Thank you for your kind replies.
Yes I am suffering emotionally, I don't see how I could not. to be honest this is a living nightmare, i can't see how anything could be worse besides being terminal.
I wouldn't wish this curse on my worst enemy, and sometimes I do genuinely think it's a curse. I don't know what I did to deserve it, either.
It just seems to get worse and worse, no matter what I try.
Today I needed to go to town so I got the train. Fine on the way down as it was quiet, then on the way back a bunch of schoolgirls got on.
They were literally spraying perfume at me.
Was just horrible. I could do nothing but keep my head down and pretend I didn't notice.
I'm currently trying charcoal and chlorophyll which is doing nothing. There is slightly less odor from my BMs but i have noticed nothing positive about my general BO. It really is a nightamre situation. I just spend all day playing videogames and watching movies.
I really wish I was out there forging a career or travelling but my problem is the antithesis for doing these things. People just think your scum. As soon as the smell hits they just resign themselves to thinking you're a lowlife, no matter who they are.
As I said, I would take almost any other condition than this.
The odd thing is I can never smell anything off my shirts. I put my head under my shirt and take a deep breath and it smells fine. I can smell my socks when my feet sweat which is normal for most people and I can smell my briefs but I can never smell "the main odor". Somethings if i leave my room and go back in quickly I can get a faint bad smell.
The only person I get into a car with would be my sister and of course the air conditioning goes up fully and windows go down. It's so humiliating it's hard to put into words. I outright make excuses if she offers me a lift as i don't want to smell her out and face the humiliation again.
It's the same if I was really stuck and needed a cab. Windows down and a deathly silence for the journey. No one wants to converse with a stinker.
Sometimes I think I brought this on myself from drinking. If it's one thing that makes me smell even worse it's beer. However I got my liver tested and it's fine apparently.
I sometimes wonder if it's just coming out of my mouth but then I smell my bath towels, and also i had a leather chair then just smelled disgusting. It was just me sitting on it and it smelled fine when i got it. I had to get rid of that.
I have just put in an order for about $100 with iherb with various deodarants(has anyone tried crystal?) and also some herbs as mentioned here. White bark, fennel seed. Also a liver cleanse course.
I hope it will help. I would have no problem spending $100 a month or more if it helped.
Over the last year or so I tried all sorts of differnet diets but they were doing me more harm than good. Red meat, gluten, sugars I gave them all up. My smell didn't improve in any case.
However I went from weighing like 150 pounds
to 120 and looked like death.(5"11 male) So now I'm back eating whatever I like and am putting back on the weight.