I recently realized that after following a candida diet for a few years, most of my symptoms have diminished. EVen though a lot of my health symptoms are better... I keep doing the diet because I am haunted by what I believed to be ''foggy brain''.
But I 'm starting to wonder if there's more to it than that, and if it's possible that the troublesome thoughts I have been experiencing were a result of something else more serious being wrong with my brain, and that the stress of trying to control these thoughts is what lead to my body's susceptibility to getting candida overgrowth.
Here it is.. me letting out the troublesome thoughts I've had since puberty. I thought they'd leave, but they haven't.
- constant fear that my father would rape me/attack me/touch me inappropriately
-constant fear that my mother would rape me/attack me/touch me inappropriately
-lack of trust in myself as I had an irrational/uncomfortable and monstrous urge to rape/attack innocent people/things myself
-uncalled for attraction (uncontrollable) to family members like mom, dad, siblings.
The reason I am starting to think that this is more than candida is because I did some reasearch and found that if a tumour is growing the parts of your brain responsible for emitting sexua| responses, the above thoughts can result.
Has anyone had these sorts of messed up thoughts from candia themselves? I understand how personal this is. I am so stressed out by these thoughts that won't leave and wonder if they're normal or not. Please let me know. I was hoping cleaning the candida would clear them away, but they seem to have come before the candida was an apparent issue.
Please know that I am a very responsible person who has always known right from wrong. I just feel like I'm constantly trying to ward off a monster, and as a child things never used to be this way.
I am also scared to say anything to anyone because there are mental issues on one of my parent's sides of the family. I do not have things as severely as they did, but I don't know what to do or who to turn to. I don't want to tell my doctor and be looked at as crazy, and I don't want my future career aspirations which center around nurturing to be stripped from me, because of these disturbing thoughts.
Alongside the thoughts I have a bipolar sex drive, meaning I will like some one and be attracted to them for a short while, but will then become drastically indifferent to them and not care about them in the slightest. I seem to have a sense of indifference at times towards the well being of everything.
I have more heart strength that brain strength so I can combat the thoughts. But I really don't want to have to actively fight them on a daily basis if they are not normal, and treatment in some capacity does exist.
So my quesiton to you is this. Are these thoughts a typical result of candida? Or should I be brave and fess up to my doctor so I can get tests done to see what's going on. I just don't want my family to know of these thoughts.
Emotional problems are not uncommon with candida, but each person would likely have different emotional issues.
If you are concerned about a brain tumor, then I would suggest you get an x-ray done.
I would also consider that you may have an underlying issue causing these emotional problems and candida. In my case it was heavy metal toxicity (for me it was mercury from silver fillings). There are a variety of metals and a variety of sources. It's possible you are suffering from a similar problem.
How would I go about gretting my metal levels tested?
Do you think I should then speak to my doctor about my troublesome thoughts and have some tests done to see where the thoughts are coming from? I might add that on a daily basis I often feel sexually congested too. It's almost as if my sexua| energy is blocked and then comes out in vulgur, repressed ways.
Maybe I need to have my reproductive tract examined.
I'm assuming then that these thoughts aren't typical thoughts that people experience on a day to day basis?Since puberty I sort of told myself that these thoughts were just part of being an adult, and came with having to handle ''big people'' issues.
Sounds like symptoms of OCD to me. Not in the traditional sense of the word either. I mean you are having obsessive thoughts about things or situations that you know deep down you don't agree with. Since "coming down" with candida sickness I have felt slightly similar trains of thought. I do believe OCD like symptoms are a part of this illness.
All that said, if you really think something's under your skull you should definitely get it checked out. No matter the outcome you can get that stressor off your mind. Hope this helped.
You can ask your doctor about heavy metal tests, but I will tell you that the tests are unreliable at best. I suggest you do a little research about heavy metals and consider possible exposure to them (while keeping in mind all the unknown possible sources of exposure). In my case my trouble came as the result of mercury from my silver fillings. That is the most obvious first question for you to consider. Do you have or have you ever had silver fillings?
I suggest you google a list of commonly described heavy metal symptoms and see if you have many of them. The symptoms are extremely variable, so don't expect to have all of them, all at once.
If metals seem to make sense in your case, then you should replace silver fillings if you have them and consider ways to chelate the metals out of your body.
Hello, I am new on here and I want to applaud your courage for sharing such deep intimate moments and for seeking relief. I, too, have had thoughts unbecoming since I was little and have bee fighting to keep the purity within me as I felt the thoughts were definitely not of my doing nor did I create them. I have been recently diagnosed with two brain tumors and I do believe candida and nano bacteria are very serious factors associated, but also some brain trauma also contributes. I also feel some taboo things too, like I am dealing with past life shadows and haunts of pain and grief carried on in my families lineage. I feel shadows or haunted spirits have come through me, trying to be relived in my thoughts via fear and suffering, and what a better place, than one that can harbor these beings, that is not clean and healthy? This is my workings and what I am doing, for I have learned I am an open conduit for such beings as a result of traumatic events that have happened in my life and had cracked my auric field. It sounds crazy and it kinda is, but I have been working to clear my body, mind, spirit and bring the darkness to light as well as making a clear vessel for light only. I can see that being open and aware of triggers that have occurred in my life that caused big pain and other events that remind me in the slightest will fuel this dark energy because I have yet to heal and release it on all levels and this means on a cellular level too. The data went into me and it needs to be released in grief ceremony and many other healthy means and to do time life regression on myself and feel out and realize when the first effect was and to go back there and heal it. Please take no offense, but have you maybe had a trauma, by close family member or friend that you do not remember and maybe you, on another level blame parents for not protecting? I am just making a guess not trying to explain anything for you, for this is for you to do as your own personal healer. I look forward to further chats if you desire..I am working very deeply in the spirit realms as well as the physical and emotional and of course doing my best in the psychological as I discern where I end and other energies begin. Perhaps you are channeling other information around you as well as processing way more other things...it is complex yet kinda simple...peace