Ok here is my sad- sort of long - story. I am 31 and have only been with two people. The first one wasn't my choice and the second one was because I had a short period of doubting God and I was messed up over the first thing. Also the guy claimed to be a Christian who wanted to marry me but said he would never marry someone who he had not had sex with. That was really dumb of me and I felt horrible about it, but I knew it was wrong the whole time. I eventually could not continue with what my spirit knew was a wrong realationship. I started reading my Bible every day and praying. I was listening to Christian tapes etc. and doing very well. I have a job traveling non-stop and a year ago I went to hang out with some people I knew and eat dinner at an Irish place down the road from the hotel we were all staying at. I let a man I vaugly knew walk me back because I wasn't feeling well after having a surgery and wanted to leave early. I thought it would be safer. He wouldn't leave my hotel room and just kept at me even though I told him I didn't want to do anything. We didn't have actual sex but we messed around and the next day I got a rash. I am pretty sure it's herpes because it reappears. I just figured out what it was from reading stuff on the internet but it really can't be anything else. It fits the syptoms well. I don't know why I didn't kick him or hit him or be mean enough to get rid of him. I told him I didn't want to do anything but I felt powerless to be mean to him and call security. I had two men in my childhood that tried to molest me and I remember this feeling of suffocating and like I had to be nice to them to try to worm out of the situation and for the most part I came out better than what it could have been by being aggresive which I think would have made it worse. I think that may have been the case here. Anyway, I am single, I don't believe in sex before marraige and never have. I am scared to death because I don't want to get tested because I don't think I can handle it being official and who knows if I could have HIV from this jerk. I've since found out he had a wife and a pregnant g/f at the time! I've read about healing in the Bible but I've never heard of anyone getting healed of herpes. I also could have gotten it from blood exposure on my job but at any rate I guess I deserve it for ever having sex outside marraige but if God has forgiven me may be He will heal me? I don't think any Christian guys would want to marry me now anyway. My head is all messed up. I had become so very stable and well adjusted before this whole mess. I was really truly happy and content. It's weird how satan can hit you really good at just the right time in the right way to totally mess your life up. Any advice or thoughts would be great.
God can and does heal many different illnesses. But, we also must be ready for consequences that follow our choices. As we repent, which is not only to be sorry but to turn from sin, He forgives us our sin. For that I am so thankful.
As far as the healing of all physical, mental, and emotional sicknesses, diseases, and ailments, miraculous healings of that nature are not being performed by God today. Miraculous healings of that nature are yet to be in mankind's coming history (Revelation 21:4,5; Isaiah 33:24) In the past when Jesus performed miraculous cures and healings, he did so to show what God's Kingdom of the heavens would do on a much larger earthwide scale.
Right now a spiritual healing or "cure" is going on by Jesus' faithful disciples earthwide in over 230 lands, by means of accurate knowledge from God's Word the Bible. This Bible education being taught is life-saving and life changing because it gives people a real hope and a bright future (Jeremiah 29:11)
Thanks for your message of hope. It's been a year since this has happened and I haven't touched a man since then. I am very dedicated to no sex of any kind outside marriage-even if that means never again. I'm trying to not even think lustful thoughts. Actually, I was then as well it just blind sided me. Satan really knew exactly how to get me where I was weak. It's so hard for me to be blatently mean because I'm so afraid of being rude or someone not liking me. Usually just saying no I don't want to do this is enough. I've been kicking myself sooooo hard. I just keep replaying it in my mind thinking "Why can't I just be mean enough to make him go away? Why didn't I hit him?". I wanted to do what was right. I know I need to leave it in the past. There is no such thing as 'what if'. I was doing well for a while until my health came into play. I believe what you are saying. Jesus forgave two adulterous women that I can think of in the Bible and many times when He healed He forgave their sins as well which leads me to believe He will heal me since He has forgiven me and I am not living in sin and don't intend to ever again. The first healing Jesus did that I came across was a skin disease as well. I would love to have a good Christian husband but I don't even want to think about dating because I coudln't bear telling anyone or hurting anyone. I know God has the ability to heal I guess I'm just not too confident about my end of the deal. I also read in a hand out from the 700 club that God is not required or obligated to heal. I know that the Bible says that God will supply all my needs according to His riches in glory and I wish I could totally not worry about this but I've always wanted a Chrstian husband. It's not that I'm desperate to get married and I don't mind waiting for a long time (I'm 31 now). I just am so confused and it seems like so many of my friends have sex all the time and make no effort to do what is right and nothing has happened to them. I'm going to try really hard to only think on Him and meditate in the word. The fear monster is after me BIG time. I feel like I have a black cloud of terror over me. It's suffocating.
Ok sorry so long.
Thanks for the messages everyone. :-) I hope I can still do something to serve Him after this.
I am leaving work for the day so here is a very quick exhortation!
God loves you no matter what...and when you confess your sins and repent (turn) from sinful behavior - He is faithful and just to forgive you and cleanse you! You may have to suffer the consequences, but this does not mean that you must suffer with guilt or condemnation. If the symptoms continue, make sure of what you are dealing with and then take the necessary steps to take care of yourself spiritually, emotionally and physically.
We all miss the mark - we must forgive ourselves and allow God to do His redemptive work in us.
make your own or it will cost you a fortune. you need to take a lot of it in order to get to where the viruses are hiding. it can be used internally and externally.
whaen peter and james said "silver and gold have we none" i believe it was more than money that was being talked about. they are a gift from god and they promote healing. greedy people try to keep it from the rest of us.