that' really scarey (that it could be indefinite). i feel so juvenile, you would think his nonresponsiveness/desire to call or get in touch with me, would make me 'stronger' and/or angrier. but it doesn't! i have some good faith fulfilled days, occupied constantly and even went on a date or two. i have an ex-boyfriend who 'sounds' interested and even shows that he is. but it's n.o.t. (him). i know i have to heal first (but have to be willing bla bla bla). but it's just not easy.
again, i know i expected tooo much when we met/reunited; but, it was the same for me. the sad part is-i had no boundaries (usually do always). i was thinking he's safe oh yeah,,this is familiar ground *we know one another*. i really thought if it didn't work out or we werent' compatible, atleast we could be in eachother's lives (as friends)...i always have wished the best for him. but, ( on his end ), i guess he felt that if we didn't work out >>no call, no interest, no contact<<. i did not give him the pleasure of allowing him to see my pain, when he left. but, i'm so sick inside. i know he's probably not right for me, but it would atleast feel better knowing that he attempted to come back (whether friends or not), i would feel like 'maybe he did care'. even if i didn't take him back-it means alot knowing that he did care. it hurts knowing that he didn't.