Kakiebaby, I know how you feel. I'm not even able to start a sexual relationship with anyone at this point. I'm so gun shy and I really don't feel ready to talk about these issues with a potential boyfriend and so I just keep any posibility of a relationship at arm's length. I definately appreciate the advice of all the posters here and will try a natural doctor. I'm also considering mms (though I need to learn more about it) and humaworm cleanses (I'm not sure which cleanse I should address first or even whether or not it would go with the mms).