation that I learned that god's love of each and everyone of us is
there in spite of what we are programmed to believe in our society. Anyone
can turn within and experience that love and one on one communication with the
With meditation I have let go of deep depression, many thoughts of suicide,
and a rich and rewarding life even though I've never achieved former
"goals" of wealth and acceptance by others - and never will, and in
fact don't "need" to. Though love from relationships are nice it
is often through our erroneous belief that we have to have one and do anything
including the destruction of ourselves to get one that we destroy the real inner
self. One can have a loving relationship and learn to grow through mutual
love and still have a wholesome self in the process yet that isn't required to
love one's self.
In the process of spiritual healing through meditation - which through
research has been proven beneficial in healing the body, there are many physical
ills that completely disappear.
Each and everyone of us are god's creation - in his/her image. Now is
the time to recognize that fact.