I completed the first day of my fast tonight, Tuesday night. I am committed to continuing to develop the mental/emotional breakthrough to enable a long fast. I am finding myself much warmer and more open and trusting with others. I felt real security, safety, and warmth from some others in a group I was in just the other day. This at long last -- something I have waited for in my life for a long time.
Someone messaged me:
"We are way stronger than we give ourselves credit for."
So I have completed Day One as of Tuesday night and I am into Day Two.
So Day Two is completed tomorrow, Wednesday.
I cannot pretend this is easy keeping up my resolve. Support plez!!!! Anyone. :P
Physically nothing at all to report. I was groggy today as the result of the food I ate yesterday -- that's it. An improvement in mood as the nighttime came and the 24-hour mark of the fast approached. A few mild "hunger" pangs. I was reading on line about fasting and I think maybe in Isabelle Moser's site there was mention of these feelings and that you have to realize when these are not hunger. You have to discern between the false (bacterially-created) pangs and true hunger. I would really like someday to fast to completion/experience true hunger. I think this is really possible for everyone. I think we can really achieve that level of health. On this site it really hit me the attitude to take to the false pangs. You just have to say to yourself: "This isn't hunger! This isn't hunger!" For some reason that was really positive and healing and exciting and resonant for me. It helped me right through the false pangs today. it helped me get through them so easily. Maybe in this fast I will reach the point of no more pangs!!!
The only challenge is keeping myself happy through the day and keeping a sense of warmth, connection, and caring in my life.
I have 2 friends that I can talk to tomorrow and I will be going to some AA meetings, where I just pretend everyone is fasting/food-sober (i.e. not eating when eating is not OK with them) when they speak of sobriety. Ha! Am not alcoholic but AA meetings are always a feel-good, spiritual place for me. I am going to them a lot right now in my current work to learn to fast/be "food-sober."
Someone recommended 23 days to me and this is a very appealing and appropriate-feeling goal.
23 days is a big goal but I am aiming to do as long as I can by having a big goal... on the idea that if I aim high and get halfway there that is great and might be more than I would do if I aimed lower ???
I do not expect to do such a long fast but I keep the idea of it in my mind as a lovely possibility. And it could happen; people have had spontaneous healing experiences like this, I've read on various forums accounts of things like this... I am affirming the possibility of it for myself!!!