I am sorry you are in this bad place. I can relate to the overwhelmed feelings and the anxiety.
Recuring bladder infections involve both systemic yeast and bacteria. Your bladder infections might be also due to yeast and not bacteria at all.
I had a practitioner recommend a product called Syclovir to me. It is a yeast eating plankton and silica product. It works on the intestines and then pulls yeast out of other areas of the body. Even sinuses are much more clear now.
Protocol also calls for 2 -3 caps of Intefase Plus on an empty stomach to break open biofilm that yeast might be in. THen follow about 1/2 hour later with Syclovir.
He said if I did this, alot my candida would be gone in about 2 months. Sounds too simple. I am also on the candida diet. You cannot cheat, since eating anything that feeds yeast also causes lots of gas and bloating on this product!
Must have broke open a biofilm formed in my bladder after years of repeated infection and antibiotics. Trying to get over it without antibiotcs. Found websites that recommended repeated doses of apple cider vinegar = 2 T on the hour with lots of water, or Baking Soda, same regimen, to alkalinize the urine and make it unsuitable for the bacteria.
It seems to be working. Been up all night. 12 hours later, much better. Also I am nebulizing a silver product called Molecula Silver. 1 t as often as I can sit down for a few minutes. Goes to lungs and into bloodstream. Also taking 2T CS every 2 - 3 hours on top of nebulizing. Going to keep this up for about 5 days. ANother website told of a person clearing up bladder infection in 5 days on CS. Actually used lab to document 3 strains of bacteria gone.
FOr good measure, I am using D-Mannose. Its a habit. Most of my infections go away with only D-Mannose. BUt not this one.
Another website has a testimony of a woman taking CS 2T every hour with a bladder infection. And it worked.
I am going to go to Vitamin Shoppe to buy some capsicum (cayenne pepper)since that herb as I have found, is recommended by a few sites as a builder of bladder lining (stomach as well).
Hope this helps.