After reading many of your stories, I can't ever imagine what pain many of you have and are going through. I've typed and deleted this message so many times, it feels like "luxury" problems, compared to many other experiences. I hope you'll have an open heart, because I didn't know where to turn. I need to understand what happened, some advice if possible or if this is not the place, where I could turn then.
I'm having trouble defining what happened. I was with one of my very good friends. We've always talked about everything, I trusted him with my life. I've never been attracted to him and didn't think he was attracted to me either. One evening after school we made dinner, like I do with a lot of my friends, and had a glass of wine with the food. Then we had another glass and another and so on. I was wasted at the end of the evening and remember us dancing the robot dance to some music. From this to waking up the in the morning, naked, I didn't have a clue what had happened. My mind was completely blank.
Now a couple of weeks later I have flashes of a faint kiss at the dinner table, of him standing above me in the bed with an erect penis. And another flash when he seemed very unhappy with me bleeding. I remember me crying and going to the bathroom wearing my dress. That's all. I woke up completely naked, he slapped me on the bottom and kissed me before he left. I was so confused, I didn't remember a single thing. There was blood in my bed, I sincerely though that I had gotten my period early and forgot to use a tampon. That was not the case. The day after I receive a message, he was asking if I had found the condom. I told him to call me and asked what the hell he was talking about. He sounded offended asking if I didn't remember, and when I said no, he asked if I was shitting him. He told me that we used a condom to begin with - where this condom has come from, I have no idea, and I don't know when he or we proceeded to have sex without it. I'm very conscious about using a condom, very careful to avoid STDs. He made me apologize for punching him in the face, biting his lower lip so hard that my teeth dug into his lip leaving two bloody holes from my front teeth. He told me I was wild in bed.
I do like sex and I do like variations, but I have never ever before had sex that rough or ever fantasized about it. That's also one of the things that make this whole experience so uncomfortable. I don't remember anything, I feel so guilty, so dirty, so used and worn and I feel so exploited. I stopped talking to him, he didn't understand why, asked why I wasn't as accommodating and friendly as usual, if he demanded too much attention or if I was stressed. As we study at the same university and hang out with the same friends, I didn't want this to be a big deal and told him how I felt, how uncomfortable it was not to remember what had happened. He said shit happens. I told him I didn't want to be his friend anymore, I didn't want to talk to him more than necessary, taking into account our group of friends. I didn't and still do not want them to know what happened. He said that he understood and seemed a little bit sad that we couldn't be friends. I thought he understood. A half hour later he wrote a message asking what I was doing, if we should study together, if I wanted to see a movie or make dinner after school the next day and so on. He shows up wherever I'm sitting when studying, lunch breaks, and parties. He's always around, always writing messages, every day, like nothing has happened even when I don't reply. I truly find him disgusting, and get nauseous and anxious when he's around. Sometimes when we're all talking a lunchbreak he throws some comments about me like "oh she's definitely not passive aggressive" hinting to the sex. And nobody gets what he is talking about - except me. And finally I see through that 'charming' smile of his and waiting for the bomb to drop.
My problem is that I don't know what happened, I don't know if I was willing, if I acted along or I was passed out, if I said no or did anything. It's killing me. And I don't know what to do about this guy, how in the world can I make him stay away without everybody knowing what happened. I'm a mess, I can't focus, I'm nauseous, so tired, and my emotions vary from explosive anger and sadness to complete numbness. I haven't experienced this state of being since I was a little girl with a drunk father and cowered of a mother. I have no control. Don't misunderstand me, I function real properly at the university and with friends, laughing and cracking jokes. I just need to know if I was raped or if I was in on it. To know what happened, to make him leave me alone. It doesn't seem like he thinks he did anything wrong, no matter what I tell him. I just need to find a way to move on.
Sounds like he is the only one who knows what really happened.
Is there a possibility that something was added to that wine to make you pass out ?
Date rape drug ?
How many empty bottles of wine did you find in the morning ?
How many bottles of wine did you have at home ?
These answers may bring you closer to the truth ...
Anyway, any man who takes advantage of a drunk girl is a predator, rapist, and believe me there are many, as that is considered the easiest way to get sex from a girl who usually would not even consider having sex with the same man.
I hope you have learned something from this.
I hope you learned that when it comes to drinking, your ability to control yourself is so poor that you should never drink again in a company of a single man.
As time goes, you will remember more an more.
Write down his version of the story.
Compare it with your own.
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Hello, I am 23 years old. I met my first boyfriend when I was 19. He took everything from me. My virginity, innocence , and self respect. Last night he beat me up for the 25th time and I feel worse than I have ever felt. We are not together or living together but I gave in and went to see him. He pulled my hair out bruised my face and hit my leg with a broom stick. I recently was admitted to mental health because I was so emotionally tired from his abuse and lies. I don't want to blame all of my problems on him but I know that he has a great contribution. It has been a while since I've been assaulted which is why I feel so bad about this time around. I am hiding from my family and I hate myself
I am 23, as well, and a guy, and #461 is right. The worst thing you can do is stay in vitctim mentality, and I can speak from personal experience regarding its addictive properties.
