Day 3: Beginning
Background and Day 3 post.
Date: 2/15/2011 11:37:41 PM ( 5 y ) ... viewed 1234 times
I am a recently turned 21 year old male. Between the ages 17-20 I took lots of drugs, alcohol, and ate crap. I also masturbated almost everyday with little breaks in intervals. When I started doing drugs (senior year of high school) I had befriended who I thought was my best friend. Having a history of depression, she and I indulged in drugs to escape life. I started getting acne on my cheeks and jaw the summer after high school. I had acne when I was a 12-15 on my forehead and nose but it went away and was mild. I turned more introverted and tired and hated to go out. I started putting on foundation when I went to college. I hated it. I skipped many classes and didn't go back and was out of college for a year and a half. I turned vegetarian summer of 2009. I started college again at 19 and ended my friendship with my best friend. Soon drugs and alcohol were cut cold turkey but was still eating crap. I stayed one semester and didn't go back even though I had straight A's. Summer of 2010 I turned vegan cutting dairy and any other animal product. Now I am 21 as of February 2011. I want to get rid of my acne and retrieve my self confidence back once and for all. Throughout these two years, I have had only a few moments where I felt alright with my skin and was clear only to be put back with breakouts. I have tried almost everything: topicals, antibiotics, vitamins, cleansers, apple cider vinegar, peels, beams, whatever.
I self diagnosed myself with having a thyroid problem. My hands are always cold and I feel I have an hormonal imbalance. My energy is low most of the time. I believe this in one of the many reasons for my acne. I also stopped masturbating because the days after I stopped, my face was clearer and glowed. When I did go back to masturbating, I could feel oil seeping out and my pores enlarged. I would have a cystic nodules around my jaw within a day or 2. Also white seems like acne scars on my nose or pimple bumps, they increase in size and have had this for years. Some days it is unnoticeable, other days it is clearly visible to anyone. I heard from my nurse practiced it might be a virus but I forgot the name. She put some heat beam on it a couple times and it reduced in size noticeably.
This might be my last resort to cure acne. I don't want to try accutane and the risks involved but if there is nothing else, I will do it. I could have candida too, but I am exhausted to type further...
On to the journal:
The first two days were just intense hunger pangs. Today was worst. I am starting to feel dizzy standing up and these past few hours, I have started feeling like I have to throw up acid from my stomach. I have been drinking water every hour or other. My focus is off and I feel sleepy. In fact I feel like sleeping after this long post. Tomorrow I will update. Thank you for reading. Hope you can relate to me.
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