Firstly, i want to congratulate you on your 'blessing' and share with you the enjoyment of carrying and having my 1st and ONLY child. I had the same thoughts when the relationship went sour in 1st trimester; (you are not alone, it's natural). But you have to seperate it from the inconsistencies in your relationship. Use your unborn child FOR STRENGTH!! HAPPINESS!! Remember: he or she is a 'gift' embrace the 'gift' you deserve, bond with it and be at peace. I had an abortion in highschool (I would never use it as a form of birth control 2day...esp since I am able). I was also married (recently divorced) for 8yrs. HE CHEATED!!! He had alot of hurt in his past I THOUGH I COULD FIX!! (don't let this happen to you). I realize yours have a behavior/medical condition...but don't use it as an excuse for his actions. HE has to want the help 1st! U cannot do it alone and don't attempt to. Depending on your religion: 1. you can attempt to save your marriage spiritually 2. Make a decision what's best for you and the baby and STAND BY IT!! i know i know you want to be with the father of your child (BEEN THERE DONE THAT!!!)...I was, worked hard sometimes 2gether most of the time ALONE!! Do what's BEST for YOU & CHILD!!! Until he decides to HELP HIMSELF 1st!!!