Put as much distance between you and your ex (I hope he is now your ex) as much as possible. You deserve nothing less than peace, love, safety, and security. You are not the dangerous one. Your only fault is continuing to have any relations with him out of a lack of respect for yourself. You are better than this.
I have a coconut tool which is a handle with a stainless steel cutter which you twist into the eyes on the coconut. The biggest problem is that the stainless steel cutter is frequently too big for the smaller coconuts and it is damn difficult to get it into them. I found a drill works better for smaller coconuts. Empty the coconut water, I keep that and then bake the coconut in the oven for an hour. Then it can be easily cracked open and the shell comes away from the flesh quite easily.
Without baking it's a real pain getting the flesh away from the shell.
Has anyone found an effective RX alternative to the albendazole & praziquantel protocol for tapeworm? Possibly an alternative that combats drug resistance?
I am currently in my third round, but have yet to eliminate this worm. Though I feel better while on the albenza/prazi, the stomach pains, internal wiggling/twitching, and proglottids have never ceased. When I finish a round, the symptoms come back in full force.
I did many more than 10 rounds with the same issue. They just never went away. I was so sick and physically and emotionally depleted I felt I was having trouble going on.
I decided to rescue my body by giving it all the appropriate nutrition. Vitamins, minerals, amino acids,oils etc. It had dawned on me why Doctors don't believe in or know how to treat parasites. If the the body has all it's nutritional needs met it will fight the parasites with the immune system. A body that is not nutritionally sound cannot fight parasites even with meds.
Also, I had parasites so long and couldn't get help that they invaded every part of my body.
So I started taking vitamins and minerals. I only added one at a time so I could keep track of what was happening. You have to start with the basics because other vits don't work without the basics.
Iodoral w/B2,B3 A-D-C- Omega 3 was the start.
Lots of probiotics and an enzyme complex with every meal. The immune system is based in gut health. Added many others since. The biggest difference came when I made a conscious effort to get sufficient Potassium from food.
I still have parasites but now when I take meds I can really feel them working and everything is much better. I am confident now that eventually I will be able to eradicate the parasites. All the meds are designed to work with a nutritionally complete body. It's the model that drug designers use to create the meds.
I get it now. There is not enough emphasis on being nutritionally complete. We just assume we are getting everything we need from our food.
I admit I read that several times on CZ but did not believe it, but it's true. I paid for my ignorance.
PH is always a constant for blood. If not, you would be dead, blood PH only changes by a fraction, every body process will work to keep PH normal, first the body dumps potassium, magnesium, calcium, then it eats your bones to maintain PH.
Peripheral PH is taken on the tongue first thing in the morning using litmus paper. There are kits. It measures a psudo status of your enzyme system. PH 7 is 100% enzyme system function. PH6 is 10% enzyme system function, PH5 is 1% enzyme function.
Get a hair analysis to determine your mineral and metal status. There can be no treatment without a body in balance.
I do not suggest you start any protocol, including mine, unless you know what you are fighting.
The document deals with a systemic fluke infection, that is life and death, and demonstrate the elements required to win.
Many have used the formula for systemic infections. You know you have a systemic fluke infection, when dead rolled up flukes exit your skin, or you get electrical zaps in the back side of the brain. Liver function falls off a cliff. Processing 1 ounce of booze can take 24 hours. Some people turn yellow.
Many have tried the formula for visually identified flatworm infections, including complicated brain infections, with success. It hits flat, and some round worm stages hard. Several persons with brain infections found the formula and the dosing to be about right. Several try doing less PZQ and fail the first time. In total depending on weight, the PZQ used can tally up to 300 Grams, and take 60 days to complete.
The dosing levels and duration are intended for clearing a systemic infection, not for a GI ache, or things easily cleared by simpler means.
If you have a complicated infection, like a complicated roundworm infection, in order to clear the flukes, you may need to suppress roundworm eggs, using Piperazine, DEC, Papain, or other elements.
Keeping a roundworm infection under control, while you deal with a flatworm infection, takes a little bit of doing.
Your peripheral PH you can check easily from urine and saliva. Easier from saliva. You need to order the PH strips (or buy @ pharmacy) and put it under your tongue first thing in the morning for a few seconds. Before you eat or drink, when you wake up.ideally it should be 6,5 min but best 7.
This should work for all flatworms. Takes a bit of preparations but works really well (for me).
Vit D and calcium has been researched and experimented with, incl Mattk3 and some others.i am yet to do this.