thanks for your message. I have only just now read it. I really appreciate your writing.
I am pretty demoralized by things people said to and about me a little while ago but fasting continues to be the first priority in my life. It is my healing path. So I read the forum here. I have not been posting because I have been intimidated. I feel defeated and hurt by how I was talked to and told not to post. I feel really sad about losing this support. I do not know how to make myself heard or understood. I feel really vulnerable. I am scared to moderate what I say because that seems too vulnerable, and wrong. I do not know how to get past the people that told me not to post what was going on. I feel that the mental processes and emotional processes are as important as the physical processes. The physical part is almost easy for me. It is the mental-emotional part that is defeating me. Despite my discouragement and feelings of abandonment, rejection, scapegoating, public shaming, and humiliation, the main thing is that I just need to fast -- I know this and have been advised to by professionals -- and need support. I just need to learn how to do it. I need to break through the difficulties I have in fasting beyond 2-3 days. Please email. I am trying to start a three-day fast as of this afternoon at 5 pm (Sunday). - Lauray
** please note - I was referring in this message to incidents on another forum.