Blog: Journey back from depression
by woodlawn

3.2

End of the day.

Date:   4/19/2005 8:49:02 PM   ( 10 y ) ... viewed 1616 times


Wow. Yoga tonight was Hard. Really hard! It's kind of exciting to take a really hard class. I had to modify a lot, but it still felt great. Last week, someone mentioned that I would have an easier time returning to regular practice if I didn't compare myself to my classmates. That is one of the few things that is actually not a problem for me at the moment. I am so heavy and out of shape that I can't help but just be inspired by the other people in my class. There's really no comparison whatsoever, as I'm nowhere near at the same level of practice right now. It's very freeing! I worked hard to keep the old ego down when I practiced before, and I usually managed to stay in balance. Occasionally, though, ego and jealousy would bubble up. It's hard for them not to when you spend enough time working really hard towards something. I would notice them, and let them go, but it did take vigilance. Now I don't even have to do that! Many things are harder for me now, but it's very nice that ego and jealosy are not a part of my yoga practice.

Tomorrow both M. and I are off work. We are going to rent rowboats in the park and have a picnic. M is very nice. Today I locked myself out of the house and had to go get the keys from him at work. I was all sweaty and in my gym clothes, but he looked genuinely happy to see me when I walked in. It made me feel really good.

I've been working towards changing my thought process. This morning I woke up having a minor panic attack. Instead of just trying to ignore all the negative thoughts, like I usually do, I tried to replace them with good thoughts. This is a really big step for me. It seemed to actually work. I've toned down the negative thoughts as I've gotten older, but they still crop up in a subtle way pretty much nonstop. It would be so liberating if I could actually get it to stop for good!

Writing my thoughts down seems to be a very effective tool for me. Regardless of how inconsequential everything is, it seems to sweep out my mind, to keep the same stale thoughts from rattling around.

Add This Entry To Your CureZone Favorites!

Printer-friendly version of this page
Email this message to a friend
Bookmark this page/Add to Favorites or press Ctrl+D
DISCLAIMER / WARNING   Alert Webmaster



Share:  Facebook  MySpace  Digg  Reddit  StumbleUpon  Furl this page  Delicious  BlinkList  dzone  Simpy.com  Fark.com  BlogMarks  Wists.com  Google


Terms of Service - Privacy Policy - Spam Policy - Disclaimer - Guidelines & Rules

CureZone Newsletter is distributed in partnership with www.netatlantic.com


Contact Us - About - Advertise - Stats

Copyright 1999 - 2015  www.curezone.org

0.111 sec, (2)

Add This Blog To Your CureZone Favorites!
 
Add This Entry To Your CureZone Favorites!

Comments (15 of 42):
you are a pearl 9thbody 10 y
YEAH! I am jealous… 9thbo… 10 y
Amen brother 9thbody 10 y
Re: Have I told yo… drofi… 10 y
Have I told you la… 9thbo… 10 y
I love you complet… 9thbo… 10 y
uh oh... i goofed.… drofi… 10 y
you are so hilario… drofi… 10 y
fear... woodlawn 10 y
Woodlawn- Hi!9th h… 9thbo… 10 y
I hear you! 9thbody 10 y
Oh yes, how about.… fledg… 10 y
Good for you, Wood… fledg… 10 y
Thanks, 9thbody. Y… woodl… 10 y
I just want you to… 9thbo… 10 y
All Comments (42)

Blog Entries (7 of 30):
3.2  10 y
Day Three  10 y
Colon Cleanse 2  10 y
Responses to comments (brief)  10 y
Colon Cleanse!  10 y
Writing, weight, and familia…  10 y
First Conscious Steps  10 y
All Entries (30)

Similar Blogs (10 of 185):
Plant Your Dream!  by YourEnchantedGardener  5 h
My 120 Day Broad Fa…  by celery stick  12 h
Tips on becoming an…  by PearlLopez  28 h
eradicate several d…  by stellabrook01  76 h
Four Features of Ma…  by joannayan  4 d
Feel Young Once Aga…  by swissoats  4 d
Intelgadgets- Produ…  by intelgadgets  4 d
Cheeta: Cultural He…  by Chef JeM  8 d
Water Fast for Spir…  by bluesky68  10 d
Psyche & Health  by Chef JeM  13 d
All Blogs (1,019)


High Blood Pressure?
3 easy exercises drop blood pressure below 120/80 as soon as today


Stay Hydrated With Adya Clarity
Breakthrough technology shows you why you might fee thirsty...


Find Real Cure!
New Holistic Medicine


Laxative Foods
The Best Constipation Relief Is In Your Kitchen! Click Here for The Full Art...


Wormwood Capsules, Clove Tincture
Hulda Clark Parasite Cleanse


High-Voltage Colloidal Silver
I finally found a colloidal silver made with high voltage and...


Your Ad Here
Place your ad here !


Oleander Pure Concentrate Capsules
Leukemia and Cancer Immune System Support, 15% Off with ...


Lugol’s Iodine Free S&H
J.Crow’s® Lugol’s Iodine Solution. Restore lost reserves.


Your Ad Here
Place your ad here !