I thank every one of you for responding. I don't feel so alone anymore. When this started to escalade in me I become pretty much a loner. I hated how people looked at me when I sought help.
When I spoke of the condition to certain friends I soon realized they didn't hug me anymore to say good by, or rest their hand on my shoulder to make a conversation more personal when they spoke. I could see in there eyes a fear like EEWWW, is she now contageous having these critters? Their phone calls slowly dwindled, until finally, I found myself dealing with this all alone.
When my headaches became unbearable and left me bedridden for weeks at a time, I eventually had to give up my job, or be layed off indefinately. Those were the options given me.
In a 1 year period I'be seen 38 doctors, 5 specialists and even went for testing at a school of natureapathy in the lower mainland of Vancouver. They too said it was impossible to have anything get into the brain, and tried to convince me that the blood brain barrier would prevent that from ever happening.
About 3 weeks ago I was at the main library in downtown Vancouver searching for books relating to my condition. I was in the corner somewhat hidden from everyone and out of the blue I just started crying - just tears, no sound. This is all so overwhelming.
As I sat there hidden from everyone, this lady came around the corner and started talking,saying that nothing in the world could be so bad to make someone give up...or soemthing to that effect.
At first I didn't know who she was talking to because I coudln't see her. I was hidden and facing a window. But then she tapped me on the shoulder. When I turned and looked at her, I was a tad stunned because I didn't make a sound. Or at least I don't think I did.
She asked me if I wanted to tell her what was upsetting me so. I told her. I told her everything - how it happened, when, and all the hasstles in between...to that date.
As I spoke I sat there wondering when she would tell me to stop and excuse herself in order to run away. But she didn't do that. Instead, as I spoke her eyes swelled up with tears. She took and gently held my hand and never said one word until I was done talking.
I dont' even think I asked her name. If I did, I don't remember.
When I finished talking she mentioned certain things as though she knew me. But for some reason, I didn't realize what she said until AFTER she lef, which was a first for me as I'm usualy very intuitive.
Her instruction to me was to go home and look up anything I could find on Rife. She said that with my audio video skills I shouldn't have a problem creating the raw sounds. How she could have known that about me, I don't know. I never mentioned it to her as it wasn't relevent to my conditon - or so I thought.
After she told me to create the sounds, she mentioned the curezone site and told me I would meet others with similar conditions who could guide me further. Not saying much more after that, she left...as if she were never there. I've gone back to the library numerous times, yet haven't seen her since that day.
That said, I've read all I could on this Royal Rife and his tones. I then went a few times to have a reading. If the reading is accurate, what I have inside me is disgusting, to say the least. I was also told that when a person zaps, the reading changes because the parasites have parasties in them. So, when you kill off the host(when it explodes), you now have the parasites to deal with that were living inside the host. That apparently is an ever revolving door.
For several weeks I tested the different tones mentioned for those parasites I am host to. At first nothing happened. I didn't realize that the tone needed to be "raw". But in trial and error after about a week of failure, I began to feel things happening. The problem is, I don't know if its supposed to feel like this or not. For that reason, I stopped doing it!
When I applied the tones, the parasites in my head run around rampant. And then I somethines hear, and or feel, a "pop", as if somethings exploded. Soon thereafter all the movement stops....until I apply another tone.
I started experamenting at 3am this morning with my Oscilloscope and have applied upwards of 12 tones together in a string, but found that its almost overwhelming to absorb physically. What I noticed though, is that I haven't as much movement in my head today.
Unfortunately, I don't have any funds available to get retested or to buy any herbs. I've been waiting since late April/early May for an MRI, and could wait upwards to a year or more before I'm called.
All said and done...aside from all of you who've given your priceless feedback, I'm on my own. I had to apply for social assistance a few months back. Unfortuntely, my rent is nearly double that of my entire cheque. I use to donte my time at the food bank. Now I rely on the food back for food. I've applied for low income housing but it seems I might find myself on the street before they find me a room...
The bottom line' I can't afford anything at this point in time that costs money. My only option is to barter...but I'm not sure what and how reliable I could be with my condition. If any of you have idea's, please post them.
A few days ago I noticed in a post that someone pasted a list of rife frequencies. Could you post those again please? And could you tell me how many frequencies you play together at one time? Is it one tone, two, or more in a sting?
I appreciate and thank all of you. You've been so wonderful and helpful. If there is anything I can do with my limited resources, please don't hesitate to ask...
Again...may our father in Heaven heal and protect us all from these horrible creatures. Amen? Amen!